new years eve...
hey everyone how's this new years going for all of ya? so far mine has consisted of going to see lord of the rings 2 with lisa which by the way was awesome.. and jimi even called us when we got to the car to leave back home.. yup i miss him obviously.. but anyhow.. now soon i will be going to mercy's house and spending a boring time there.. if my mother expects me to stay there till midnight she's sadly mistaken.. it's already bad enough she's making me go early as heck there, i aint spending the new freaking year bored out of my skull with a man i detest, aka lazaro.. yeah that's mercy's husband, the bastard.. sorry if i sound a bit bitter but he's a prick.. the moment anyone meets him they think the same thing as well.. so i'm not the only one... oh and i almost forgot i have figured out my new years resolution.. and that is to eat more protein aka more meat products or protein containing products to make myself healthier by having more muscle mass and content.. yeah i'm lacking in that as of late since i've been holding out on eating much protein.. don't think i've touch meat in consecutive days since last year.. anyhow.. happy new years to all.. i'm gonna go now.. till next year...always back to the past...
hey peeps... i've got some stuff i actually want to talk about now.. i thought i wouldn't but it's been bugging me a bit so i'll just spill it... i would like to know why our past still haunts us.. like how there could be someone in your past that we still think of even though we haven't seen em or talked to them in a long time.. or how a song or comment can just bring back all those memories flowing back.. ::sighs:: don't know what's wrong with me but i've been thinking about someone on and off for a long time now.. i don't know why but i always get reminded of them.. it's not bad or anything like that it's just me and this person haven't talked in a while nor will talk again.. heck i don't know where that person even are at this point... i sort of miss them but i really shouldn't i guess.. i know i sound like i'm rambling but i feel like i just have to let this out.. sometimes i wonder if this person still thinks about me.. i won't find out but yet i still have that wonder over it.. i guess this time of year brings up these feeling more into view... damn this time of year, damn it to hell.. but wherever that person is right now i don't think they care to speak to me.. if they would they would of contacted me, they know how to.. but this is my advice to you all, if you have someone you care about or something like that and you can still contact them and still care to you should do something about it.. i can't do anything about my situation but maybe somewhere someone else can.. hmm.. maybe this blog can help someone out in a similar situation to mine.. but i doubt anyone thinks like me anyhow... i'm just too weird... what still runs through my mind is that maybe i'm not meant to speak to this person again.. and i guess when something isn't meant to be everything impedes it from happening.. sucks though sometimes.. especially if ya really miss the person or can't stop thinking about them after time passes.. but i guess life sucks and then you die.. plus i guess the bright side of this is that.. well ya know there is no bright side... but her memory is still running through my head.. yeah it's a chick of course, whatcha think i'd be all sentimental over a guy? please.. i have better things to worry about than guys, lol.. hmm.. i made myself smile.. odd and scary, but always welcomed.. so remember if there is someone ya miss and have lost contact with or for some reason haven't talked to in a bit get in contact with them, might just be the beginning of something new and great or then again maybe open up the old wounds.. but ya never know till you try...disappointment strikes like usual...
hey everybody what's up? nothing much here.. well i guess i was right... the dolphins lost and well the jets won.. i should of bet money on both games, i would of been richer, tell ya that much.. but of course instead i'm pissed off that they lost.. not that they would of gone far in the playoffs but still.. it's been a tradition to see the dolphins lose in the playoffs and now this year i won't get to see it.. but you know i'm not gonna talk about this anymore cause it's gonna bring my mood down.. to forget about that i asked lisa to go with me to lunch to sweet tomatoes.. well that made it a bit better but i still thought of jimi and how much fun we had there just talking and making fun of the bad music that came on from the speakers in the ceiling... good times, good times.. but anyhow.. i'm not as sad as i should be or depressed but that's always a good thing cause being depressed and or sad isn't great at all.. anyhow now i will be heading off cause i don't really have much to discuss today, and plus my tummy is full from the food i ate at sweet tomatoes.. maybe tomorrow i'll indulge you all in my new years resolutions..d day for the dolphins..
hey everybody what's up? nothing much here.. well what can i say the dolphins are in a tight spot today.. if they win they win their division and go on to the playoffs then again if they lose they might be out of the playoffs all together, how fucked up is that? see the dolphins are choke artists that or they like to make my blood pressure rise to the max and have me have a nice ole hard attack each & ever year on this time of the season which is the last game of the season... so will the dolphins disappoint me this year and make me wait till the jets play to see if they actually make the playoffs or will they put my mind at ease and win against the patriots today? see the jets lose and we are in the playoffs but i want the dolphins to win cause the jets are known to win just to piss off the dolphins.. so what will it be, the dolphins in a triumphant win? or the dolphins losing and again giving my hopes up? i'll have to wait & see... wish the dolphins luck and good karma, please!!!
period day..
hey everybody what's up? nothing much here.. i can safely say now that i know why my weird depression was in my system for so long.. yeah it was because i hadn't had my "period" and well since i got it i feel great.. i know that sounds really weird and stuff but it's the truth, what can i say? anyhow my dad finally fixed my break lights today and now tomorrow me and him are gonna go fix my car breaks cause i got the money to finally get new ones.. so that means that i'll finally be able to break closer to the cars and not be honked at for breaking 10 years before i reach a car.. anyhow my christmas sucked just in case anybody was interested.. i do miss jimi.. ::sighs:: hopefully me and him will get to talk soon before i got crazy.. also our a/c got sort of fixed today so that's good cause i hate being in a hot house and sleeping in hot conditions.. well i will now depart, hopefully tomorrow i'll have much more to blog about..i am officially 24!!!
