UNSTABLE

I�ve lost my stability again
It feels like I�ve jumped in
And I am drowning
Why isn�t someone saving me?

Do they want me dead?
To see me fail for the final time?
I continue to struggle
To fight my way to the surface

But what is waiting for me
Once I break free?
I can�t see from here
Whether my future is light or dark

I�m climbing closer to the top
And I can see from here
My future is no more than a hazy gray mist
I�m blinded by my fears and insecurities

I hang there, so damn close to reaching my goal
All I know is if I continue to be uncertain
I�ll sure slip and be back where I started
But if I continue on, and let my fears fall away, I�ll be free

I sit down on a ledge
Take a few deep breaths
I clear my mind and heart of any lingering doubts
And open my eyes ever so slowly

The world seems different now
As I make the final ascent
I realize something...
My lack of faith was once my cage

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Written on 9 August 2002.