Novels
Why do people choose to read a novel? How do they decide to take on the burden of going through this intolerably long work of
something that eventually turns out to be pure fiction? A better question: why do people write novels?
“No, I really don't know”
B. said to himself, looking at Marek's scuffed notebook, which he knew to contain parts of some sort of novel, composed and commented on by
Marek himself over the last few months. The whole thing now seemed to be no fun, however. Marek sat there drinking a coffee with large,
miserable gulps.
A few months ago he had been like a proud mayor unveiling plans for a new park, full of fountains and wild animals. Now
he was always frowning about something, indulging, as it seemed, in a kind of mute kvetching about the world. No newspaper left his hands
uncrumpled, no TV interview failed to provoke a faint hiss of revulsion.
What started out as an interesting adventure, thought B., has
become his Vietnam!
At about the time that B. was fantasizing about saying, “Well, I've had enough of this”, Marek suddenly
pulled his belongings together—his canvas bag, his pens, notebook, plastic refillable lidded coffee mug—and gave a sigh of defeat.
It was the sort of sigh that should have been the last of a series.
“I've had enough of this”, said Marek
And so
they were going to head out into the winter evening, and the sky was a brilliant mess.
“Aren't you coming?” asked Marek.
“I thought we'd go to the Shepherd's Arms for some relaxation.”
“No, that's all right. You go,” said B.
“I'll just stay here and, uh ... try to think of something.”
At the Malyi Theatre
One day the handsome prince is hunting in the woods. We live in an age of universal cowardice and hypocrisy.
He
cheerfully follows his prey with his expert dogs. He is happy and carefree until he meets Kretschmer, the magician, who startles him with his
ancient tricks: he makes a snake appear wrapped around the prince's shoulders, and just as suddenly transforms it into an Italian silk tie; he
breathes fire; he turns a mushroom into a nightingale, which he then releases into the woods; and finally he cuts a newspaper into ribbons and
restores it to its previous state. “All these things and more,” he says “I shall teach you, if you will come with me. I shall
show you wonders and give you power over many things. I shall tell you the names of the stars, and you will know them as well as you know your
hounds.”
The prince considers this, thinking: “I have power enough as it is, and my use of it constitutes my honour. And yet, I would like to
know - ” No sooner has this thought occurred to him than the magician vanishes. Turning from this prodigy, the prince finds the woods
unfamiliar and his path home confused. His dogs are nowhere to be seen. He begins to make his way nonetheless, but the sun proves an unreliable
guide. Finally, he sits down and broods on his predicament with the detachment one acquires when nothing seems to work any more. He might have
wept, but he was no good at it. He might have prayed, but he had no confidence in his ability to find suitable words. And in a flash he
realises that his castle, even if he could say where it was, would not really exist, nor even the village beneath it, because nothing occupies
geometrical space any longer. Yet, by the same token, he can also find anything, anywhere, at any time. This he sets out to do.
Cross Section
For some reason the movie date wasn't working out. Kevin had felt this might well be how the thing would play. Something about
the agreement itself, the venue where they had hammered out the details (a corridor at work), the particular type of enthusiasm registered by
the woman, something like that had, at the very outset, tipped him off. And now there was no sign of her. Fifteen minutes to go and still no
sign of her. The people who came dripping down the escalator did not look as if they could possibly include her. Groups and pairs of sedated
habitués of the malls, out for an evening of something, looking as if they all came from the same place. They were too - what? Casual?
Unheeding? Too under-statedly elegant?
Kevin had things to think about, however. The software at work was acting out. Everyone had had
problems this week. He spent the last two days wandering around the halls and talking to people about legendary computer problems. It was
amazing how people seemed to open up when the computers were out, almost like people brought together in the wake of a great storm. No one was
actually injured, but they all had stories to tell.
And where was she? Five minutes to show time. Go in or not? Of course a movie date
is negotiable: the person who is stood up can always go to the movie and have a good time. In fact it is almost an index to a person's maturity
how well he amuses himself at the movie when the other party fails to appear. “Oh, don't worry about that - I liked it, but you might
have found it a bit dull.” (It is just as important not to pretend to have had too good a time).
Why would she not have turned up?
What was the likelihood of each possible reason? Well, if you've time on your hands—
60% - “Something came up”, which
is to say something better, even marginally so, was offered - staying at a coffee shop talking to a friend, for example.
23% -
“Forces beyond control”, transportation, work, etc.
8% - “There's been a change in plan”, i.e., reconsidered the
plan in a lucid moment and was aghast at having agreed to it.
7% - “Forgot all about it”, which could also include
confusion, momentary paralysis of the will, etc.
2% - “Death”, probably the only real good excuse.
Where was she?
Maybe she was unable to come because ... what if she were like that man at the park on Sunday, in some sort of semi-conscious state, wheeled
around by sympathetic relatives? They bought him an ice cream cone and had him eat it. “Lick it!” they cried. “Lick it with
your tongue, Mike! There you go. You're doing good. Eat 'er up! Y'finished? Are you? You don't want any more? You had enough, that's okay.
You're doing really well, Mike! I say you're doing really well!!” She might be just like that man, alive and conscious, but unable to do
anything more than lick an ice cream cone at someone else's instructions.
And if she were dead? Wasn't that a horrifying possibility?
What to do? Probably nothing now. It would be revealed the next day, or even later. Kevin reasoned that the terrible impact on her relatives
and very close friends would no doubt make this disappointment of his seem puny, and he began to reflect on the possibility of her having died.
He sat down at still another coffee bar with a fresh styrofoam container of coffee. He would be shocked, of course. Saddened. To think of this
vibrant young woman, who had everything to live for - job, nice apartment, on her way to a critically-acclaimed movie - struck down, never to
be heard from again. It was ... how bad was it?
Kevin darted up to the box office. By the time he found the individually-wrapped theatre
at the end of a plush hallway, the movie was well under way. There were vast explosions. Space stations were harassed with laser weapons fire.
Fighter squadrons were scrambled. Many people and many, many aliens were killed. But eventually the problem was solved, and the universe was no
longer at war.
Fred Q.: an Appreciation
Fred Q. was an actor whom you will have seen in comparatively small roles on late night television. Typically he is
breaking into an office after hours looking for something. He goes over to the filing cabinet, puts the flashlight in his teeth to facilitate
his search. Within seconds he draws the necessary folder from the cabinet. The third sheet of paper in it tells him all he needs to know: so it
was a set-up all along! McQaid was just playing for time and had Schaeffer killed to make it look like an accident.

“So it was a set-up all along!”
Suddenly the lights
go on. And what do we see?
We see that Fred Q. was in several musical comedies: he was the irrepressible but less attractive friend of
the romantic lead who consoles the girl when she thinks she has been rejected. He never seems to have a girlfriend, though, until the very end
of the movie, when he starts holding hands with the irrepressible but less attractive friend of the romantic lead's girlfriend.
But Fred
Q. had a series on television for a while: he is the bemused father of some children. He has a career, one of those undemanding jobs where you
spend most of your time coming home from the office with a briefcase. Sometimes he breakfasts at home, and then sets out for the office, but
only if some issue involving his family requires it.
Similarly, Fred Q. played the father of a problematic family in a number of later
films: he often feels harassed and lacking in support in these instances; he wants a peaceful life with his hobbies, or he wants simply to
enjoy his vacation without interference. To this end he sometimes retreats to his “den”, or goes out to do some “yard
work”. He is sometimes seen to take a drink, usually a cocktail, as the social context may dictate, but there is no reason to suppose
that he self-medicates with alcohol when alone. Undeniably, Fred Q.'s emotional life is rather thin. He is disinclined to verbalize, however,
preferring to make light of his lack of affective connection through harmless-seeming “quips” and witty comeback-making behaviour.
He often muses on those years when, long ago the lights go on without warning. Fred Q. freezes, and then begins to turn around slowly.
He has learned something valuable here, but once again the game is up, at least for now. He raises his hands and hopes for courage, ideas,
luck, but best of all: a mistake by his enemies.
Inventory
THOMASI'm certain there's nothing in it. You shouldn't be frightened. I don't think they can do anything to you. What can
they do? Realistically?

“You know, Marek,
I'm sorry about all this.”
MAREKRealistically?
THOMASWhat can they do? I don't
think they can prove anything. Do they know anything? Is there anything for them to know?
MAREKI don't know what
they might know. I don't think there's anything.
THOMASSee, I think they'll fish around and come up
empty.
MAREKHm.
