Sunday, October 31st 2004
let's try this again, shall we?

Sometimes, in an effort to simplify things, one comes up with so many solutions to the complications that the solutions themselves become the complications. For example, the entry below is one of several in the past few months that was started but never finished, simply because I don't usually have the time anymore to spend an hour or two updating all at once - and doing what I can and figuring I'll finish it up later obviously isn't working either. So I've decided to scrap most of the headings I've been using and return to Pandywaff's roots - a few paragraphs of whatever happens to be on my mind at the moment.

(If anyone's somehow devastated by this just know that I'm keeping the template heh heh heh..)

I've been wanting to make this change for a while now, and especially in the last couple of weeks, but October's been pretty busy - namely because of midterms but also I think it's cause this is home now - I've found a *groove*, if you will :D There always seems to be something to do, and as some of you already know that has the potential to drive me nuts - but I'm actually really enjoying it so far :) I think I've got a pretty good mix of work and play going on...with the possible exception being that I'm about five weeks behind on my TIME magazines and I feel slightly detached from the real world. Especially with the U.S. election coming up, I wish I was a little more in tune with things but there's only so much reading a person can do...

I never finished telling you guys about my birthday. It's kinda really after the fact now but it was one of the most awesome birthdays ever. You know how every year there's inevitably that one person who asks "so how does it feel to be so-and-so years old?" and usually the answer is "uh..well I really just feel a day older than yesterday.."? Nineteen actually does feel different. I dunno what it is...I think when you turn 18 everyone congratulates you cause you're officially an "adult" and all that stuff, but it's all so new to you that you don't really feel it yet - it takes a while to sink in. But by 19, you've had time to get used to it and personally, I feel like this past year has been one of the most introspective times of my life and I think that's made me so much stronger. I've always valued individuality but I've never I've felt this independent before. I dunno if I ever mentioned this before but for the longest time, and especially towards the end of grade 12, I'd heard so many older people talking about how high school was the best time of their lives and I couldn't help thinking that this couldn't possibly be it. High school was fun, sure...but something told me I would appreciate university for things that high school could never have offered, things like being on my own and having my own schedule, meeting so many awesome new people and even more than that, meeting people I can learn so much from. This was so completely worth waiting for..

I think that's pretty much all I wanted to say for now. I could go into detail about all the little things that have been going on in the meantime but then this entry will be two pages long and none of it is more important than just amusing...so I'll just leave it at that. Cheers!

Nineteen years of perfection... ;)
Date: Friday, October 1st 2004
Feeling...: sleepily happy...someone pulled the fire alarm in our res at 4 this morning, so we all had fun stumbling down the stairs, half-asleep, and freezing outside for ten minutes. But it's MY BIRTHDAY so it's aaaaaaall good today :D
Listening to: bunch of newly downloaded tracks: classic Aerosmith, INXS, Radiohead, Stone Temple Pilots, The Presidents of the USA, Greenday, the "Clueless" soundtrack - the theme seems to be "early 90s revisited" heh heh heh...
Excitement brewing over: well...for the past couple of weeks I've been excited about TODAY...so I guess now I'm just enjoying the actual day :)
Concerned about: sooooooooooo much work to do and not a chance of touching any of it 'till Sunday..*sigh* OH WELL!!!!
People/things that made me smile: b-day wishes from everyone today...it was nice to wake up to a song-filled phone call from my parents rather than just the radio :)
New thing(s) I�ve learned: MacAuley Culkin was arrested arrested sometime last week after weed and unauthorized prescription meds were found in a car he was riding in. Will that poor dork ever have a relatively normal life?