Yesterday adter I have met David..I try to not call him..finally he called me back in this morning while i was taking shower..And then i went to IEN to do the test for go to study in America.On the way to get there,I was thinking of interview after exam also.I was sure he will ask 'Can you tell me the reason why you want to go to study in America?" I was thinking so hard..What should i answer?? !_! "Because I want to see my friend who's living there?" No it not good idia. Or.. "Because I like white guy and want to find husband (oups) boy friends" that must be very stupid answer also. So after i made phone call to Ploy(my school mate) she told me.and she couldn;t find any reason. 4.25pm: Exam was very difficult. Now i have break and go to interview with one farang. very cute..:-)evil me!!!
Interview (only i can remember all about is)
'Mr.Nattaphol,Can you tell me the reason why you want to go to America?"
--"Because...Because.....I want to see another worlds where's diffirent from Thailand. I want to spend a part of my life in America to see what's diffirent between...between....American and Thai"
"And now what's diffirent between Thai and American in your oppion?"
--"American youth getting old quicker than Thai.Because Thai too much take care of their son.So Thai will get thing very easy and dont know how to look after their self.I want to getting older than another people who's same age with me. And...... hmmm..hhhhhh"
"that all?"
--"ahh no...ahh yes" And he's smiling :-)
"thank you,we'll contact you tomorrow"
So stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!I was so exciting. because he was so cute and i alway look in his blue eyes..and hmm the way i talked it' seem like I was nearly crying.Because I dont know what's feeling..Am i shy,or excited or what I really dont know.. But anyway gotta go to see Emy..
Emy very funny.. we went to see movie(i can;t remember the name) And then we have dinner and left.. that all..buy we were talking about another guy.his boy friends. his ex bf..my ex bf.. or something whatever...funny..
On the way back home: I'm so tired., and worry about exam tomorrow at Horwang school. I've been studied all week.And still have a lot of book that i;'ve read yet.But i'm not going to study anymore.Because I feel too tired.And do how much i can. so many people around me...and they're all have someone to talk to..but not me..I have no one to talk right now.. But I'm still fine.and dont need or hurry to find anybody.. take time..yesterday after i left with david, I went to walk in the shoppingmall alone. to buy some magazine and book..I saw so a lot of people come with their friend or their boy friends. it' made me jaeloused.I was thinking .Am i wrong to chose to be alone and dont need boy friends.Am i wrong to not start or keep in touch with someone like Steve and Alan because I know. we won't get along.Am i wrong to be like this.and if I'm not wrong why am i walking alone in this place..confused yet..
Home11.25pm:::: To someone.I dont know where you are........
-->>>Holding on for you<<<-- Liberty X
-Sunshine fade to gray.The seond I'm away
Minutes turn to hours.Without you
Time keeps marching on.Now summer's been and gone
and I'm still here alone.Still waiting.
*I'm on my onw and a million mile away
tempitation all around.I won't be long
So please be strong.Cos I'm holding on for you.
-Trust it all it takes.But people make mistake
Cos we are only huuman.Get face it
I struggle through the day.pretend that I'm okay.
I make that you're here.Beside me
-You are the only one that i truly believe in
So dont ever think that i would ever deceive you badlly
Without a doubt you are my shyme and my reason
And I won't let you down.
-I'm on my onw and million miles away
Tempitation all around.I won't belong .so please be stong.
Because I'm holding on for you.
PS>>>>>>>>>>Exam at Howang school tomorrow 9am-12am.
Up date my feeling..::12.01am.Jamie from Cannadian.. He doesn;t want to talk to me, I dont know what did i do.. or maybe just like another one..when they get new friends. Everybody has forgotten me. He might has another friend or somebody else to talk to .or talking about whatever,Doesn't like me. Who alway talking about bullshit stories and nothing interesting.And when he was broken heart.I wasn;t good listener.Hmm I should chnage something with me.. Anyway...when he has forgotten me. I think i should forget him too.. Shouldn;t care much..