THOMASAnd they have to prove things. It's up to them to prove things.
It's not enough to just keep repeating what they've heard.
MAREKWhat could they have
heard?
THOMASYes, what could they have heard? What could they have heard?
MAREKCould they
have heard something?
THOMASDo you know what they've heard so far?
MAREKNo
idea.
THOMASIs there anything for them to hear?
MAREKI'm not sure. I mean, how would I
know?
THOMASThey may not know anything. But they might have heard something. So far as we know, then, that's all you
have to worry about. Them hearing something. See?
MAREKI don't know. I'm worried, anyway. Even if they don't hear
anything, it's a problem.
THOMASI know.
MAREKI mean, they could make things
up.
THOMASWhat could they make up?
MAREKI don't
know.
THOMASHave they made anything up?
MAREKI'm not
sure.
THOMASIs there anything for them to make up?
MAREKThey could ... make something up,
I suppose.
THOMASOkay. Okay. That's a problem, that could be a problem. You have to try to think what they could
make up.
MAREKThey might make just anything up!
THOMASWell, not just anything. It would
have to be reasonable. It would have to be something like: they'll say whatever, and people will go “Hm, well, you know - could
be”. See? And that's where the trouble could start, not really serious trouble - I mean, you can always disprove stuff - but that's where
the work comes in.
MAREKRight.
THOMASThe more reasonable they sound - that's where you'll
get the trouble.
MAREKRight. I see.
THOMASIf they made up some story about how you were
from outer space or something -
MAREKRight, I see. No one would believe it.
THOMAS- or
that you were a vampire - something like that's not reasonable.
MAREKRight. The
idea!
THOMASBut they might - I'm not saying they will, but they might come up with something half-way plausible.
Something that will just about seem as if it could be.
MAREKWhat would that
be?!
THOMASWell, I don't know. There are things - oh, I don't know, use your
imagination.
MAREKLike - what do you mean?
THOMASWell - do I have to spell it
out?
MAREKYeah! Actually.
(Pause)
THOMASSupposing you had a lot of friends who were on
vacation - and they went someplace very different form here - you know, some places are very free and easy, they have less discipline, less
individuality, they're very lively - people go out on the beach, drinking, taking drugs, dancing, passing out in the sand dunes - and your
friends came back from this place with a lot of contraband - and someone said, “"Hey, I bet -
”
MAREKLook, I don't have any friends. So -
THOMAS - no ...
friends?
MAREKI don't have any friends. Not close friends. I mean, I can't afford to talk to people or
socialise.
THOMASYou must have some. Even people you don't see too often.
MAREKNo, I
don't talk to anybody. The superintendent where I live, I might say a few words to him the odd time. The guy in the corner store. But I can't
have friends in the business I'm in.
THOMASRight, right, well, we'll leave that as a question mark for now. Let's
see ...
MAREK“Bien oui, malgré tout, si ce n'est déjà fait, il est temps de planifier vos vacances. Hélas.
Il vous semble y avoir trois mille raisons de ne pas y penser et/ou en prendre? C'est impossible parce que.. et parce que... . Il vaudrait
peut-être mieux vous adapter, changer vos croyances et attentes et penser des vacances selon les réels possibles tout simplement?”
Sorry. Just reading the back of this brochure.
THOMASI wonder how reasonable that is. Have you seen this play,
L'après-midi d'un déprimé? It's just chock-a-block with -
MAREKNo, I haven't. I don't have much time for plays
and things since all this trouble broke out. No, I'm frightened, Thomas. And it's funny, this is the first time I've ever been truly
frightened. No, what I'm most afraid of is finding myself on vacation without knowing how that happened. I can remember, when my brain was no
bigger than a baseball, the one thing I could discern was the face of a sister or mother or father - that's odd. You don't know anything, at
that age, but you know that.
THOMASThere's really no time for ... reminiscing. I'm surprised at you, shocked - yes.
There - it's not really, really, really serious, not grave and, you know - desperate. But you could cause a lot of trouble to yourself and
others if you don't clear this up. And you want to do it in a timely manner.
MAREKI'm just getting to that. I was
thinking of vacations and things. There's something there.
...
THOMASRemember: we haven't broken any laws
yet.
MAREKRight. This is just all talk.
THOMASAnd we haven't even talked about breaking
any laws. You understand? Nothing we've said in fact comes even anywhere close - anywhere close - to a violation, or an infraction, or anything
implying any attempt to circumvent a law or statute or regulation anywhere in the penal (or, indeed, any other)
code.
MAREKRight. But I was thinking -
THOMASNo. You weren't thinking about
anything.
MAREKWell, surely there's no harm in -
THOMASThat's a - that's a sort of myth
you people cling to, but the old saw holds true: thought becomes speech becomes intent becomes action. The neat little equation is
unassailable.
MAREKWell. I don't know.
THOMASThere is no firewall, if you will, between
any of these things. And this equation, although perfectly true, somehow escapes notice by people like you, all the time - to your
sorrow!
MAREKYes, I know, I know. I know what you mean. I'm not saying I was thinking of doing anything - I just
meant I was trying to think my way around this trouble.
THOMASExactly. Now, as your lawyer -
MAREKBut you're not a lawyer - remember?
THOMAS... No, that's true. And we've so far
done nothing illegal, right. Right. Let me think.
THOMASSo what I need for you to do for me is to stop doing things.
What are you doing later?
MAREKWell, I was planning on -
THOMASWell, don't do that.
Okay?
MAREKSure. Okay.
THOMASWhat are up to tomorrow,
anything?
MAREKHm -
THOMASBut you won't do that either.
Right?
MAREKRight. I guess.
THOMASLook - I know how hard that must sound. But I can't
emphasize enough how important this is. You've got to do nothing. I can't see any way around it, I can't see anything you could do at this
point that would be completely free of -
THOMASYou know, Marek, I'm sorry about all this. I didn't think it would
get this far. Well, that's not true: I mean I thought we had a chance, a better chance. We've pretty much run out of options now, and I think -
you agree?
MAREKYes, I do see that.
THOMASYou do. That's, you know, the most humane way
of looking at it, and I'm glad you agree. It would just - I don't think it would serve any purpose to try to explore more avenues. I am kind of
experienced in this, and I have to say there is no real possible way this could be turned around.
MAREKI do
understand that, Thomas. I think you've done a real good job. You've also been very, uh, understanding, very sympathetic. I do feel
that.
THOMASWell, as I say - I've seen quite a few cases like this. In general practice you'll sometimes come across
a patient who - presents, shall we say - with -
MAREKBut you're not a doctor. Are you,
Thomas?
THOMASNo. No. That's true.
THOMASBut - you've actually written things down? What
got into you?
Man of Tomorrow
A man found a bag of money. He was rich.

“Teach the blind to fish, and you will have accomplished something.”
People asked, “Where
did you get all your money?” “I found it!” he said, and he would tell the story of his coming upon one of those aluminium
briefcases full of fresh stacked bills, which soon became a familiar topos in the movies. He grinned and posed for pictures, and the magazine
articles were pitted with his remarks. People wanted to know what his life was like, and what sort of advice he could give about making a
fortune.
He seldom gave interviews, but a typical one contained something like: “Teach the blind to fish, and you will have
accomplished something.”
It's hard to say, but people may have felt he had the power to restore us to our original nature, heal
us, and make us happy and blessed.
He set about the obscure business of revitalizing the city. He renamed it “Skytop”, just
to get things moving. Then he looked through newspaper editorials in search of advice and, indeed, guidance. Probably the education system
needed a thorough rebooting. Also parking regulations were obviously outdated.
It seems he might build a gap to the next century!
Ordnance
His effects were transparent and I was tired of them. He thought those stupid Mooooobius strips (or whatever) meant

“He thought those stupid Mobius strips (or whatever) meant
something.”
something; he thought sex meant something; he thought anyone's doing anything meant something; he thought
television meant something. He was always trying to uncover the unique in the ordinary (and vice versa), and usually in a powerful way. He
tried to be passionate and provocative, and then, finally, he went and did something or other with language and ritual, and that was the last
straw: I had to slap him. Three, four times. And then I had to slap him some more. I had to slap him back and forth. It was a job of work.
“Stop it”, he said.
“No,” I said, “I don't think so. I think we're just beginning to get
somewhere”.
Despite myself, I end up imagining him at his desk, transcribing some notes and thinking: “This really seems to
make no sense, but I think if I insert some commas it will at least be easier to read. And if I take some commas out, it will become a poem.
And now I will go and teach others to do the same.”
