Joey's Diary, Entry Five
Things have been distant between everyone recently. I can't help but fell
like it's all my fault. In major part, it is.
I've spent most of time sitting in front of my wall, contemplating what I'm
gonna' put there. To be honest, I don't have the slightest idea. As if it
were going to solve all of my problems. Don't I wish it could do that. It's
been keeping my mind off of......things.
Another event helping me keep my mind off things, is the annual Capesdie
Regatta. Bessie somehow roped me into helping out by being there for
registration. We're sponsoring it. Pacey's entering the race with "True
Love." After ending things with him, I was praying that things would go
back to the way they were. But it was a false hope. If anything, things
resulted to be more complicated then before, which I didn't think was
possible back then.
During the past few days, I've been thinking, why did Pacey and I brake
things off, if the situation was still going to suck?? I mean we got through
the worst part, telling Dawson, only to finish things. If that was going to
happen, then the relationship was pretty pointless. Out of everything, all we
ended up doing, was losing a couple of best friends. But hey, that's no big
deal, right?? Insert sarcasm here.
And now, to top it off, I can't stop thinking about him. I miss him so much,
and that's really scary, because now I'm realizing that what I told Dawson
was true. The reason I was with Pacey, was because I need him. I still need
him. I need Pacey.
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