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| JULY 2000 |
| THE LIGHTHOUSE DRUGS (MUSCUTT) These lighthouse drugs make me so high sitting here I can lights in the sky Just climb the stairs with me we can watch the stars fly above us Feel so good forgetting all the things you have to do feel so bad forgetting the guilt and pain in the pouring rain Feel the same I can�t go on living this way I want to get out I want to come down These lighthouse drugs make it seem alright and when the comedown calls for me I�ll be leaving It�s not a physical side of me as you will see it�s a chemical side of me Feel so good forgetting all the things you have to do Feel so bad forgetting the guilt and pain in the pouring rain feel the same I can�t go on living this way I want to get out I want to come down and now you�ve gone and left the lighthouse gone and thrown it all away Said goodbye to the lighthouse and the way it made you feel inside We won�t desert you and the life you left behind disillusioned once again I ditched my works today blind to myself I forgot the world again I actually started writing an idea for a story around this song, or was it the other way around? No, the song came first and then I tried writing the story based on it. It�s still a sort of shelved thing, I�ve never got round to doing it. The song is about this lighthouse that�s been all disused and gone to ruin for years, when it�s used as a drugs den by local users, and one drug addict�s experiences at the lighthouse and his subsequent ditching of drugs. The story was going to expand on that idea and was originally a screenplay. MISFIT BOYS (MUSCUTT) We don�t fit in now I don�t we ever did All our friends ditched us and dumped us that�s if we had any in the first place Why am I such a misfit? All I want to do is fit in but nobody will let me Nobody knows my name and nobody wants to know So when we go to the disco I�ll sit and watch the world go by Why am I such a misfit? All I want to do is fit in but nobody will let me We�re misfits in a world of assorted people trying our best to blend in with the crowd But we stick out we�re odd and we don�t fit and I can�t get rid of this feeling that modern life high living is shit I had a great idea about using this sample from a Denis Leary CD called �Lock And Load� on this song. There�s a sketch about something and right before it starts there�s this little voice saying �dipshit, misfit, why am I such a misfit� or something, and I really liked that. The song is about�you�ve guessed it, people who don�t fit in. It�s really quite bad, but I always stuck with it in case I got round to using that sample on it if I ever recorded a version of it. DARKNESS (MUSCUTT) Lying in the darkness hours it�s hot and cold I hear sounds not heard in the daylight But we can�t see things concealed by night time distant shadows tower then fall over a fading city landscape Far above the darkness hours you can feel it too Solidify around the bodies of the sleeping and over hours untouched by life until the dawn approaches Fade to blue and I�m here with you were you with me when the shadows were here Lying in the morning I feel you sleeping lying in the morning because you felt you wanted more Next to me everything seems not nearly bad I sent some songs out to people via email a while back (around August 2000) and got some replies back, one regarding this song, which a girl in Cambridge said �it was pretty good�. So, I guess if other people think it�s OK, that�s good enough for me. In this song, I wanted to get across the fact that night time sort of covers everyone up and solidifies around them, keeping them asleep until dawn comes along and then �unfreezes� them. Like being in suspended animation or something. I know that some people are dead to the world when they go to sleep (me included) and this song tried to reinforce that idea. |
| TOWER BLOCKS (MUSCUTT) See the TV screen see it moving side to side call me from the outside call me from the inside waiting for you You and me mean nothing now we�ve cut the system down to size We�re on the inside looking at everything waiting for us We�re not really here but you left the motor running on the motorway You and me mean nothing now we cut the system down to size Everyone�s on my side everyone is on-side we steal their freedom steal their speaking cut nothing on my side Nobody�s on my side this time she and you mean everything to me As you clutch at burning buildings there�s only friendship she says she screams Inside you feel the strain like you never thought you would I can still accept it if you�re on my side A totally, totally random song, it was just a case of writing down lines as they came to me, with no sense of direction or anything. It makes for quite a disjointed song, and in some ways I think that�s quite good, but don�t try and follow it or anything, because there�s nothing to follow! Like that David Lynch film � �Lost Highway�. VIRUS IN, DEATH OUT (MUSCUTT) Eating into me it affects you the soldiers march onto another new day Another day another dollar they say but when will you find a cure for this Situation it puts me in they say the chances are low and so are you my love They say they can�t be sure but I know it�ll be there for me Wasting me daily but I can�t feel any pain will you stay till the end? Another day another lucky escape they say but how can you escape what�s inside you? For me and this situation it puts me in they say the chances are slim I�m getting too thin too soon They say I�m wasting away but can you be sure that I�m coming back again? They say they can�t save me now but be aware that you do what you can when you�re losing the war Your family�s poor you can�t afford a cure it looks like the end it looks like the end for me When it comes for me I won�t fight I won�t fight when it comes for me This song is about terminal illness - a cheery subject at the best of times � and a sufferer giving in and accepting that they are going to die, and that no amount of treatment or drugs will save them. Kind of takes on a reverential meaning after the death of George Harrison, who had cancer. |
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