Certain corrosion-
resistant steel sheet
products
originating in or emanating from
the United States
of Amerika
—he writes, feeling good about the enjambement.
It's so good when things work out. Emanating?
Of course, these were all his just-in-time poems. Yes. Centralized planning, decentralized
initiative. Produced on demand. Immediately disposable. Both the poems and the paper they are printed on can be tossed and recycled without
qualm.
He persists in sending me these poems. They would seem to concern some emotional contretemps he is supposed to have had. I can't
tell, a woman that dumped him, something like that. It sounds at first as if he has been dumped by a series of women, and has done nothing in
life other than get dumped, but a closer reading suggests that perhaps the culprit is a single woman acting alone.
There's usually the
name of some artist or poet stirred in. Dante. C�zanne. Chekhov. Then, a little way below the poem, the name of the place where it is meant to
have been written, in italics: Bangkok. Prague. Uttar Pradesh. London. Did he go to all those places? I
have to ask. What for? To write poems? Sometimes the date is noted there as well, as if that might add poignance for the knowledgeable
reader.
Sometimes famous bombings and massacres are dropped in. That's a bit like adding barbecue sauce to an otherwise tough and bland
piece of charred stuff. It's a bit like one of his non-viable metaphors.
The poet lives in some place that you'll have heard of and
enjoys parenting with his partner, So-and-So. Yet his book is dedicated to someone described as “my lover and companion”. What if
his partner finds out about this lover and companion? She might be too busy parenting to read any of his dumb books, of course, but you never
know when even the dullest person will surprise you, and it turns out they can pick up a book and read it. Let's not rule out the possibility
that perhaps this lover and companion is actually his wife; he may just feel uncomfortable saying that. (Legal implications).
The poet
teaches at the University. So there. He teaches creative writing. It's not that difficult. Give it a try.
Lenin said that in the future
a cook would be able to run the country, or something, and that everybody would be famous for fifteen minutes, so what's stopping you? Here's a
good idea for a poem: refer to yourself as “i”, use the present tense, talk about something disturbing that happened to you.
He blames foreign intelligence operatives for the world's problems, and is very concerned about the world. All death and pestilence is
obviously caused by the enemy. If there is anything to get angry about, it is the enemy. The enemy may be known among you because his value
system is all screwed up. When will people learn? one asks oneself with a knowing but rueful shake of the head, time and again.
He gets
angry with television and the media. “They keep selling us things!” he cries in anguish. It's horrible, horrible, the way people
buy and sell things and get rich, it shouldn't be allowed.
Angry, and just a little depressed, because once again the machinations of foreign intelligence operatives and their dupes are apparent in
the latest deeds of our government and in events worldwide. It's sad, really.
But every evening ends with wine and Thai food at
somebody's really nice apartment. What's a man supposed to do?
The Man Who Loved Kafka's Niece
My dreams mean nothing. I am almost
worn out by their idiocy. Sometimes I dream about people I know or things that have happened, only to find that the details become more and
more inaccurate as the dream continues, and I have to wake up and revise them. I dream that the wide roads of a Manitoba village lead to
downtown Toronto or, just as easily, the Lenin Library. Lying still in the gloom I might say: That's not quite right, or: There is no such
person, and anyway - they certainly wouldn't have done that. This must be a common experience, and I should hardly have remarked on it but for
a chance encounter with a man I knew years ago as a student.
My first impression of Lambert, when we met at the Technical College, was
of the sort of youngish man about whom almost anything is plausible because he is such a liar. Had he really taken those courses? Could his
prof have said that? Did he actually know that person? Was he really short of cash, and for the reasons given? After spending a couple of
evenings with Lambert it seemed as if the sum of what he had said called for rigorous debugging. Or perhaps (as we failed philosophy students
liked to say) his statements merely lacked falsifiability. No separate part was demonstrably wrong, or in obvious contradiction to any other
part, but the whole thing ultimately made no sense. If he were in the process of breaking up with his girlfriend, why then did he have to keep
phoning her? If he was going to have to keep phoning her all evening, why ask another woman to join him? If he had a woman there in the bar,
why insist on my coming out? The ramifications, in short, never looked like the right ramifications. In any case, to be his confessor was to be
torn between pity and bafflement. There was no very purposeful malice in him: with his pale face and tiny eyes he would have done well in the
role of a myopic, self-involved hit-man, who needs several tries to get the job done, assuming he feels up to tackling it. I sometimes used to
wonder if his character could not actually be improved by a measure of outright moral turpitude.
Some weeks after we had both finished our
courses, I saw him in a newly-opened grocery store, a sort of Jet Propulsion Lab hangar that sold, in addition to groceries, almost everything
you could think of weighing less than sixty pounds. He overtook me near the bulk foodstuffs area and said: "Come and meet my cousin, she's
having a coffee in the atrium! This way."
"Oh," I said. "Okay. You know, I haven't been in here yet. It's pretty impressive. All this food.
They even have lawn furniture."
"Yeah. That's right. I've told her about you. She's anxious to meet you."
"What? What do you mean?"
"She's only here for a week. Might be going to school here next year."
In this special "Atrium" - actually a lot of high tables and
stools near some windows - I could see a woman in her mid-twenties wearing a pea-jacket and stirring her coffee as if it were a new yet somehow
unpromising activity for her. She looked up at our approach, forced herself to smile, and then lay her head on the table. She continued to stir
her coffee, which was about five inches from her face. I noticed she also wore a pair of silver hoops through the covering of one nostril, the
one that was now uppermost.
"This is Janet," said Lambert, and then to his cousin he said: "We're just going to get a coffee, and then we'll
come and sit with you - if that's, you know, no problem."
"No problem," said Janet.
When we had returned to the table with our coffees,
Janet managed to pull herself together and the pair of them sat there waiting for me to say something.
"So, Janet," I said, "Lambert tells
me you're thinking about going to school? What sort of thing are you interested in?" But at that moment, and throughout the rest of the small
talk, or micro talk, that followed, the suggestion that she might be interested in anything - that she could be cozened into interesting
herself in anything, that she could be forced, even at gunpoint, to conceive of anyone's taking an interest in anything - that had to have been
in very poor taste, I felt. Lambert, however, was studying me with genuine curiosity, even as his cousin vanished down a spiral of ennui. And
that was the last I saw of Lambert or his cousin for a few years.
[Any sort of database work - at least, the sort I have
encountered -
grinds very slowly but exceeding fine]
I was toiling as a peon, supposedly refining the databse which, it was
hoped, would one day resemble a city directory]
For I hadn't actually had to go out collecting people's phone numbers
The integrity
of this knowledge.
Work is
Very little that you can do to counter this, but it has to be done all the
time.
Not like
celestial bodies, which appear to move unbidden, but betray a
desire to slow down and stop. Databases want to fudge up.]
One evening I was sitting in a bar after work, too bemused by a day's worth of corrupt data to go home immediately. And there he was,
recognizable by the facial expression of someone trying to extract an important article from the interior of an unyielding drawer. He sat down
next to me with a modest beam of triumph.
"Lambert!" I said. "How have you been? Up to anything?"
"I'm great," he said. "I've got this
job - sysadmin at, uh - " and here he lit a cigarette with a flourish.
"Where?"
"Yeah! I was even in New England for a few years, but
it's great to be back. So, where's that fool's paradise I keep hearing about?"
"This is it, I suppose."
He looked around the bar, noted
the decor, the sequestered couples. Then he said: "I've been seeing this woman - she lives here in town, I think you met her a few years ago -
we used to hang out together back then. She's involved with galleries and all that stuff. Anyway, after this I have to go and pick her
up!"
"Good, good," I said, "you sound excited."
"I am - for once. It's all been really good. You know - man, I was - just a second,
I have to make a phone call. Back in a second."
"Okay."
I watched him glide back to where the pay phones were. This contrasted
well with his former habit of shuffling off like a man in leg-irons to touch base with some discontented girlfriend. I used to keep hearing
about his rash dealings with other people, and marvelled at rumours of all kinds of trouble - drugs, fistfights, other men's wives - but there
again, what to believe? We failed philologists like to say: go with the lectio difficilior. This means that if there are two versions of a
passage, the one that makes less sense is the one to trust, on the assumption that a scribe who did not understand it is likely to have emended
the passage to something simpler and, therefore, further from the original. And so I was inclined to discredit the obvious; and here was my
friend reemerging from perdition and blind folly, and I began to think: What a good thing! People can and do work changes in their lives, and
probably with their head in the clouds the whole time. If you've a clear picture of what you are doing, it's probably nothing. And I could do
that too! Instead of going from a good job to a worse, and losing one thing after another.
