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May5,2003 |
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If you used to have someone to stood next to you at the bus stop.holding your hand in the cinema.walking together.and you can call him at night time when you're crying.And hold you close when you're making love. but that's all you used to had.and right now it's disapear. no-one walking with you.you gotta go to see movie alone.and have to had sex like one night stand or something. And everyday you're feeling donw...falling apart... everything's gone mad....And when you found someone that you like,but make you feel more diffircault.because you don't know how to tell him. or scare of letting him know.because his might disapear.... if all the feeling i said used to happened to you...you can read about what happened to me at next subject..if you're unfeeling person.. you can turn off this page... |
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Right now,Howard found someone that he like.he send me a message on saturday night.He said he falling in love with a guy i saw when I met hime lasttime.I'm not jealous or want him to come back to me. I'm happy for him.But I'm just missing the day we had,And now i lose it.I like when he stand next to me at the bus stop...I dont know why,But i can't forget it.I still remember the day he lose his phone,he plane to take me to shopping at next day,but he lose his phone.so i say "hmm,I think i dont need to shopping,you should use your money to buy new phone" and finally his kiss my face it's was at bus stop.I can remember still.But he still took me to buy something also. And I just talk to Alex from Italy on MSN.He said he just come back from Bangkok.He has boy friend now.Everybody get along after left me. Seem like i'm just blaket in the summer. Who'll need blaket in the summer. It's just like me. Who'll need me when they're happy.who'll care what am i doing,or what do i feel...right now I have not got anybody friend,can't help it if no body care.And then it's make me think am i not good enough? and what should i change.Alex alway say I dont care him enough.it's because he was sick and no-body at my house at weekend.So i have to stay home to look after my dog(I really dont want to)Mom and dad tell me to stay home.dont go out..stay with dog.And Alex is sick.But i can;t go out.I told him to come to stay at my house.But he dont want too.And he angry and alway say" You chose to take care of dog but not me" I know that my mistake.But i can;t go out.can't help.I never mean to him since the frist time we met.
And I think I found someone that i like.But I dont want to tell him. scare of letting him know.gusse he dont want me and gusse he's not ready to start relationship with me. |
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-I get along-
-feeling like I'm stuck in a hole body and soul
While you out of control
-Now I know why you have to go,Well i think we both know.Why it had to be so
(*)I've been trying not to cry.When I'm in public eyes
Stuck here with the shame and talking
My share of the blame whil naking.Sudden plans that dont include you.
-I get alone,get along
With out you very well
I get along very well.
-Now I know tou much rather be.With rock royatiry instead of someone like me.
-The big boy are back and we need them,you said.Think it somthing you'd read and is stuck in your head.Even though i dont suppose that's as far as it gone.
You've go been quite an appetite for being wronged and in the right
Well,from now on it won't affect me
-The morning after the night before.I'd been alerted to your lies.I phoned u up but your call were all drivered
Took along time to track you down
Even that you were track defiant.
It's not you think it is,you said
And proceeded to deny it.
-So i lost my patience at last and happened so fast
You belong in the past(*)
Artis: Pet Shop Boys. |
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*Out Of Reach*
<Artis; Gabrielle>
-Knew the signs wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
-So confused,my heart bruised
Was I ever love by you?
*Out of reach,so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,couldn't see
We were never mean to be
-Catch my self from dispair
I could down if I stay here
Keeping busy every day
I know I will be okay
-But now I'm so confused
my heart bruised
Was I ever love by you? <*>
-So much hurt so much pain
take a while to regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time
You'll be out of my mind
I'll be over you
And now I'm so confused my heart bruised
Was I ever love by you?
Out of reach,so far
You never gave your heart
In my reach,I can see
There's a life out there for me |
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