my realization of sorts..
hey everyone what's up? nothing much here.. i'm pissy right now since what i've been waiting for in the mail still hasn't arrived.. i swear whenever i'm not home like zillions of things come for me in the mail but noooo now that i'm waiting for something specific it just won't come, urg... oh i swear when i get it the harm i will cause will be immense hahahahahaha... anyhow but that's not the point.. see i had a sort of vision the other day... see only the strong survive and in that vision i got the image and understand of what "strong" really is and meant.. so now i know what i must do to survive in this world and know that i am the most important thing in it.. and if i have to make others suffer it doesn't matter just as long as my well being is good... make sense? well it does to me and that's what really matters now doesn't it? hahahahahaha...dream inspiration..
hey everyone what's up? nothing much here.. i had a dream last night that inspired a song that i wrote a chorus for today... i hope i can finish it soon before the inspiration drifts away.. i typed up the first act of this play that me and my bestfriend co-wrote in high school and then re-did part of it in college and then modified a bit today.. well let me tell you it brought back a zillon memories.. plus it's funny as heck.. see me and jimi are going to sort of a site together where we write different stuff and we are gonna post that as one of the things.. so one day you can all see it unless i die before it's done.. well lastnight i wrote another song, yeah i'm just pump and fueled with inspiration.. maybe i can do the same tonight and finish up that song.. but i'm not gonna force it.. if i get the urge to write i will if not then it will have to wait for some other phase where my inspiration is peeking.. well tomorrow i hope to go to pembroke lakes mall again.. since me and my mom are actually not going to go to walmart.. i know i know.. no bonding but on saturday me and her are gonna have the whole day together so that's cool i guess... if she bores me to death i'll have to kick her ass or just annoy her, sounds fair right? does to me...day in day out..
hey everyone what's up? nothing much here.. went to the thrift store today and got me a cool jacket type thingy.. it's hard to describe but it's cool as fuck. maybe i'll take a pic of it one day or something.. i'm just not up to taking a pic of it now.. i also went to circuit city and bought 2 cds.. reason i went there though was cause i wanted to see someone there and i did.. went to walgreens too to see someone there and did as well.. though disappointed a bit but it happens.. i hope that my sudden burst of inspiration keeps flowing down cause i like it when i can write easily.. if i do write something i'll probably tell you all about it, if not then there will be nothing to tell.. tomorrow i got class but that's cool cause the teacher rules and well i like handling dead people bones.. might creep some peeps out but not me.. i get thrills.. yeah i'm weird but that's always a good thing...song frenzy
hey everyone what's up? nothing much here.. just really wanted to say that i've written like 5 new songs in the past two days.. aint that just grand? and i wrote a poem on saturday which i didn't post up here but i did post in the so be yourself! message board.. if you want to take a peak go there and well read it.. and if you don't want to then don't.. it's simple really.. i hope to write a few more songs in the coming days if i'm inspired enough.. i don't even know where this inspiration has come from.. but hey i'll take it as it comes.. anyhow i guess that's all i wanted to share with ya all.. hope i can talk about how i wrote some more groovy ass songs in the days to come and if not well i had a nice run...new car radio/speakers...
hey everyone what's up? nothing much here.. well as you all know with that title i got me some new speakers and a new cd radio thingy for my car.. the sound is excellent as you can all expect.. so i guess it's all good.. i did spend my day with lisa and of course she dragged me to eat to sweet tomatoes and then to the kmart next to it cause it's closing and well we all know how women that are over 30 love to shop! anyhow that has been my day basically.. i went to walgreens to get me some tasty tangerine water, that stuff is addicting but anyhow and that's all i've done and will do today.. i haven't been feeling well though for the past few days.. it's been almost a week now that i've felt weird and not the good kind of weird. oh well what can i do? anyways i'm going to get more into my writing and focus on that and maybe that will snap me out of my crappy phase.. oh just so you all know the wedding sucked like i had predicted.. though it was sort of fun the way me, christy and her friend were making fun of some slutty bitches.. so i guess that part was cool.. i also wrote a poem there.. gotta fix it up though and then maybe i will share it with the world.. oh another shocker that happened yesterday was that i picked up my room.. it's nice and neat now.. so it makes it easier to work in it and get inspired, so hopefully all that will make life much easier and more pleasant...the day of the wedding...
hey everyone what's up? nothing much here.. well this day is a bit complicated now.. see mercy fell down yesterday cleaning the house and well now she has a sprained arm and can't do anything for a week with it.. so now me and my mom have to help her with janet & junior. she decided to go to the wedding and i hope she doesn't have a lot of trouble with the kids.. not that she won't have help cause she will from all of us but still and plus she's in serious pain and i could only imagine.. poor thing.. i say we need to send her some good karma over her way so she can feel better and stuff.. well i'm already dressed for the wedding and i'm gonna get my hair done by christy in like about an hour.. i hate getting my hair done but my hair looks awful now so it usually looks better when it's blow dried and all that bull crap.. well i guess i should go now and hurry my mom up.. i'll let you all know how the wedding went in tomorrow's blog.. wish me luck...valentine's day...
