| I hear my own voice inside my head It screams what I don't say aloud I promised myself that when I'm 30 If I still feel this much alone I promised myself I'd end my life in suicide ...I'm growing up way too slow Why doesn't 30 come any sooner? Why am I waiting so long? I suppose I'm waiting for it to get better I'm surprised that I think that someday I could be cured They said I'm going through hard times That it would all go back to normal Why doesn't the normal come? Maybe this is normal Why can't I feel it? Why doesn't it come? If you tell me there's a god Then you seek him out and you let him know that I'm crying Because I haven't been able to find him I can't go on Not another moment Not another second "Why am I still here? I said I can't go on!" The moments are still passing "I'm going to die right NOW I know it Stop the time passing! Stop it! I SAID STOP! WHY AM I STILL BREATHING?! STOP IT! NOW! STOP IT NOW! STOP PASSING ME BY! Notice me! Notice me..." Another moment passed... It feels so much harder than it is My heart still beats My blood still flows I'm still breathing in and out Cut myself to see it bleed To know I'm still alive... And I know I'm still alive The torture The torment It still lives on inside me It's in my body In my blood Tear my flesh open to let it out I see the blood flow but where is all the pain? Why don't my tears come out with my blood? Cut another gash Why doesn't it come out?! I'm crying But not from the slashes on my body I'm crying Because I can't find the pain It's in my blood It's in my veins I'm spilling blood I'm spilling tears Why doesn't it come? I know it's there I can still feel it |
| Never Break A Promise |