'I decided to write in this book every night so I can live my life twice; once for real, and once in retrospect.'
i didn't know it wouldn't work.
'I told her I couldn't tell her the whole truth, but that I didn't want to lie to her anymore'
'ya gotta go swimming on the band trip. I'm way bigger than you. you have nothing to worry about'
'you have the same thing sometimes I think, when you feel like everyone's watching you and that for some unfair reason, they all look better than you.'
She said I was too hard on myself, and then she wasted away...
The mom's. '1,2,3,4 we'll be friends forever more, 5,6,7,8 never torn apart by fate.'
John. '...and I could tell you...'
Mary. 'Tell me what?'
John. 'Mary, I love you!'
and i thought i loved him too...
Mary. '...Bein' in that red coat is like that...like bein' safe in an adventure.'
i've never had a red coat, so far as i can remember
Love. '...you are my love and I am your love. The darkest thing has come and led to a moment of despair. But look! See here! I am your love who has never left you! I can turn a tiny lock and open up your soul again!'
Poet. 'I am not afraid.'
and still i wonder where my key has gone...
Woman. 'Don't envy me because I'm skinny. I know you don't really, but you do say you do, which bothers me. If you knew why I was skinny....I'm talking about the world. The world does not nourish me.'
i envied her every moment and never spoke a word.
Girl. 'I am a girl. I live in a coffin called a room. I live in a tomb called a house...but I have a window, and I have seen the stars, and far fires on prairie nights, and wild men singin' in the dark -cowboys they call them- and I have pressed my soul to the glass so that it may have sight, and I have fixed my heart with a star like a pin to the bosom of the night...something of me is all together free!'
and it was. i had dreams and cowboys.
Walter. 'I'm a man who loves a mermaid. And she loves me. And it's wonderful. But it's sad too. It's really sad for a man to love a mermaid. You can see that? And it's even worse if it's a dream. To love somebody you can't have is bad enough. But to love somebody you can't have, and she's a dream too...That's too sad.'
i used to laugh at him. Now i know he's right. It is too sad.
Tribe.'When the moon is in the seventh house, and Jupiter aligns with Mars...'
and he put his palms to mine...i forgot whether i was newly named Donna, or a loser's new love. It's amazing what a death pile can do to a young girl's mind...
Tribe.'...Facing a dying nation of moving paper fantasy list'ning for the new told lies with supreme visions of lonely tunes...'
Claude. 'Berger! I feel like I died.'
'She wouldn't let him, so he said, "Fine." and put his arm around me.
"Ha, you're second choice!"
"What a bitch. Besides, she's not second choice, she's dessert!'"
it amazes me how much a person can change before it is clear that they are a different person all together.