one more day..
hey everyone what's up? nothing much here.. i am picking up my room one area at a time.. it's almost time for turkey day.. i am invited to christy's house for thanksgiving.. but i honestly don't know if i will go.. i'll probably decide tomorrow.. yeah i'm still acting anti-social because well it hasn't gone away.. i wish it did but it hasn't yet.. the only reason i would go is to play some dominoes but that's about it.. but who knows what the wind may bring right? there's football tomorrow but no games that i would actually sit and watch fully.. i used to think thanksgiving day games were cool but honestly for the past few years they've sucked majorly.. gotta blame it on the teams that get the games those days which are the lions and the cowboys.. god they suck.. they haven't been good for about 5 years or so.. maybe more.. but enough bitching about football.. i do feel like having some turkey tomorrow but i don't know. i've lost so much intrest in everything that i don't know what's up anymore.. tomorrow katie comes from cleveland and i might go to the airport but i don't know if i will since i might go to christy's house.. oh well tomorrow is a new day and i can decide then or whateva...PhScKo ranted @ 3:15 p.m.
the hurricanes won, woohoo!
hey everyone what's up? nothing much here.. what can i say the hurricanes only won by 7 last night against pitt but they still pulled out a win.. what a game.. i knew it would be a close one.. i was telling jimi about it cause pitt is actually one of those teams that upsets people sometimes and well does good and all.. plus this year they actually had a decent team.. but anyhow enough football for now.. you may all find it odd but i actually slept pretty good last night.. not till like 7 or anything but hey 5:30 aint bad huh? i would think not but hey one never knows with my sleeping patterns how i will sleep.. by the way lets all wish jimi well.. he's been feeling a little messed up lately and he doesn't even know if it's the flu.. stupid sickness crap.. well anyhow i wish you a full recovery from the unknown infection or whateva that has been inflicted on you by supernatural forces.. hey i think it was the same "being" that made your remote fall and your tv to turn on and your phone card to plummet down to the floor... plus i do want to enjoy the last days you are living down here.. and no i'm not gonna get all sentimental and crap cause well that's not how our relationship has worked.. it works better with insults and such right? lol.. anyhow.. hope you are feeling much better at least the time katie comes down so you two can have the best time here while you're still a resident of this great state of florida.. well now i will go.. i have to do lots of stuff today, hopefully it will all get done, but knowing how plans usually fail for me i'm gonna be let down and then i'll just rant about it later on or so..PhScKo ranted @ 6:00 a.m.
thursday thumb-twiddler
hey what's up? nothing much here.. i've never really done this before but hey i'm bored and stuff so enjoy this... here is a link to it.. thursday thumb-twiddlerPhScKo ranted @ 5:00 a.m.
i can't believe i like a 16 year old..
hey everybody what's up? not much on this side.. gotta say though that i'm getting better each day that passes.. i'm less and less depressed now and well i'm more socially inclined too.. so that means i won't bitch someone or ignore them.. i'm letting my words be spoken to another human being, isn't that just grand? i'll say it's a vast improvement.. and well my energy level is good too but that's because of the ginseng & kola extract thingy.. that shit is good as fuck.. takes full effect like 5 minutes after taking it.. great stuff.. anyhow now to a serious, more weird and wrong thing.. i can't believe honestly that i sort of like or as some would say have a "crush" on a damned 16 year old girl.. how the hell did it happen? heck i don't even know if she's gay.. see she sits in front of me in my environment crappy class and well she's in an honors program that lets juniors and seniors take college courses during high school that way they are ahead of everyone their age group when it's time for their real college stuff or whateva.. point is she's smart, likes rock but most importantly is a damn young girl.. urg.. well i don't know if she's a lesbian or not, she looks it but then again i've been wrong all my life about that.. so now what to do? i mean if she was gay and liked me back i don't know what the hell i would do.. why does age have to make a difference sometimes? i'm a ripe ole 23 almost 24 in a month or so.. urg.. it just pisses me off. but i'll get over this i'm sure.. i always get over people i like.. i'm sure i'll become asexual again in no time, for my sake at least...PhScKo ranted @ 3:10 p.m.
having not said anything..
hey everybody what's up? nothing much here.. just think it's about time i blogged again.. see i've regained some energy and have been inspired to write again sort of.. it's a nice day out today.. breezy, not hot outside or humid, it's simply exquisite.. i've been doing a lot of thinking the past few days about life and crap and i think i've accomplished something.. i believe that i am not asexual but what i am is just scared of being with anyone... see i do like girls.. just not all of them.. but since i don't want to get hurt i think i transfer some weird things into my brain and then i don't feel attracted to them anymore.. in other words i make myself believe i never liked them in the first place, stupid sounding right? i think it might be.. oh i'm still dealing with social anxiety which i say it's hard to try to cope with but i'm trying a few things of my own to help with it. i'm once again taking st johns wort to help. and also i'm taking some kola extract which just helps with my well being and gives me the energy to do stuff. that and well i'm taking some good ass ginseng.. but ginseng is always good.. well i can't say i'm cured because that would be ridiculous to say but i'm more at ease in social situations.. i don't know if it's the st johns wort or the kola extract giving me that sense or if it's a combination but it's helping me a lot and that's more than i could of hoped for. so hopefully i can ease the effects of social anxiety and prevent myself from feeling the way i do when it is supposed to happen or whateva.. i hope i can develop a trend again of blogging every day but i don't know if that will happen, i hope though that it does since in my deepest self i love to write and love to share my opinions and rants about my great life...PhScKo ranted @ 2:07 p.m.
a sims addiction..
hey everybody what's up? nothing much is up here.. just wanted to say that i've been playing the sims and well it's seriously addicting.. if you don't have time in your hands to spend then don't even bother playing this game cause i'm telling you that whoever does will probably go insane and never stop playing it and that can lead to serious repercussions for some of you.. i love to place stuff in rooms and have the peeps i control do cool stuff.. it's a great game so if you have the time, go get it.. anyhow on the lighter side the dolphins lost again.. i can't believe i'm saying this but we need jay back as our qb.. lucas sucks.. oh so fuckin much! he needs to die! but anyhow.. i'm still in my anti-social mode.. i think i'm gonna stay this way for maybe the rest of my life. no biggie right? not that anyone cares.. they won't be missing much by interacting with me.. i'm too good for them.. guess it's time to stop typing now. i'm too tired and blahish to go on.. but i'll try to make it a habit to blog more again.. just to rant or say anything that floats inside my brain...PhScKo ranted @ 5:03 p.m.
anti-social me...
hey people, it's that time of year where college football is at it's best.. but you don't have to take it from me though, just turn on the tube and watch for yourself and see exactly what i'm talking about... anyways enough about football.. i haven't been up to blogging lately and i don't really know why i'm blogging right now but well i haven't felt the urge to write in a long time.. all i've felt like doing is reading, not even the tv has intrigued me a bit.. only reason i watch tv nowadays is to watch football mostly.. or maybe the golden girls but otherwise i watch programs taped.. i know i'm becoming more anti-social as the days pass on.. it's like i fear public situations regardless if i'm at school, supermarket or wherever.. it scares me that i'm feeling like this nowadays but i can't help it.. i might have some chemical imbalance or something.. well i can't afford pills for this though so i'll have to deal with it the old fashion way, by waiting it out or taking st. johns wort.. anyhow we'll see what happens maybe i'll get better.. but hey i think that this is probably a serious thing but then again i've been known to be wrong before.. in the rarest occasionsPhScKo ranted @ 5:00 p.m.