hey everybody what's up? if you all can guess today is my birthday.. i'm now 24 years old.. wooohooo.. anyhow i just woke up so i have the whole day ahead of me, hopefully it won't suck like most birthdays do.. but i'm not gonna get into that now cause today is supposed to be the best day of the year for me so i'm gonna make the best of what i can of it.. well now i'm off to do my daily stuff and then hopefully i can go shopping for myself.. i already have an item in mind... lets hope best buy has it still.. i'm also going to go to lunch with my mom & christy to a place called picadeli, it's very yummy.. maybe i'll tell ya all about it later if i'm not that tired or busy, so happy b-day to me and all that good stuff...drowning into nothing...
hey everybody what's up? nothing much here.. i feel like just letting all my feelings flow down now.. i'm sick and tired of being depressed.. i don't understand it.. it's like i'll be happy one moment but then like the very next moment i get this rush of depression that lasts hours.. i don't want to feel this way and i've done everything possible to make it go away naturally but it hasn't worked.. i'm scared, i'm honestly scared that i will be like this the rest of my life.. even this time of year i've always had a smile on my face and have been elated.. but somewhere inside my brain some chemicals are acting against me or something.. it sucks because i know that this is not who i am.. i need help or something, i just don't know what... i don't want to take depression medication because that will "officially" make me depressed or something.. i just want to be my old self again.. is that too much to ask for? and then there's my stupid eating disorder that i know i have but doesn't fit in to anorexia or bulima or binge eating... i like food very much, i don't throw up my food, and i don't binge eat.. but yet i'm underweight, depressed and always trying to eat fat free foods.. hmm.. maybe this eating disorder will be named after me, the michele syndrome or the michele disease.. how horrible is that? i am scared of being fat again.. it scared me to death.. i want to be the healthiest i can be but i don't know what to do anymore.. this hopelessness is killing me and i don't even have my own bestfriend jimi here to talk to about it.. i need more options right now but i don't know where to look...friday the 13!
hey everybody what's up? nothing much here.. i put my new entertainment center up finally.. it looks cool as heck.. now all i need now is my queen bed and clothes thingy that is coming on thursday.. i still have to pick up lots of stuff but less things now... i have no energy today.. it sucks.. but tomorrow is supposed to be worse energy wise.. well at least for my birthday i'm supposed to have energy again and stuff.. reason i know is cause i've been checking my biorhythm online at biorhythm well everyone it's time for me to head off cause i'm very exhausted.. i have a wedding reception to go to tomorrow, i hope the food doesn't suck and that i don't die of boredom.. so pray for phscko, please...new layout
hey everybody what's up? nothing much here.. got a new layout up that's all i need to say for today.. got bored with other one pretty quick, what can i say?dolphins game
hey everybody what's up? nothing much here.. so the hurricanes are bound for the championship ain't that great? anyways today's focus is on the dolphins... they play against the bears and they have to win or else they will be fucked up... and plus if they don't win i'll go insane, yeah more than i already am.. on a lighter note i finally got an e-mail from jimi telling me some stuff and all.. i miss him lots, can't wait to talk to him on the phone and online or both.. not at the same time even though we've done that before when he lived down here.. but anyhow.. i might be going with lisa to the library tomorrow cause she has a book that i want to take out, it's about buddhism, really cool too.. anyways i'm now off to chill out.. i'm fairly tired from rearranging my room and crap.. but i gotta do what i gotta do.. and in about 2 weeks my new bedroom set will be placed and i will be much better and less tired...
PhScKo ranted @ 4:55 p.m.
college football
hey peeps what's up? that's what i'm eating, pizza today.. yum.. but seriously not 1000 of them.. that's i think too much, don't ya think? anyways the virginia tech vs 
miami game is coming up in a few minutes i can't wait.. if miami loses i'll probably kill someone so for everyone's sake lets hope they win... well i'm off to watch the game.. you all should as well.. go canes!!!
PhScKo ranted @ 12:55 p.m.
so i was bored... sue me!
PhScKo ranted @ 5:53 p.m.
it's friday finally!
hey everyone what's up? nothing much here.. well it's been 2 days since jimi has been in ohio and i'm yet to hear from him.. i'm sure i'll hear something from his tongue this weekend hopefully.. i heard he got there safe so that's good.. must of been hard for his family to see him go.. well it was hard for me too but i just don't let it show.. yeah i'm weird when it comes to showing feelings nowadays.. well i have to get going i have to go to class soon cause that's what happens when you go to college and ruin your life, lol.. like my new logo? i was bored, oh well.. i have to think of a new design soon this one is getting real old.. but since my originality and creativity is gone well i don't know how i'll accomplish that, any suggestions?PhScKo ranted @ 7:25 a.m.
one day left till goodbye...
hey everyone what's up? nothing much here.. just sitting here and i decided to blog.. me,jimi and katie aka jimi's g/f are going to go thrifting and to the mall.. jimi leaves for ohio tomorrow afternoon.. that's gonna end an era.. i'm not gonna get all sentimental and all that other bullshit cause that's not how i am.. or at least i won't admit to it.. it's gonna suck not having my bestfriend around anymore.. i'll still get to talk to him but i won't be able to hang with him anymore.. well i can't dwell on that.. life is full of other cool shit to be thinking about stuff that's negative.. anyhow so today is the end of the era between me and jimi.. hope we go out with a bang, right?PhScKo ranted @ 7:45 a.m.