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| JUNE 2000 |
| SUBSIDE (MUSCUTT) Can�t keep the act up I�m beginning to fall can�t pretend to be me anymore I stand and failed Subsiding I�m sliding away from the world again personality goes wrong again And my friends don�t see me in a way that�s the same and I�m changing into you You feel wasted stay out of the line of fire subsiding I�m sliding away from the world again away from you Can�t understand or bear this quiet guilt too much for me again Sleeping is such a waste of time subsiding personality love cannot change your name love cannot change me again Another song from the earlier era of writing songs � this was written on the first day of the band�s creation, I think. It kind of has the potential to be either really good or God damn awful, we�ll have to see. |
| INHUMAN (MUSCUTT) Something�s gone inside and it want me I can�t let go it�s in my head It�s stuck in here and it�s making me seem like I�m not human I laugh when I shouldn�t even smile Enjoying the bad things that happen to you it�s the way you make me feel That makes me what I am I can�t change it I can�t escape it now it�s making me evil I�m blank when I shouldn�t be awake Smiling at the bad things that you do to influence me to be the same as me you can�t get away You can�t run away now it�s making you seem like you�re inhuman you cry when you want to feel pain Don�t try to investigate don�t stop to ask me why I�m like this a version of what I am but I cry in the night Wanting to escape my dreams of constant life This was written during my time as a student, much as I hate talking about that stage of my life. It�s basically about trying to feel different to those around you, in my case it was being trapped in a halls of residence which I hated, with about 59 students. Believe me, if you hate students, a halls of residence is not the place to be. |
| COMPLICATED (MUSCUTT) Wanting to explain it but the words come out wrong for you and I know it�s gone wrong for me Complicated problems I can�t explain to you living with it now it�s all up for me Trying to call saying you�d be helpless with a problem like mine laughing at me just breaks all the rules Complicated problems I can�t explain to you living with it and now it�s all up to me Throw away all the letters I have sent change your name for me Hear me out but I can change too but you say you�ve heard it all before Complicated problems I can�t explain to you living with it now it�s all up for me Complicated problems I can�t explain to you living with it now it�s all up for me One of the many relationship songs � well, it�s not strictly, but that is the main gist of the song. More specifically it�s about trying to explain something to somebody else and generally not making a very good job of it. |
| MAKING ME (LAUGHTON) Standing here questions but no answers already chosen but not by me I�m being created looking good must be me but just not me The making of me the best I can be I�ve got to be the best I can making me is the making of me This isn�t my dream just living all the same insane I knew I couldn�t ever stay the same Untrained untamed it�s the making of me the best I can be I got to be the best I can Making me is the making of me Got to sit in front of the people pretend like I don�t care We�re the same underneath so don�t despair the questions are asked but not by me Pre-written pretending I don�t care when I realise we�re all the same Pretending I don�t care when I realise I�ve made it Simon�s second contribution is about identity. It deals with who we are, and wondering what life is all about. I particularly like the line �got to sit in front of the people pretend like I don�t care�. It�s sort of�pretending to be someone different. I don�t know, I haven�t asked him if that�s strictly what this song is about. NO HOPE (MUSCUTT) None for any more of this never anyone in just four walls of sin and me Barricade my emotions and you laughing in my sleep is praise until it happens I wish I could get away I want a chance to show you but there are dead ends without reason No hope is all I have that�s all I ever have say to me I�ll never be everything I want to be Say to me I�ll never see all the things I want to see I want to be the best and this reputation kills me Never get rid of this feeling I�m being beaten I want a chance to see I only want to hear good word put in for me None for me you never did try so hard I guess we�ll try harder I guess we�ll have to try harder next time This was originally called �No Hoper� when first written, slightly later than the first batch of songs written on the very first day the band was up and running. It�s about the times you feel like you�re not worth anything and kind of undervalued by others, a feeling I think we all get from time to time. |
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