Lambert came back from the pay phones
with a broad smile, finished his beer, and said: "Well, good to see you, gotta go - I'll give you a shout soon."
And so he dropped
out of sight for a good while. I find I have no trouble remembering our conversations almost verbatim, and without inhibition; yet, at the same
time, I have almost never given the man a second thought. He's there when he's there, and not when he's not.
It is no more than an
illusion, this trick one's memory has of isolating a single past event from others, as if it would be more faithfully preserved for being
unreachable. If I am not careful, a kind of panic sets in when happy scenes come to mind: I run into a protective hedge, which both keeps the
memory clear and cuts me off from it, almost taking it out of my possession and into the glass case of a public museum, or into the region of
unrewarding, common fantasy. To think of myself, for instance, teasing the 12-year-old son of a colleague one summer afternoon, letting on to
be disappointed at his reluctance to play a difficult piece on the piano:
"C'mon, just play it!"
"I'm not, uh ... I'm
working on another piece, let's see ... Oh! Sorry."
"I can hear that on the radio. Quit stalling. Play that Bach thing. Full speed
ahead. I know you can do it. Begin."
"Listen to this, first ... whoops. Sorry." He went stumbling through a pop tune from the
sixties.
I said, "What do you mean by eating chocolate and then playing the piano without washing your hands first? Look at those
keys! Who'd want to play after you?"
He went on playing, and the left hand sounded as if it were coming from the next room, which
tempered the performance and even made something consoling of it. Gusts of rain were hitting the windows behind us, and I imagined that if the
house were to come loose from its foundation and slide down the hill, no one would care.
Whatever ironic friendship we had then was
quite different from the merely emblematic goodwill we would show each other years later, when he had grown into a morose geologist full of
political concerns, the family scattered, and his parents' house - I'm afraid that sunny house smelling of cold tea and varnish must have been
torn down, to join the rows of many such houses in my mind. Still, it was undeniably there and, if I make the effort, the memory should be
neither beyond my reach nor compromised.
With Lambert things were quite different. Talking to him now was the same as talking to him
at any time, in the distant past or the remote future. It was difficult to form any static picture of him. We had very little in common, but I
sensed that he had been a mild disappointment to parents and teachers and, along the way, to other people as well, if not to everyone. You can
see something of this in a person's face, a resigned, helpless expression that comes of having to keep apologising.
Once he showed
me a little toy he had made called "Elugbo". Its heart was a small executable file called "elugbo.exe", which, when placed in a directory,
could then read any text file and transform it into an image. "I got the idea from that famous Chinese saying about painting and poetry," he
explained. I am not very expert with that sort of thing, but I tried it out. In addition to the executable, there were some other files and a
dictionary. You typed in the name of your text file (and its path, if necessary), hit "enter", and very soon a .gif file was produced. The
programme had read the file, noted the number of words and their length, used the dictionary to ascertain what parts of speech they were, even
made some calculation about periods per number of words (Lambert did tell me that the presence of colons altered the whole thing considerably),
and then translated all this into numerical data. I would guess one of the "Elugbo" files contained a template of some ready-made image -
probably pornographic - and that the data gleaned from the text were used to modify it in some arbitrary fashion. Anyway, the pictures turned
out by this thing were rather curious: bleached moonscapes and repeated cactus patterns. I unleashed it on a tedious paper about database
architecture I was trying to write. The paper was never finished, but I framed the picture Lambert's toy had produced - an enormous cashew
shape on a pink background, with an intriguing blank trapezoid at the top - and visitors to my place would invariably ask me about it.
I knew that after finishing up at the Technical College, Lambert had found a job as a systems analyst with a telephone company, and that he
had begun to develop his own particular ideas about books and movies. For example, one evening, shortly before he was to leave for this big
job, I was at the apartment he shared with his brother in the slightly gentrified North End. When I drew attention to a videocassette of Madame
Bovary lying on the floor, he said: "Some people read Madame Bovary and think - it's a story about some French woman who has an affair that
turns out badly, which is highly improbable. But what else could happen? In a movie like that?"
"Yes?"
"Well," he said,
"That's exactly how every story goes: things are normal, then all Hell breaks loose. Then they get back to normal' again,I except - it's a
different normal'! That's just confusing. I don't like the idea of anything being normal'. I've had some really weird people k tell me I'm not
normal. It just makes me want to reverse-engineer the human soul."
"H'm, well," I said, "I think you have to bear in mind that it is
a story - not an executable file."
"Well, yeah!" he said, "If you think that way."
I had a look at the digital clock in
the mirror over the mantelpiece: it appeared to read 52:50. When I turned to look at it, the clock itself showed 02:52, which, I decided, was
late enough.
I left his place convinced that one of us didn't know what we were talking about. His stupidity, in a word, was
stupefying. It made other people stupid. It threatened to make hysterical morons of all who heard him. The most coherent thing I ever heard him
say was: "If you get a system to do something, then you get all the problems associated with not being able to fail to do that thing - and that
might not be reversible." There is unutterable wisdom in this.
It was a good few weeks later that he introduced me to his cousin at
the grocery store. I don't think it even occurred to me to ask why he hadn't left for the job he was supposed to be getting. It would have
seemed banal, or unsporting.
Around Christmastime I was at a run-down mall, practically vacant except for a delicatessen and a
bookstore. I was using one of the payphones and there, right at the corner of the hallway containing elevators and payphones, was Lambert,
inexplicably talking on a cell phone.
"Like, signing a contract for next year," he said. "Yeah. Cool. Excellent. Okay, I'll talk to
you later. Right. Bye. Okay! Bye. Yeah." I was still on the phone and he was in a hurry, so we just nodded to each other. On my way out of the
mall I thought about this scrap of a conversation, and it occurred to me: One day there might be a fresh series of buildings here, named for an
obscure benefactor who is named, in turn, after a still more obscure actor. That is one of the ways of commerce.
A year later, it
seems, Lambert introduced me to Janet again, this time as his fiancee. I was at a small art gallery, wondering what to do with myself one
afternoon, having seen all the unobjectionable movies and some of the cartoons at the local multiplex. The gallery next door suggested itself
as a place to loiter. It had the attraction of being housed in a former bank with neo-classical touches, and you could still picture brisk
young men inviting important clients in pince-nez into their inner sanctum for a chat about debentures. The building also contained several
bars and a shop full of clothes and knick-knacks produced by remote peoples.
Lambert was in the middle of the main gallery,
surrounded by crockery and ceramic things, staring into space. Janet was at his side, evidently waiting for a reply from him. As I drew near, I
saw that she was almost out of breath.
"Lambert!" I said.
"Oh," he said. "How are you?"
"Fine. Quite a - I
didn't think you'd be - "
"Janet!" said Lambert. "Yeah! I don't think you've met -"
I said, "I think - "
And
Janet said: "Okay. Okay. I'll be over at Caf Vienna. I'm going now."
We watched her leave methodically: gathering her coat, checking
her watch, her keys, her purse. "Well, I hope I - " "She was just leaving," said Lambert. "You met her before, right? Janet?
She's my fiancee. We're going to be married this summer."
I congratulated him and knew, rather than guessed, that she was not his
cousin. We spoke a bit more about their plans, and then I asked him if he shouldn't be joining his fiancee at the Caf Vienna. "You should go,"
I said, "I think I'll stick around here and have a look upstairs."
"Oh, no. No."
"Won't she be expecting you, or
something?"
"No."
We reviewed the contents of the main gallery.
"Lots of pots in here," I said.
"Pots, yeah! Pots - you know, you think - pots? Huh? - but - the thing I like about pots is the idea that they're intended to contain other
things. She also makes little crates out of clay, and tiny containers."
"Who? Janet?"
"Oh yes," said Lambert.
"I thought you said she work with galleries and things? I had no idea she actually made pots."
"No, no. She's a potter. She makes
pots. Flings them, or hurls them. Throws them. This is just some of her work."
"Yes, I see." We inspected a table top of tiny brown
boxes and jugs.
"That's a special technique", I said, pointing to a cylinder, " with salt or something."
"Yeah yeah yeah.
Textures. You can get some really bizarre effects, so if you were in a dark room and picked it up, this amphora - you'd go, Whoah!', and you'd
throw it down, probably - it's that rebarbative."
"Yes, it looks prickly."
"Yeah! And so - you see - crash! - that's the
whole point."
