some partial good news..
junior's first test which was the 24 hour crappy one came out fine.. now we have to wait and see what the mri says.. i just don't want to give my hopes up.. ok no more focusing on this.. lets think happy thoughts, lol.. ok i don't know if that is entirely possible but i can always give it a try. yesterday i rearranged some stuff in my room and vacuumed it.. and i swear there's like a new aura flowing about my room and i kind of like it! i have no idea if i'm going out today since my car can't go far without the temperature going waco on me. see the fan is messed up and my dad hasn't had a chance to repair it so i'll have to wait about a month or so to be able to journey into the unknown, lol...mri's suck!
junior is having an mri today to i guess determine if he's autistic or not.. they have to sedate him since he's only a child cause in mri's u have to be face up and not move so that sucks for him.. plus he can't eat again till like 8 at night or something like that.. why do children have to go through such hardships early in life? it's not fair but then again life isn't fair and then you die.. what a crappy life for us who aren't wealthy or healthy..summer solace brings no calm..
tomorrow i might be going to the beach.. of course since i'm going i'm sure that it's gonna be one of those bad weather days.. 60% chance of rain and thunder.. i sooo hate this crappy florida weather and you would think i'd be used to it since i've lived here all my life but guess what? i aint.. the results of junior's examination was supposed to come yesterday by telephone but i have no idea if mercy got them or if she doesn't want to talk about them.. since i know how hard this is i didn't press the issue and ask, if she wants to talk about it i'm sure she'll bring it up. i know i won't be able to take the news too well if it does turn out that my biggest pride and joy is autistic.. i want him to lead a normal life and how the fuck is that possible if he has this crippling mental disability??? yeah it really pisses me off that little kids have to suffer so much.. why can't adults that are the biggest pieces of shit get those disabilities and just fucking die off the fucking face of this earth? why do the children have to suffer?? that's why i know there are no gods and that we are just here to survive however best we can.. so my suggestion to all of you is if you want to be better off then others do whatever it takes, if it means killing, stealing, fucking someone up well then go ahead cause life sucks and then you die...blah & urg!
so tomorrow junior goes in for an examination to determine if he has autism.. i really hope the results are negative & that he's just having some speech problems.. i don't know how i will deal with this if it turns out he's autistic too.. ::sighs:: see i'm very close to him and well i don't know what i will do if i find out he's got that shit in his brain fucking up his ability to do simple stuff.. i know i'll be mad for a while but not at him but at the doctor's for having vaccines with stupid crap ass mercury in them.. don't they already know they've caused the autistic population to grow severely? all i can do now is wait and hope for the best.. but i know deep down inside that the diagnosis will not be one i would like to hear...happy father's day!
another father's day has graced our presence or whateva.. i guess happy father's day to those dad's who deserve that honor, the rest can go to hell!!! anyhow so this is the new logo type thing i was talking about yesterday.. i liked it so well i put it up there for all to enjoy or bask in.. i just woke up and i'm quite sleepy still so pardon anything i say that might not be coherent.. i just got told by mommy dearest that junior & janet got newer hair cuts yesterday.. i hope they didn't screw up their hair badly.. if they did i'll kill everyone or just those involved in the matter. i might blog later if i have something decent to say or anything of the sorts otherwise expect me to speak some more words tomorrow...long ass time once again..
i can't believe i've been lacking in blogging.. well it was bound to happen one day i guess.. but i'm back for a bit again i hope.. i'm sure you've all missed me and stuff.. but see my mood hasn't been up lately so i figured blogging wasn't really important.. now i'm a bit happier so i'm proceeding in the blogging experience and i also have a new logo for tomorrow cause well i'm already bored with this one.. so at least that's something.. i'm going with mother dearest to walmart.. oh yes how much fun i'm sure to have.. well we are gonna get some gifts for fathers day since last sunday was no sucess when we tried it.. we got one freakin gift in like 6 hours of damn shopping! but i guess everyone knows how mothers are, especially cuban ones, picky, picky, picky.. so hopefully we will get the gifts in time and if we don't i'll just have to kill her and blame it on my dad...can't wait till tomorrow
how i've longed for friday to finally come.. i'm always in a much better mood once the weekend comes on by.. oh and i've wanted to update you on my liking of the "circuit city chick".. well i don't like her anymore.. it kind of repulses me now that i think back to it.. i'm glad i'm free from liking any damn chick.. i don't think i ever want to.. i want to be alone and free for the rest of my life and i am gonna do the best i can to make that happen.. girl friends are burdens so i don't need any... love crap can go fuck itself in the ass while i have fun living...new pic for june
as you can all see i made a new pic for the site since it's now summer sort of.. got nothing much to talk about.. depression isn't much of a grasping concept so i rather not talk about it.. i am gonna concentrate on what is positive in my life, even if it's only a few things, gotta start somewhere, right?