| Poems That Are Written By Kristine Rafanan |
| Steve You're mean You're cruel You're a NASTY piece of work You're also a complete jerk I hope that someday it comes back to you I hope you suffer in hell I hope your life Turns out to be an empty shell |
| Our Own Ways In a couple of days I know that we'll go our own ways You and I aren't to blame Cuz nothing really stays the same Our friendship was set to a limit Now it's ending My heart is aching Just because things change They don't always have to end I'm always here for you I'll ALWAYS be your friend |
| Falling Apart When I cry, you comfort me You make me see that someone really does care for me But now it's all different Cuz you are there and I am here With all this happening It brings a tear to my left eye then to my right I know these tears will be coming all night My heart is broken My eyes all soaked With you there and me here I know we're falling apart |
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| I Need You Now I need you now Cuz I'm so alone I hate where I am and I want to go home Only if I had one wish I'd wish for you to help me I need help, can't you see When I come you and tears are running down my face Please wipe them off then give me a gentle embrace Only if I could write you a letter And tell you how I feel maybe after we talk My heart will heal |
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| I've Learned My Lesson You know what I learned? You NEVER know how much someone means to you until you lose them And when do you find out It's too late There's nothing you can do about it You won't just feel that great I learned this a couple of days ago It;s so very hard to let go Someone who has had an impact on you Someone who has been there Someone who has always stayed true But sometimes you have to let go You need to move on You need to grow |
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| My Future My dream someday is to become what I want to be So I can be happy So I can be free I already have it all planned out So when I'm older I don't need to scream and shout I know with this dream of mine I know I'll find joy and happiness I know my future will shine |
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| My Life As I sit here and cry Seconds, minutes, hours go by I wish I had someone who could give me a gentle embrace And maybe someone who could wipe these tears off of my face I wish somebody, but I don't I wish I could ask for help But I can't and I won't What's wrong with me There must be something wrong you see Cuz when I was young I was happy But now my life is all crappy Sometimes I wish I could call call somebody and talk for hours Me not being able to do this My problems are building up tp be towers My life is going down the drain I know it I can feel the pain My problems are getting bigger All I really want to do right now, IS PULL THE TRIGGER |
| Thank You (For Kristi) You listened to everything I had to say Problem is , in April, you're going to have to go away To me you are more like a friend Aiways had a heart, an ear and even a smile to lend I'll miss your smiles to let me know you're there I'll miss your advice to let me know you care You're so easy to talk to I don't know why I got no clue Maybe it's because you understand me and all that I say All I really want to say is thank you For being you For listening to me when I needed somebody to Thanks for smiling at my lowest times Even it didn't show in the outside A part of me inseide did shine You'll leave footprints in my heart If we never talk or see each other again I just want to say thanks again And I want to let you know that Even if we're going to part You will ALWAYS and forever Have a special place in my heart |
| So Much Pain So much stress, so much pain I feel like I'm lost in the rain With no-one to guide me through my darkest hour I've lost all hope, I've lost all power As I walk down this road of pain I know that my life will never be the same The darkness has settled in My life has turned into concrete and tin No-one to hold my hand No-one to give me back love Nothing no-one can say or do Not even the creator above Nothing I can say or do I hate this place I just want to run away But I'm scared to run I'm scared to hide I hate this feeling thats running through my mind Only if I could turn back time And undo the wrong Maybe my life would be better Maybe I'd be more strong |
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| Depression I get a funny feeling It comes from deep inside I get all mad and angry Wanting to go and hide My doctor calls in depression My dad says its just me But the thought and feelings No one will ever be able to see Some say I'm psycho Some say I'm just weird It's like I'm a whole new person And the old me just disappeared I get really edgy I want to commit suicide real bad Then I get a headache Followed by feeling sad I wish I could get help I wish it would go away Maybe if I keep praying Maybe it will someday |
| You used to always be there What's was forever for Please tell me Why you don't care anymore You said there would never be a goodbye How can I believe you when all I see are lies We used to be so close I miss you so much I miss you the most You picked me up when I fell You used to be my confidant But confidants don't put each other through hell You mean more to me than words can say My heart breaks more and more With every passing day You're fine without me And its okay I wish you were still there for me That's all I really have to say |
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| I wish I was Dead Everything around me changes While I stay the same Here I am on my own Crying with a heart full of pain Thoughts fill my mind Tears fill my eyes Can't anyone hear My desperate cries Courage to move on Is far by gone Faith taken away by all No one loves me No one at all I cry alone Sitting on my bed I hate all this pain I wish I was dead |
| No Courage I feel so down I don't know why But lately I've been obessing Over ways that I could die Im so scared I don't know why I feel like this I wish things would get better That's my only wish After I overdose on advil I crawl into my bed Peacefully sleeping Hoping to never wake Only to be dead I just want to smile I want to live a happy life But I don't have enough strength Or courage to stay alive |
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| It's hard to be me As I walk down the hallways People start to stare I continue to walk Pretending I don't care As the day passes by My mind fills with fright And when the days finally over I cry myself to sleep at night I want to be accepted Normal and free But with all these judgemental people It's hard to be me |
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| Life Or Death I hate all this pain I hate this life I wonder why the hell I didn't kill myself last night I have nothing Nothing to live for I don't know why I'm even here anymore Everyone puts me through some pain I look at my past And my life will never again be the same With all this pain I just want out I bury my face in my pillow as I scream and shout But this is it This is the end There's nothing to make my heart mend As I sit here on my bed I'm putting pills in my mouth one by one I think of all the battles I've lost and won This is the one battle bewteen life and death I told myself I would have to chose I give up on this... So I lose |
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| Forget about me You have more important things to do You don't need me, but I need you I don't know what to say I feel like I'm losing you more with every passing day You mean so much to me Only if you could understand Only if I could made you see I cry because of you I don't know why But I feel like a fool You used to always be by my side You made me feel loved In you I could always confide But now you seem to resent me So I think I should leave you alone and let you be I think you got sick of me I don't know But thats what I see Now we act like we never met To me, it's a big deal To you, no big sweat You know how I feel and you don't care You're trampling on my feelings That's not fair So, I think I'll leave you alone I'll just let you be So, just get on with your life And forget about me |
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| My Words I don't know what I'm trying to say I just write down what I feel everyday I don't know if anyones supposed to care But this is what I feel All the things I say in my poems are real Every poem means something to me Some of them are sad Some of them are happy Look deeper into the meaning of what I say Then just maybe You'll understand what I go through everday |
| You Don't Care You don't care That's not fair So our friendship wasn't really strong It's been so long And I'm lost without you I don't know what I'm supposed to do Im guessing this is the end According to you we'll never be friends You gave up on everything our friendship stood for There's no point in trying anymore I'm missing you That I hope you know Now here comes the hardest part It's letting go |