long ass time!
yeah it's been a while since i've blogged.. i guess i haven't had much to say at all.. i've been depressed and sad but that has passed a bit.. i've gained a bit of weight which i now have to some how lose before i get fat again.. i swear i rather weigh 93 pounds like i did on thanksgiving that 107 that i weigh now.. i hate being fat.. yeah that's how it feels.. i shouldn't feel that way but i guess i'm scared of gaining all that weight again.. plus i guess depression has made me want to eat which of course is a no no.. also i had been drinking a lot lately but i stopped cause well i got a bad tummy ache the other day so i'm quitting that for good.. drinking sucks but when you're down that's all you can do, drown yourself and dissolve the sorrow.. well now i'm gonna try and entertain myself to escape from boredom, wish me luck...i am bloated!
yeah i'm bloated alright.. a record of bloating.. i hate periods.. then again i'm sure most women do.. anyhow i hate feeling fat.. it's making me impatient.. but on to better things.. on mothers day my mom was soo happy with the pic i gave her.. she said she didn't even remember that pic existed.. she was shocked and happy all in one so i guess that's cool. she was also a bit misty.. not cause of the pic but see my grandmother aka her mom died on a mothers day 18 years ago so well that got to her a bit. i don't like to see other people crying.. it like tears into me.. scary huh? yeah i feel for other people's pain, that has to be scary somehow.. i might blog again later if i do anything cool.. if not then maybe i'll write a song or something.. hmm.. who knows...aint that the cutest pic?
well that is me and my mom when i was about 2 1/2.. aint it sooo damn cute? i wondered how i changed so damn much.. i took that pic and scanned it and then i printed it so i can give it to my mom in a picture frame for mothers day.. she doesn't even suspect a thing.. when i saw that pic i was like damn this is the pic i got to do for her.. i hope she likes cause i sure did and me and her seem to have similar taste in pictures so hopefully she'll enjoy it...
the full update
so i now how my cd player thanks to the fine people at circuit city.. and i can finally hear my cds.. what a great thing... well i haven't blogged much cause my niece and nephew have been sick and well i don't see the need to blog when i have that on my mind, plus i've been going through a weird phase that has me not wanting to do much web related stuff..so yeah that's the updates of everything that's happened and stuff.. now i will go rest cause i've been needing it badly...speakers are set..
yup my father finally put the remaining back speakers on the newer car now all that is left is the radio which we will take to his friend on saturday morning so that's cool.. at least saturday "hopefully" i will have my cd player back and i'll be able to listen to better music than the one the radio freakin plays.. you don't understand how much i've missed listening to my cds and the burnt ones i have.. it will finally be awesome to listen to my shit instead of the crappy radio commercials and crappy songs that are over played constantly...