MY IMMORTAL
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
I don't know what to do anymore. Life hasn't gotten any easier. She's still there. I wonder if I should let down my defenses, just this once. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad. *sighs* Why can't she just leave me alone?
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
Every time I see her, my heart skips a beat. I can't breathe. She's beautiful. But how can such a beautiful creature cause so much pain? I try and push her away, yet I'm drawn back to her. I don't want her to leave me alone. I want her to love me. The pain though...I don't know if I can ever forgive her for what she's done to me...
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I heard her singing the other day after school. She was alone in the choir room. I stood there, just watching her. She seemed to know I was there, yet for a long time, she didn't look. Suddenly, she turned, looked straight into my eyes, and sang clearly, "When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears. When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears. And I've held your hand through all of these years. But you still have all of me." A tear ran down my cheek; she was right. I turned, and ran. Once again alone, I cried. She never came...Has she given up on me?
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face, it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice, it chased away all the sanity in me
I can't get away from her. No matter how hard I try. She's everywhere. Everything reminds me of her in some way or another. Her voice is always in my ears, no matter how loud my music is. I'm slowly going crazy. All because of her. I want to be hers so bad...I see her in my dreams at night and everywhere I go by day. What is wrong with me? How can someone I love so much not know it? Does she know what she does to me?
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
And though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
It's not fair. What did I ever do to deserve this? My heart breaks every time she walks away. I've shed so many tears, all for her. I love her, yet I despise her for what she's done to me. She's hurt me like no one else has. That will never change. I want to forgive her...but I can't. I've been alone all along, and it seems I'm even more alone since she came into my life.
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