We looked at some more blobs of shiny beige clay with other features.
"So," I said, "This wedding of yours
- "
"Yes - but - excuse me for a moment?"
"Sure, sure."
"No, just - I'll be back in two secs." He begged for
credulity. "Really."
"Okay." I said, and when he was three lengths away I left. On my way back home I had to pass the Caf Vienna. It
was crammed between a yoghurt stand and a small Tim Horton's, and one wall boasted a mural of the Danube, looking a bit like the Musquodoboit
with a Disney castle on its bank. Curiously enough, I have seen employees of the Caf Vienna come on shift carrying large containers of Tim
Horton's coffee. I didn't look inside. I felt sure that Lambert would be there, listening to Janet and looking for a way out.
And
so he told me about his fiancee's dumping him. Well, this was undoubtedly so, because there was no fiancee at his side.
He said: "I
was completely in love with her, we'd been together for about a year and we were planing to get married. I even bought engagement rings, very
expensive. And I don't know what happened. She decided, with the help of our good friends, that there were all these things wrong with me."
I thought: Is it really my business to ask people what they're up to, how they're doing, whether I can be of any assistance, all
that? No. I think, if I've learned anything lately (and in life one learns things the way a rat in a maze does, exclusively through failure),
it would have to be that you should never get people to explain anything.
"Her friends would do that? Your friends?"
"I
was out for the evening, and when I came home she was gone. They told her, you know, spent the entire evening telling this and this about me.
You know."
"Yes. This and this. That's bad."
"So. You know."
"Yes."
That must be true. Her friends
had gone and told her this and this about him. And this and this implies a great many serious failings in any human being. It's the this and
this that undoes the weave we are so careful to supervise, and this keeps our life in the experimental stages. By way of epilogue, he explained
that she came from an illustrious family, who had no use for idlers. "She's Kafka's niece", he said.
"Kafka? Franz Kafka?"
"Right. Her father was Kafka's younger brother."
It's not an uncommon surname. And I do know there was a novelist and screenwriter
called John (or Hans) Kafka, who wrote Dead Men Tell No Tales, or something like that.
"You'd think people would know about that.
Kafka's having a younger brother," I said.
"Yeah! Funny. It's funny how people are," said Lambert. He quickly explained:
It was an unknown younger brother named Felix who, as a sickly child, was taken by relatives to Palestine. He remained there throughout his
youth, eventually becoming an electrical engineer. During the Partition he was wounded when a generator he was inspecting came under heavy
fire; he spent some months in a sanatorium, mulling over his future, and then took it into his head to go to America. Here he worked initially
as an electrician, but within a few years found himself behind a television camera on Your Show of Shows.
At this I felt it was
incumbent on me to say something, anything - some kind of oral punctuation - though whether to stem this tide of hogwash or promote it, I
wasn't certain. It was easier to believe that the story was true than that he had made it up.
"Ah," I said, "Sid Caesar, eh? Your
Show of Shows. That was quite a show."
Lambert nodded encouragingly. "He worked a few other shows, you know. The early days of
television."
I, too, nodded briskly to convey that it was a time to be regretted fondly.
"Although, I don't know," said
Lambert, "some of that old stuff, you see it on cable - it doesn't seem that funny to us. Except The Honeymooners, of course."
We spent the
rest of the evening talking about old television shows, movies, exotic Internet sites. Talking nonsense in the hope of making sense.
Of
course, immediately afterwards there formed in my mind, unbidden, a picture of this bogus Kafka brother as a vigorous, balding man with a sandy
moustache. I imagined him doing fairly well out of his television work and living in a natty suburb with two cars, a wife, and several
exasperated children. The children have to be driven places, entertained, given expensive sweaters, a car each on their sixteenth birthdays.
"Oh, Dad!" they protest, whenever he indulges in the crude whimsy of one of his practical jokes. And he just laughs proudly, the raucous master
of their split level. And why not?
As for the more famous brother, his stories also seem to take flight into an odd dimension, becoming
something patently not what they started out to be. A man, finding himself out of coal in the winter, rides his coalscuttle through the air to
the coal dealer. People rush from an ordinary life to seek a punishment they cannot begin to fathom. Who has not puzzled over the curious
freedom from explanation in the midst of a glut of reasoning? One could turn to the Book of Job and find, there too, that the universe is
baffling and human undertakings pure knavery, and that even a mortal sin can be pretty much winked at, in the long run; but in these stories no
relevant point, be it ever so minor, is ever left untreated, and the reader feels he is perusing a very conscientious affidavit. And what
writer has not toyed with imitations of that quasi-legalese style for his own ramblings? What reader hasn't looked for clues hidden in there?
But the seamlessness of those twisting arguments, the skill in assembling the unassemblable are the inimitable thing, and its intention is not
to bamboozle but to summarize. (I ought to point out that the exact opposite is true of a database, a humble example of which is the telephone
book. Here the only goal is prompt and orderly accuracy, and one hopes no spurious meaning will pop up). But do these briefs of the elder Kafka
brother go any distance toward mapping this life we have? This life of running into Lambert and his stories? Does anything? Is there a
cartographer who can do that?
I wouldn't put my hand in the fire for this, but it could be that Kafka's brother and niece now have their
tenuous existence somewhere. And from time to time I am tempted to believe there is something worthwhile in the relaxed world of dreams, where
the dead can live and one can go home by impossible, familiar, half-forgotten streets.
Reveille
There was a miniature Fascist dictator in the departure lounge of the airport, Ted noticed. About four feet high, eighty pounds,
sallow complexion, neatly trimmed black moustache, wearing a khaki uniform of some kind.

“There was a miniature Fascist dictator in the departure lounge ... ”
Was he planning a small Putsch? A Measure? What pint-sized dreams of conquest did he have? “Our National party is stronger - we are
in no way diminished,” he may have imagined himself saying. “Now, if I say to you that our Party's goal is nothing less than to
revendicate that which we have lost, that which is historically our due; to reclaim our patrimony ...” Is that what was going on in his
head? Was he on his way somewhere, or coming from somewhere? Going into exile, or returning from it? Escaping? Seeking?
Ted decided to
follow him until he could come up with some further course of action. But the man wasn't really doing anything. Just wandering around with a
container of coffee, keeping an eye on the brown satchel and shopping bags he had left on one of the naugahyde-and-aluminium benches. He paused
in front of the windows that looked onto the airfield. His nostrils flared at the sight of massed passenger aircraft. Then he sauntered over to
the other side of the lounge and studied some posters. Ted pretended to inspect a model lobster trap in a display case nearby.
They
toured the lounge in stages and, even before the small man glanced back at him, Ted was already lost in thought beneath an
departure-and-arrivals screen. “Am I supposed to do something?” he wondered. “Is there some history going on here,
somewhere?” But how would one know?
Ted then discreetly followed him back to the coffee bar. Apparently he wanted another coffee.
There were several customers before them, and in the time it took for them to be served, Ted was almost able to identify the small man's scent:
Lancôme for Men? His choice of coffee, too, was unusual, a decaffeinated Ethiopian flavour. He went back to his original bench. Ted loitered
just behind him, undecided. Unprepared. Shall I say something? What's he doing?
Looking at his ticket again.
Sipping his coffee,
sucking a great deal of air between pursed lips just over the steaming surface of the coffee. Too hot.
Consulting the contents of his satchel
once again, just to verify that he had everything he would need for his trip. Ted, peering over his shoulder, caught sight of a volume of Pablo
Neruda, Jane Eyre, and a stuffed toy rabbit.
Putting his coffee down, digging with both hands in one of the shopping bags, the
one that had some sort of environmentalist logo on it. Nous recyclons!
Recovering a pair of sunglasses. Putting them on! Expensive
ones!
“Excuse me - okay if I sit down?”
“Eh? Oh, please. Yes, yes - you are quite welcome.”
Ted sat down wearily. “I've been travelling all day, I hope you
don't mind.”
The other nodded rapidly. “It is very tiresome, all this travelling,” he said. “I myself have been
up since very early, making connecting flights. And still my day is not over.”
Ted seized the thing roundly. “What sort of
business are you in, if it's no harm to ask?”
“I am a consultant. Specialising in pharmaceutical trade.” The little
dictator removed his sunglasses and began to polish them on his handkerchief.
Well, at least he wasn't a jack-booted thug!
“I am not used to talking to fewer than five thousand people at a time”, he continued, “for fear of being misunderstood.
However, I shall make a beginning.
