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A little bit about me...... |
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I have been told that i think too much...I don't think i think too much but i often wonder if i do. Sometimes i wonder a little too much and realize that i'm thinking when i know that i shouldn't be thinking why i think..Then i wonder why can't i be an airhead so i won't have to think and then i have to think about how to be an airhead and get confused cause i'm thinking too much about that too. Okie..so here's the big question...if i am such a thinker, why can't i be an academic thinker? So this page is going to be my random thought page cause trust me...i am the most random person u will EVER meet! |
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A little about me. I'm a 22 year old college student. I am in my 4th year of college. I'm a double major in envi sci and edu. with an intended minor in Wildlife and Fisheries. If you haven't figured it out, Penty is my goose. I have been told that i'm weird, different, a DORK and i have to say that i'm proud of it. How many people have a pet goose? I do, I do! So welcome to my webpage :) hope u like it. |
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UPdated:
June 21 |
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Random thoughts....... |
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6/21: I've decided to stop writing about the "deep" stuff in my head. Eh..it's not too exciting. Actually, it never was really that exciting. Prob. more confusing. |
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5/15: I like to help people. I like to be there for people but there are sometimes when doing that is just not the best thing to do. Sometimes the best thing to do is to sit back and just watch. I can't do that willingly. I always end up pushing myself back, kinda holding myself back from doing anything. Sometimes is really does hurt when you can't be there for someone, when you don't know how to, or what to do. Often times all I can do is just show up and say HI, then walk away. I hate that. I want to do something but that's just another part of life. You can't be apart of everything and you can't do everything that you want/feel like doing. O well. |
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5/10: I am an old woman. I am an old, college woman. I am an old, 22 year-old, college woman. No, I am an old, 22 year-old, college woman that got chubby cheeks as the result of my winter hibernation.
Although I may complain about my stress level ("I'm screwed, I have so much shit todo"), I'm O.K. I went through these other entries and they are depressing. I've gotten a lot stranger these past few weeks in that I'm not holding as much back as I used to. If I feel like it, 60% of the time I'll act on it. I'm learning a lot about myself this way and that's how it should be. That's what makes life interesting. We change in a way to adjust to our live so that we can feel comfortable. Feelings will change, environments will change, prespectives will change, everything will change, but there is a very basic level where people stay the same. It is something about their personalities, about who they are that stay the same. It is at such a basic level that I have no word to explain it, but for those who are close, it can be sensed. Do you know what I'm talking about? I hope you do.
I don't understand very much about this world, but then again I do. Having an appreciation for everything around me, for what I have, makes life really good. Rather then wondering about the past or the future, having appreciation now is soo important. Enjoying how things are at this very moment no matter what it is, is a good feeling. I guess you can say that I'm in a good mood. Often times I spend so much time thinking of what I don't have rather then stepping back and thinking what would my life be like with out (blank). Then I realize how important it is to me. I don't know much about the world and frankly, in a lot of instances, I don't care. We don't have to know everything in this world, when the time comes we can learn. Knowing what is important to you is the most important thing, what you want out of your life, and what you want to eat today (this takes a lot of thought :-D ). |
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3/9: I have been very worried about my decission to become a teacher. For those who don't take it seriously, as a lost resort, it is one of the easiest professions in the world. For those who take it seriously, it is one of the most complex and rewarding careers that's out there. I take my career choice very seriously and in doing so, I questioned and doubted my abilities. Recently, even though it was my first day substitute teaching, something felt so incredibly right. I wasn't scared anymore. I can do. Although, I still have fears and worries, I know that those will be worked out with a little more experience. I have truly found what I want to do. |
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2/27: Making the effort to understand someone, I think, is a genuine sign of friendship. To sit there and listen to a person, asking them questions, trying to understand takes a lot of work. In general cases, it goes unnoticed in a friendship. In other instances, it gets frustrating and disapointing because you relaize that you may never understand that person. For whatever reason, that person may not be making the effort to allow u to understand. In a way, its like a lost friendship and to realize that is sad. |
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2/20: I read through these old entries and I have realized that I am a depressing person. So let me continue with this trend. What is one of the scariest thoughts to have? Well, besides the thought of seeing snakes crawling on the floor? Fearing that you don't understand yourself. I think I've become a little too dramatic about this stuff but then again, it's me! I'm confused, stressed, confused, mentally exausted, confused, and stuff. I am making things more complicated then they really should be. I know that I've been focusing on all the negative aspects of my life. I've lost sight of a lot of things. It's not healthy. My entire self has somehow been thrown out of wack and I don't like it. It shouldn't be that way. Well, another lesson to learn. I guess that's all i have to say. |
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