hey everyone what's up? nothing much here.. just well spending this valentine's day with mommy dearest cause we are heading to walmart in a few... i really don't mind spending time with my mom even though i complain about it every time we go out... in fact i really look forward to these kind of days that me and her can spend together cause who knows when the last time will be.. cause anything can happen to anyone on any given time, that's what's so unpredictable about life.. can't make plans and say you will keep em cause you just might not be able to.. anyhow i just came from visiting my nephew junior he's soooo cute.. if i ever decide to have a kid by natural birth and if it was a boy i would love it if he were like him.. it's like this kid is the most adorable thing on the planet.. i can't even explain it.. i never thought i could ever love a family member so much as much as i love him and my niece.. it's weird.. but hey it's all good.. well me and mother are leaving soon so i must retire, might blog later if i got anything important on my mind...finally rented sweet home alabama
hey everyone what's up? nothing much here.. so can you believe it? i finally rented sweet home alabama.. i'm gonna see it later on.. i just hope it's good cause if it isn't i'm gonna kick someone's ass, anyone's.. reason i'm bloggin really is to give some props to a cool message board that recently opened and that i'm a member of called so be yourself! check it out i'm sure you'll be smarter for having so.. i also to a quiz and this was the result...
a day out with lisa..
hey everyone what's up? nothing much here.. so can you all guess who has got some inspiration again? yup you've guessed it, ME!!! finally i have been getting around to getting ideas for new songs and stuff.. i'm probably gonna come up with a few in the coming days so that's a good thing... i have been missing inspiration for so long.. i think it's probably because i hadn't been sleeping well or something, but lately i have so it's all good.. i already have a few ideas for songs, just gotta sit down and jot them down as they come and hopefully a cool song will be born from those ideas... lisa and i went to the library & afterwards to eat lunch today at golden corral like usual i guess.. anyhow then she made me go to kmart and target with her.. yeah she's just like the typical old chick, looking at everything she aint gonna buy.. if she sees what i'm writing she's gonna kill me i know but oh well.. anyhow and i just got home and i'm stinkin tired.. i just want to lay down and sleep till tomorrow... hmm.. maybe i should do that.. then again i don't think i could fall asleep right this second unless i hit myself over the head with a mallet or something but that aint gonna be happening cause then i'd wake up with a fucked up headache and i don't like pain much, but then again, who does?finally it's friday!!
hey everyone what's up? nothing much here.. i'm just waiting for my mom to get herself ready so me & her can head on over to our favorite store in the world, walmart! ok it's not my fav. store but come on you must of sensed the hint of sarcasm from the way i wrote that statement... anyhow.. i am oddly feeling kind of energetic today, must be cause tomorrow is saturday and well saturdays are always good.. what's weird is i keep having weird dreams at night with chicks i've never seen before.. do these dreams mean something or am i just on some good ole fashion crack? oh well it happens.. i just wish i finally got laid in one of these dreams.. haven't even gotten close, oh well.. junior got in sort of an accident of sorts today.. he fell trying to get a cherrio from the floor and hit his head on the hard tiled floor.. he was crying lots as mercy told me all about it.. and when i went to see him today i saw the big ass bump he has in his forehead.. i mean that thing is bigger than montana... but anyhow.. now i'm gonna go and wait for my mom to finish up cause as all cubans she loves to take her sweet time and then yell at me when i go get a glass of water when we leave... then accuses me of delaying the trip.. cubans, can't live with them can't escape their wrath either...happy birthday alicia!!!
hey everyone what's up? nothing much here.. just writing this cause today is my friend ali's birthday, HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY ALI.. you and katie better get it on in some ims or i'm gonna be very mad.. well hope it's a good one and i loves ya...groundhog day..
hey everyone what's up? nothing much here.. so it's groundhog day, i wonder if the groundhog saw its shadow.. anyhow.. on some more serious of matters the tragedy that happened yesterday morning is something i'm sure none of us will forget.. it's like the challenger thing all over again.. i was little when the challenger exploded right after lift off but i still remember those horrible emotions that were felt by everyone that saw it.. the brave men and women gave their life to better space travel and such and they will be missed by those whom they touched with their presence.. it's sad how far we've gone with technology yet we can't avoid these kinds of accidents.. i'm sure though that more space craft will be built and maybe it will be perfected in the sense that it will avoid such disasters as the one yesterday... i guess the men and women who perished yesterday will live on flying high above the sky forever...the year of the goat
hey everyone what's up? nothing much here.. it's finally the first day of february.. woohoo! not that i really care but i thought i'd add that i there.. plus today is the new chinese year! happy chinese new year everybody!!! the year in the chinese calendar is 4701. i think that's a cooler year than 2003.. but our calendar is based on roman idiots that base crap on "christ".. the supposed son of god.. please i'm not into fairy tales much.. anyways not that we will ever know the real year since my belief is that the universe has always been and well the earth has been around billions of years so no one will ever know hahahahahahaha...