“It is horrifying to think of the consequences of chance. One man begins a great career as an
officer in the European Theatre; another, no less gifted, has his head blown off as soon as he steps out of the landing craft. Why does that
happen? Who is to blame? Who will account for it?”
Here the little man swigged his coffee. Ted noted that his hair, seemingly dark
brown, was really an artificial boot-brown colour. Ted formed a reply: “Well, I suppose it would depend how you look—”
But the other man was not to be denied: “It is no accident that the corporate hegemony of a small group of - ”
Ted sprang
into action.
“Have you heard the latest?”
“Pardon me?”
“Oh, yes. It was the discovery of printing and the availability of books that created modern empires.
And that's how it is.”
“What are you talking about?”
“Well, you wouldn't believe me if I told you, but by
the 18th century, every soldier or sailor could afford a few books, which they would keep in their kit. And between times - ”
“If you had empirical proof - ”
“Look: no one's trying to make you angry here: I'm just trying to give you a way
out.
Together We Can Accomplish so Much
Ah yes, but the work must continue. The work. Not for nothing Dominic puts aside his friends at the restaurant and
makes a furious pair of phone calls, stabbing at the buttons on his cellular phone as if entering his part of the secret code needed to launch
a nuclear weapons attack. The work continues unabated. People who don't know anything are consantly throwing objections at Dominic: You can't
be leaving, you just got here! We're waiting for Anne! It's your mother's birthday! You told me you'd get that done today! It's a holiday! Do
you have any idea what time it is?

“My work�,
thinks Dominic...
“My work”, thinks Dominic, “Nobody fully comprehends it. I can't waste time explaining to
people that the work is going on at all times, that I have to be there for it. It is like a wound. It is a sensitive plant. It is a bored
child.”
Everyone heads for the door, people are struggling into their coats and laughing, finallyit's time to get ready and
go! Everyone's here, let's head out the door!
“No”, says Dominic, “I must stay and watch the next cartoon. An important
part of my work.”
Coming out of the public lavatory in the park, he pauses and thinks: “That's all very well, but what about
the work? What else will it require?”
In the vast grocery store, near a palm tree, he says into a small recorder: “I may need
to know the author of 'Moralists and Sycophants against Marxism'. For my work.”
He sits with his friend Lucy at an open-air
café. Their first day off together in well over a month! They have planned so many things: A shopping expedition to several places, a
trip down the coast in a rented car, a quiet lunch somewhere, a concert. Lucy levers her sunglasses onto her brow to look at the menu.
“Ain't it great, old pal?” she asks. “A day off? I am just so tired of bagels. I want to get alet's see, they
have”
“A day off”says Dominic slowly“I can't really have a day off. no. Not really. Not now.
Not today.”
“But you said, you ... we're going to ... you, you took the day off. I took the day off!”
“No”, concludes Dominic. “The work will suffer.” he gets up to leave. “And now I must go, and deliver surplus
pumpkins.”
“No”, says Lucy, reshuffling the contents of her knapsack, “You have to come and help carry stuff.
Otherwise ... well, you know.”
“No”, says Dominic, “No. You don't understand. You just don't understand. No; you
don't understand.”
“The work will suffer?”
“No”, says Dominic, “You don't get to say that.
Only I can say that. 'The work will suffer.'”
Lucy leans back in her chair and looks at him searchingly. Then she says: “You
know, I think you ought to think things through. Go if you want, I'm going
to stay right here and have a drink and something to eat, and then I might give Marusya a call. We might go see a movie or something. And
thenI might phone you later. I don't know. I'll see how I feel. But I think you've got to sort of get some things straightened out,
there, you know? I mean, really,
Dominic. Because this isn't working.” She resumes her sunglasses.
Dominic stands at the table for several seconds, and then goes
off in search of a payphone. He frowns and says to himself: “Next, I shall have to eat a large bag of ranch-flavoured corn
chips.”
For a New Vegetable
What was wanted was something containing
significant amounts of potassium, niacin, and the vitamin b complex; something that would grow in the earth from seed and come to maturity
within a reasonable time; and finally—a desirable but by no means indispensable quality—something that would be pleasant to eat.
This last thing was sort of negotiable, up to a point.
A great deal was said about root systems, much of it rather tedious. Apparently
this is very important, the design team having been told that steps should be taken to avoid another carrot-potato fiasco. The root itself
would therefore be fibrous; not, indeed, uneatable, but unlikely to be mistaken as a useful part of the plant.
What should it look
like? Is that important? I think it is. Probably it shouldn't be repulsive, because people are going to eat it. With any luck. And then ...
I have to stop here and reminisce about earlier attempts to come up with a new vegetable.
I recall in particular an
experimental sort of ballon d'essai which turned out to have many of the nutritional qualities planned. It was in fact dubbed "Ballon
d'Essai", in honour of the team's Francophone colleagues. It was a small knob, rather like an onion, except it grew above ground. The taste was
a little overpowering, and one could comfortably eat it only after it had been soaked overnight, boiled for three hours, julienned and deep
fried. And even then it needed a lot of ketchup.
“Why not,” I can hear someone ask, “merely use some popular
vegetable as a template? That would be easier.”
People sometimes forget that we are not in the business of coming up with a new
version of some existing vegetable. That is not what we are in the business of doing. There is no point in producing an alternative carrot for
people who are just a little tired of the carrots they have been getting. We are also not in the business of improving an existing vegetable,
or variety thereof. That is an entirely different field of research, and, if I may say so, a comparatively frivolous one. (Sorry if I seem a
little peevish, but I have had to explain this many times.)
A continual problem: moisture. There always seems to be too much or too
little. This proved disastrous when we were working with a thin-skinned prototype. Things looked very bad for a while. At one point the chief
came in and asked sharply: “Doesn't anyone here know anything about suction and orifices?” I stood up and said:
“Sir,
for several years I concentrated on suction and orifices, to the exclusion of all else.” He looked at me with renewed admiration. When
things aren't working out everybody gets a little edgy, and several members of the team have already walked away from the project or had to be
replaced. After every outburst the chief would try to smooth things over, realising that he is dealing with a volatile, unpredictable but
undoubtedly talented group of technicians. At such times he talks amusingly of spongy masses. This reveals him to be an idealist of the first
order.
At home I make drawings of impossible, airy plants - very beautiful, as I think, but quite impractical. I have to admit that this
is my main fascination, even though it is hardly a contribution that we can use. We have been through so much and seen so many failures that it
seems ridiculous to give up now.
A Statement
The spokesman said, “We express our deepest
regret in connection with the incident that has recently occurred in the garden of your embassy: the explosion of a hand-grenade. We believe
that this serious but isolated incident must not be allowed to cast a shadow on the entire system of traditionally friendly relations between
our two countries,” the spokesman said. “As for the small incident itself, the competent institutions of our republic are holding
an investigation. A report on the results of this investigation will be made later, yes . . . later . . . of course, an investigation must be
held, and the fruits of that investigation will be distributed with an open hand. They will be set forth. They will be vouchsafed to all who
would know of the strange doings in your embassy's garden . . . At the same time, however, we think that the aforesaid incident will not affect
the friendly relations of our two countries. We are the best of friends,” the spokesman said.
“We are the best of friends.
And once we have gathered some material evidence about this small blast, we shall be in a position to inquire into the identity of its authors.
Our manner of proceeding will be transparent. There will be no mistaking our method, for it will be subject to public scrutiny in every forum.
None will be able to claim, 'See, they would hide the culprits if they could.' No. Those guilty of this outrage will be found out; they will be
revealed and scourged. Every man's hand will be against them, whoever they are.” The spokesman paused to moisten his lips with balm.
Then he continued: “This small explosion will not result in worsening our relations; we feel it can only contribute to a certain
ingravescence of our mutual bondage. We feel that good relations between our two countries, regardless of the incalculable difference in
military might and economic influence, will only continue to flourish. If the perpetrators of this flagitious explosion thought to estrange us,
they will be proved wrong. If they thought to discredit us, they will be shown to be liars. If they thought to cast doubt on the wisdom of our
great alliance, they will be seen to be politically naive. And that is all I have to say for now. Thank you.” The spokesman turned and
left the podium quickly, his heart racing.
The Price of Dave
I wonder what we could get for Dave?” B. asks
his estranged woman friend. “I mean if we sold him. What could we get? What would Dave realise, the market being what it is?”
“I should think the market is flooded with Daves just now. But it's not a bad idea, though.”
“To a collector he
might be more precious than rubies, but to me he's just garbage.”
