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| Chapter 2 |
| If only the boys could see me now. I think they would be absolutely disgusted. I started doing things even I�m not proud of but I do them anyway just so I can get away from my new hectic life. Shortly after the breakup, I was attacked by fans, but there was nothing I could do. I spent a week in the hospital. No one came by to see if I was OK. When I say no one I mean the boys. I felt like they didn�t care anymore. My bad habits started shortly thereafter. Smoking & drinking were a way of life for me now. My brother�s friends invited me to a party & I got wasted away by drinking. Luckily for me, my brother took me home. Later I found out that two people were killed in a shoot-out at that party. I moved out of my parents� home & into a small apartment on the outskirts of Miami. I made new friends that took me to parties & clubs all the time, but after a while I started to cut back on the outings. I recently found out that my mom had gotten in touch with Kevin. He called me & I can still remember the conversation. �Hey D. It�s Kevin� �Hey Kev. Whazup� �Listen D your mom called me she�s concerned about you.� �What do you mean concerned about me?� �Howie, she wants you to stop drinking & smoking.� �Well, why couldn�t she tell me that?� �Because she thinks I can knock some more sense into you.� �I doubt that.� �Why?� �Because I feel like you & the guys abandoned me after we broke up.� �D., that doesn�t mean we don�t care about you.� �It�s hard to tell when everyone leaves me in the arena to make a press statement.� �Come on D. I didn�t call to talk about the past I called to talk about your current problem� �Well right now its you so goodbye.� I remember slamming the phone down. Kevin never called back I knew he didn�t care. |