Joey's Diary, Entry Six
I'm so depressed. I was thinking after Dawson found out about Pacey and me,
that I couldn't fell any more depressed. I was wrong.
At the beginning of the day, I had hoped Pacey and Dawson had reconciled,
when I saw the restaurant's flag on "True Love." But then Dawson entered the
Regatta with the B&B as his sponsor. I can't believe Bessie did that!! We
were in direct competition with Pacey, which is what I trying to avoid. And
then when I should've been upset with her, she went and reprimanded ME. She
told me to accept and deal with the consequences my relationship with Pacey
brought on. And I'm trying to do that.
I asked Pacey to talk to Dawson about somehow figuring out the whole race
thing. Well, like I anticipated, they raced against each other. However they
acted as though they were the only ones in the race. Dawson cut Pacey off,
and Pacey having the right of way, changed course and turned around. So in
the end, they both lost. Dawson was disqualified. He tried to use the excuse
that he was doing it for me, but I saw through it. He said he'd try to be the
friend I need him to be, but I don't want him to try. I want him to be that
friend. The friend that would be there unconditionally no matter what
happened.
Pacey later asked me if it weren't for Dawson, could I love him like a
soulmate. I don't know. Yes, no, maybe. I'm just really confused. and I don't
know what I'm supposed to do. I've said that a lot lately, but it's how I
feel. I ended up at Dawson's that night. We watched "E.T.", but Pacey was in
the back of my mind, the entire time.
When Pacey had asked me earlier that day if all I wanted was for him to talk
to Dawson, I said, yeah, that was it. Well, I lied. For some reason, with
anything pertaining to Pacey, I end up lying through my teeth!! But I lied. I
also want him.
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