“Of course—we'd have to find out by having him
appraised. Find out what he knows. What he can do. Maybe he has some skill sets we don't know about. Maybe he brings to the job a varied
experience in dealing with the public on many different levels.”
“Don't forget he's a very nice man. Let's not forget that,
that—that humanity of his,” says B.
“Myself, I like the way he scarfs poutine and looks around for more with grease
on his chin.”
“Let's just enumerate his plus qualities:
| Amiability .......................................................... | p.
42 |
| Anecdotes, Wealth of ........................................ | p. 67 |
| Dope stash, Generosity with
............................. | p. 124 |
| Humanity ........................................................... |
p. xxiv, 62-63 |
| Insouciance ........................................................ | p. 330 |
| Talent, Lack of ................................................... | p. 5 |
| Teeth see
Insouciance | |
“Well?”
“I've just been on the phone with the people. They've given us an appointment. They also wanted to know
something about his provenance.”
“Are they coming over, or are we supposed to take him in?”
“No, they'll
come here. What do we know about Dave's provenance? Didn't he always say ...”
“All lies, I believe."
“Oh
yeah.”
“So we might have to hang fire for now.”
“Hang fire? what?”
“Hold off on this
for now. Not sell him just yet. Until we know more.”
“We'll have to consider the whole thing carefully then.”
“Yes. Meanwhile—I'm going to ask you to get the bastard out of here before I break this piece of lumber over him.”
General Guelphe
General Guelphe was so fond of chilies that he used
to carry a selection of them in his luggage, claiming that foreign food was very bland. He was sometimes accused of being a vain man, but other
than the small indulgence of trimming his moustache at odd moments—an almost unconscious habit—he gave no sign of it.
His
father had been a civil engineer, but the family suffered financial ruin after a string of unfortunate investments. The young Guelphe was
removed from military academy and went to work in a machine shop at the age of fourteen. Despite this end to his formal education, the general
retained a life-long admiration for poetry, and was something of an expert on his beloved Calderón. He was largely indifferent to music,
an odd thing in so cultured a man, but he had a weakness for light opera, which may have had something to do with his tolerance of a certain
amount of buffoonery among the men and his own relishing of simple jokes. For example, if there were a particularly cruel task to be performed,
he would say, “something for Miguel to do”, Miguel being a dull-witted young man from Antxoa who could look on any act of carnage,
no matter how bestial, with an amused demeanor.
It was after such a display that Alfonso was moved to ask at a staff meeting,
“What are we doing? Where are we? Argentina? Mexico? What year is it? 1890? 1928? What? Are we Mexicans? Or what?”
The
others looked at him as if dreaming, or trying to remember the words to a popular song, and then returned to their battle plans. He no longer
existed.
Conspiracy
Frank was startled to see Lesley in a snack bar,
sitting on a tall stool in the window, eating a samoza. Lesley had been away for at least a year, presumably studying somewhere. He had always
been a serious student of economics and, Frank thought, the sort of person who would do well in some academic vocation. He looked rather
puzzled and annoyed now, as if sitting in a snack bar and eating a samoza were only a pale approximation of what he had expected to be doing.
His hair was long, and he had grown a small beard. Frank stopped and waved to him. Then he went in.
“Lesley,” he said,
“How have you been?”
“Good”, said Lesley, “And how are you? How have you been? What have you been doing?
Where are you living now? How's the girlfriend? Are you working? What's going on? What's the latest news? What's the average rainfall?”
He put his samoza down and raised his arms over his head. “In what countries do we find significant deposits of manganese? What's the
gross national project? What does the word 'echolalia' mean? Who am I? Where am I going? How far is it?”
“Maybe I'll have a
coffee. If you don't mind me joining you,” said Frank.
“What do you look for in a good cup of coffee?” asked Lesley.
“How poisonous is caffeine compared to, say, plutonium? Where's my girlfriend? How much time do we have? What's your e-mail
address?”
In short, he seemed much as Frank remembered him. It was only after they had exchanged some further pleasantries that
Lesley's current distress became apparent.
He wiped his hands on a napkin and pointed at Frank, saying, in a fairly unexcited manner:
“You were in Mexico City in September and October of 1963. During your one-week stay, you contacted the Soviet Embassy and the Cuban
consulate, inquiring about visas needed to go to the Soviet Union via Cuba. And you also contacted one Valerii Kostikov, a man the CIA
describes as a case officer for an operation which was evidently sponsored by the KGB's 13th Department! You were the man who posed as
Oswald.”
Frank put his coffee down and said: “That's not true, Lesley.”
“You were also the
Mediterranean-looking wino whom police led across Dealley Plaza after the assassination. And you talked to Howard Hunt—there is no point
in denying it—about making payoffs to the Miami mob. And then you, or someone who knew about it, erased the tapes.”
“I
remember hearing about that, my parents were talking about this Kennedy guy who'd been shot, and I thought they were talking about some real
person.”
“All this explains why Hunt claims not to remember you being present then or at any other time. When we know that
he must have told you about Rubello's demands.”
“Yeah. I thought they meant a neighbour or somebody in town. I wasn't in
school yet, but my older brother was in grade two, and when he came home he explained the whole thing,” said Frank. “I can't
remember if I even—”
“It gets very murky here, but one thing is sure: you must have made that call.” Lesley
balled up his napkin and turned to his coffee, still looking at Frank expectantly.
Having found Lesley's cell phone number at the
bottom of the business card Lesley gave him, Frank decided to call a few days later. “Hey, Lesley.”
“Hello?”
Just thought I'd give you a call to see how you're doing, buddy.”
“Oh. I see. I see. Did you find that webpage
yet!?”
“What webpage?”
“Oh, okay. I see. Yes, I see now. So that's how it is. Right.” And he hung
up.
Lesley phoned back several seconds later:
“Sorry. Should have explained. I was taking a lot of the wrong kind of drugs.
Now I'm on the right kind. Actually, you could help me. There's a webpage about me, I can't find it anywhere. I've looked and
looked.”
“What webpage?”
“There's a—a page out there, I can't find it, but it's got a lot of stuff
about me on it. Basically, it is my page. I didn't have anything to do with creating it, obviously, but it has quite a lot of intimate
details about me, I don't know how they found out that stuff.”
“How do you know this? Have you seen it?”
“Oh. I see. That's how it is.” And he hung up.
It gets a bit murky here.
Babies
People love babies, and why? Because they're adorable, of
course, but also because they're harmless. They won't deceive you. They don't go around spreading lies about you. They don't dismiss your
opinions with a snort of contempt. They're not thinking, “Boy, are you ever dumb”.
No, quite the opposite. They regard you
or any adult with a mixture of fear and wonderment. Frankly, they're always impressed. All the time. Your power and magic just keep getting
better. Their minds boggle when they try to conceptualize just how damn important and huge you are. They stagger. They have to sit down and
catch their breath. As they gape over your shoulder, their tiny heads bobbling about on their strangely old, lined necks, they can't help but
speculate: Is there perhaps no limit to this creature? Does his woolen sweater not extend indefinitely, in all directions?
And what of
the sprawling, unseen outdoors? What's out there?
Where are people going all the time? How do they find their way back?
And so
begins a life of contemplation of this too rich world and the myriad things it contains. Every moment brings new mysteries, delights, horrors, and these combine to form a working theory of the universe. Yet almost everything encountered thereafter gives the lie to that theory, and lays the groundwork for a massive (in baby terms) paradigm shift. An examination of one's faith is endured on an hourly basis, and make no mistake: it is gruelling. It is an inquisition, a nervous breakdown, moral bankruptcy, the end of an empire. It is wearying and merciless, and at the end of it you pass out. These periods of extreme agitation and the oblivion following them make you want to holler, and the only people likely to respond are grinning down at you, puzzled, a little bit alarmed, maybe, but certainly incapable of fathoming your dilemma. “What could be wrong?” they ask each other. “What could be the problem?“ they croon, making light of the whole thing, waving stuffed toys, picking you up and holding you. But they don't get it.
Men at Work
A man with a pony tail and rustic clothing comes into the library, checks out the women, and then goes up to the reference desk. “Can I get this report, uh: Conference on Kinetics, Equilibria, and Performance of High Temperature Systems?”
“H'm. Let me see—you mean,” gesturing to his screen, the clerk says diffidently, “Conference on Performance of High Temperature Systems. Performance of high temperature systems. Proceedings? Would that be it?”
