Ever had all your teeth smashed out? Ever broken your shin bone,
or a rib, or broken an eardrum? Nothing hurts as much as a broken heart.
Falling on your face spiritually at the same time is a double whammy, too.
This song tells of disappointment and sadness as a result of trying to do
something out of the will of God, as I cry out to Him, "Sorry. I kept on trying
to do something HOPING it was your will. I'm dissatisfied and there is no
way to heal unless I come crawling back to you. Please help me. I'm hurt
too badly to heal on my own."
What do you get when you put two people together when both of them
are not yet converted? Yet both are true seeds of God, elected to Eternal
life as two parts of the manifold body of the Lord Jesus Christ. Both will
eventually get the Holy Ghost. But neither one is meant for the other.
YOU GET A MESS. They will destroy each other, and then themselves.
I forgot about the pain that I caused myself until this song comes to my
mind. It was originally written for a girlfriend from way back from 1989.
It was titled, "I Love You," and I really wanted this girl to be my wife.
Our pastor's wife and her parents tried to push us together, and I
thought it was destined for us to be. I forced it after God said "No!"
And when we broke up, It was very crushing. No one knows the battles
I had to face or how many nights I cried myself to sleep. All because
I wanted a wife. Finally, after self punishment, I went back to God.
Again, I proved what an idiot I was. While hurting, the name of the
song was changed to "You, Lord." I played it once in church, and put
it to bed until now. I've taken more knocks than I should have and they
have all been my own fault.
BUT, through it all it just so happens that the Lord has changed my
heart so I can look at people differently, with compassion. Somehow, I
understand that if a person is deep in sin, then it could mean that they
are responding to a thirst for God, and attempting to satisfy that thirst
with the only things they know. And sometimes the deeper the capability
for thirst, the deeper the sin. We, however scarred, are the ones most
grateful for salvation. Yes, I place myself in that category.
By the way, I made a big mistake on the last line of this song...
it was supposed to say "I'm glad You found me, Lord." I didn't find him.
He wasn't lost.
Standard "E" tuning, Key of "D"
One day at home in North Carolina In December '89 the Spirit of the
Lord came in to me and inspired me to write this song. I drove 2 1/2 hours
to church the next Sunday and played the song as a special at the end of
the service. When the service was over, Bro. Junior Woolsley's father ( whom
I only know also as Bro. Woolsley) walked up to me and said "God bless you,
my brother," as he hugged my neck. Immediately I knew he had been strongly
affected by the song, and that he was the person that God wanted to hear it.
Standard "E" tuning, Key of "G"
Again, in my place in Raleigh, NC this song was given to me as a march,
a happy warrior tune. Inspired by the scriptures and what the prophet had
to say about the Bride of Christ being spiritual Israel, the Holy Ghost being
the promised land, and Abraham being our father. The devil hates it when
I sing this one! (Happy Tune!)
Standard "E" tuning, Key of "B"