Thursday, October 20th, 2005
sign my guestbook, it makes me happy :)

Hellooooo oh my it's been a while! *sigh* I've been meaning to update for so long but I never seemed to have the time to actually sit down and DO it. I even started writing entries out by hand during class (I suppose I should have been listening...or sleeping, at least) but then I would never finish them and by the time I'd get home the writing-moment had passed. I need to be in the mood to write in order to produce anything remotely interesting, I've realized. I'm in one now, hence...an update :D

I'm 20 now :) My birthday was on the 1st, of course...it was a Saturday, but starting on Friday night it was quite possibly the best birthday yet. There's nothing like being surrounded by family and good friends to make a girl feel like a princess...and a really super book about squirrels can only add to the festivities heh heh heh...The whole weekend was just perfect, I spent time with so many special people AND I even managed to get some work done which made everything ten times better because there was no guilt factor whatsoever. Clearly, it was three weeks ago and I'm still coming down off of the high it gave me lol...good times fo' sho.

OH and the whole year was made so much warmer and cuddlier with the receipt of Carly and Denise's splendiferous present - I like to refer to it simply as "Vest" (for lack of a better name). Since the moment immediately after getting it, it has been the object of my affection - okay so it's a borderline obsession. So what. Don't act like you understand, Vest is mine. MINE.

I think I might have to get married in it.

...or to it, for that matter.

Okay so birthday shenanigans aside...everything else is going pretty well. I'm just loving the Ismaili house here in the Hammer. It's not just living with housemates, these guys feel like family. I feel so blessed that we all somehow came together like this. So often it occurs to me that there's nowhere else I'd rather be living this year...which is a far cry from Brandon Hall last year, when every night brought with it new and disturbing forms of first-year self-expressionism. I shudder at the thought. *shudder*

School itself is far less spectacular than I'd hoped it would be this year, in terms of my marks...I dunno. Lately I've been thinking a lot about the increasingly possible scenario in which I don't get into any Canadian law schools, or at least none that I would consider going to. It's because it's a four-year program that I feel I ought to be choosy about the place as much as the program...I mean if it was one or two years I suppose I could put up with a crappy location. But really...four years is a long time. Imagine I ended up in like...Winnipeg. I don't even know if they have a law school there but still...imagine. *more shuddering* So yeah, what if my marks aren't good enough by the end of third or fourth year to get into any Canadian schools... then what? A master's, perhaps...but not in economics, after listening to my sister talk about it I don't know if I have the kind of passion you'd need to endure a program that intense. An American school? I'd be paying through my nose to be there, and law is a funny thing when you're trying to study somewhere other than where you hope to live later on, there are so many things that aren't transferrable...it would definitely mean more work, at the very least another bar exam. But really...what are my other options? Husain suggested culinary school. That seemed really exciting until I considered how fat I'd get, surrounded by gourmet EVERYthing...besides if that's where I'll end up then what the hell am I doing right now, going grey-haired over long-run cost curves and binomial frequency distributions. *sigh* it's a big, scary world out there. Sometimes on the way to school in the mornings I take a long, hard look at the bus driver and wonder if I, too, would look good in a sweater-vest...