The other man peers at the radiant text from beneath excessively bushy eyebrows. The clerk watches him as he reads, thinking, Three children could play hookey in those eyebrows. Finally the man blinks ten or fifteen times and says:
“Yeah, that's it. How do I find it?”
“Well, the number you see there—”
“That where it is? ISSN 0589123X?”
“No, it's this number here, 'TL 784 C6 C6', but you have to—”
“Where do I find that?”
“It's in the—”
“C'mon, get with it! No time for monkeying around, this is rocket science! Let me remind you, your VCR wouldn't work if it weren't for we scientists, so—!”
“Yes, I know. But you have to go to the 'Science Library' for this book, which is—”

“No time for monkeying around!”
“I see. I see. This is not the 'Science Library'. Let me tell you something, no goddam self-respecting physicist in the goddam postwar period has been helped, even a little bit, by you goddam sons-of-bitches”, says the man. “Not even—this much,” he adds, holding thumb and forefinger minimally apart to demonstrate the paucity. “So why can't I get this book right here, right now?”
The clerk says, after a moment's reflection, “You sound a bit like Patton, if you don't mind my saying so. I think he was a great general, in any case.”
The man starts doing a slow rain dance in the space before the desk. Raising his fists, knees bent, head back, turning around in giant steps, as if wearing leaden boots. Sometimes he leans his upper torso forward, sometimes back. He adds to the performance a facial expression of ultimate agony, of one who is in the very throes of death: the very effective silent scream. All this lasts for probably no more than a quarter of a minute.
“Actually,” says the clerk, “the 'Science Library' is right next door. You'll need to go to the third floor, turning left as you leave the elevator. Five minutes. Just out that way. There's also a sign, a map, actually. Just behind you.”
The man looks at the clerk blankly, and then slaps himself hard on the forehead and goes back to doing his rain dance, this time making little wheezing noises. The clerk watches him, and soon other people stop what they are doing and come to watch as well. Several people sit down on the floor at a judicious distance from the dancer. Others watch from behind some waist-high shelving units, where binders containing a complete (and, as far as possible, current) list of periodicals may be consulted. After a while someone comes up to the reference desk and whispers:
“Is there anywhere you can get, like, popcorn?”
“No,” says the clerk. “Sorry about that.”
Transcript
The business of the iron shoes...yes. Well, there were a lot of preparations for the, uh - the wedding, and I was not really that involved. I mean, I wanted to be married, I wanted to marry Schneewittchen, very much, but, uh - it didn't matter to me really how many guests came, and who would or would not be invited. And so the day before, Schneewittchen rather startled me with a request -
-You said that at first, “request”, but in later testimony you said -
-Yes, well, a demand. She asked me to get the shoes made, but it was the way people ask you to do something when really - they're telling you. So she had asked me way back if I could have a pair of women's size 9 “E” made of iron -
-Iron, she specified that?
-That is correct. And I sort of thought, What? But I had them made. And I forgot about them. Until, as I was mentioning, on the day before the wedding she came to me - she was nervous, stressed, all this last-minute running around, you know - and she was quite insistent, “Where are those shoes? Where are they? The iron shoes!?” You know. Anxious, in case I'd forgotten them. Hadn't had them made. But I said, “Oh, right, those shoes.” And uh - I mistakenly told you before that I went to get them myself, but actually I sent a man to fetch them.
-Which he did?
-Yes, that is correct. So he brought them to the hall, and Schneewittchen inspected them. She -
-Is that - excuse me - is that the day before the wedding?
-Yes. So he set them before her - that's an expression we use -
-What does that mean, exactly?
-It means the man approaches her holding a salver which bears the object, bows at the waist, and lowers the salver onto a serving table designated for the purpose.
-That's fairly straightforward.
-Yes. And she appeared to find them satisfactory and was delighted with them, in fact. She said they were “perfect”, and thanked me. I was very pleased, because for the weeks preceding the wedding she had been inclined to be a bit curt with me. Sort of - snappish, rather. I put it down to nerves.
- Now - I have to interrupt you there, if we can just clarify something, and I know you've already addressed this. But did you, at any time, ask Schneewittchen what she wanted the shoes for? These iron shoes?
- Well, no. I mean, she told me herself at some point that they were for her stepmother. We were talking about something unrelated. I had no idea what they were for, why anyone would want a pair of iron shoes. I did ask her, when she first told me to get them made, if she meant real shoes, such as you might wear on your feet, and she said “Yes, but made of iron.” So I - yes, I thought it bizarre, to say the least, but I didn't think too much about it at the time. I thought it was some kind of custom they have - her people are a bit different from mine, as you're perhaps aware. So I had them cast in iron -
- Did you engage someone to do this work?
- No, our own men did the work. I wasn't present, but I understand a mould was made using a pair of ordinary leather shoes of the right specifications, and the resulting casting was highly finished. A very nice piece of work. I saw it as soon as it was done because they wanted to know if any precious metals should be added - someone had the idea it ought be chased in silver, and so they - and so I saw the work and told them I would ask Schneewitchen, but I forgot.
- You've explained the matter of the actual production of the shoes in your affidavit, haven't you?
- Yes, that's in there.
- Okay. And how long did the work take?
-Three days. They were ready, uh - three weeks before the wedding. So I had - it had gone out of my mind in the interval. I did know they were intended for Schneewittchen's stepmother, in case she put in an appearance at the wedding, but I also knew Schneewittchen hadn't invited her. I was aware that they had quite a few unresolved issues, but I don't make a habit of, sort of, going in and saying, “Look here,” you know, “You two ought to sort things out”. I don't think things are ever that easy between two people. So the whole thing made no sense.
- You were aware of their history?
- As I say, I knew they weren't speaking to each other - I thought, “Who knows? Better not stir things up by asking all sorts of questions.” But I had absolutely no idea of the extent and, and shocking violence of this business.
- You were unaware that the stepmother had tried on three occasions to have Schneewittchen killed?
- I only found out about that after the business of, the thing with the shoes. This - I mean, she was obviously very, very angry with her stepmother and, I thought, afraid of her. She did say once that her stepmother had had her poisoned, and that was why - you know, when I first met her she was in a coma. She had been through a great deal and was sometimes a bit less than coherent. She would say things and I wouldn't know how to take them. All this business. Something about how her last boyfriend was a whole lot of midgets, or something.
- I beg your pardon, sir - did you say “midgets”?
- Uh, yes. I should say, dwarves, though - apparently that's the -
- I don't think - yes, I don't think we've - that's in your earlier testimony, is it not?
- Uh, yes. I've - uh -
- So, could you at this time tell us, just to refresh our memories, about these, these dwarves?
- I thought I'd more or less given quite a lot of testimony about that.
- Yes, yes. When you say “dwarves”, do you mean -
- They were apparently, and I say that as I'd never laid eyes on them, apparently a lot of very small men, I've no idea what their measurements might have been. I was really never all that keen on dwelling on that, uh, bit of the past, to be honest.
- Well - so - how many of them were there, did you say?
- I haven't the foggiest. It's not something I felt important enough to, ah - drag out into the open, keep sort of interrogating the girl. It hardly matters, does it? Particularly in light of these unfortunate events.
- Well - it's kind of odd, isn't it?
- I've -
- Surely you can appreciate, sir, the psychological angle of the effect of this group of small men, these homunculi, on the state of mind of your betrothed? Would a normal man not find the situation bizarre, to say the very least?
- As you perhaps know, my position tends to modify, even limit, the curiosity I can afford to show about a matter of this nature. As far as we are concerned, these small men could be of little significance. Given that I was preparing to marry Schneewittchen.
- Is this then something that you would be at pains to conceal from -
- No, I'm afraid you misunderstand me, rather. As far as I'm concerned, everyone can know all about that if they want. They can discuss it, make their own inquiries, write away for more information, if it intrigues them to that extent. However, I find I have no interest in doing the same. And can't understand it, really. This strange interest.
- But you were aware, then - of the existence of these small men?
- Yes, of course.
- And these dwarves were engaged in what sort of work?
- I am told they were miners, or something like that.
- How did that whole thing come about, anyway? That state of affairs?
- I assume they inherited the mine or whatever it was from some ancestor. I don't really know.
- No, the state of affairs obtaining between Schneewittchen and these small men, these miners.
- No idea. Never thought to ask.
- All right. We can probably take a break here. One last question, though: Did you at any time feel that she was capable of killing her stepmother in revenge?
-No, I did not.
- I think I speak for all of us when I say that you, sir, have been very candid with us. And we all offer you our sincerest thanks. Thank you, sir. Thank you.
- Thank you.