THESE TEARS

Once again
These tears are falling
And I wonder
Who am I crying for?

Am I crying for my mom?
For how narrow-minded she is?
Or am I crying out of hatred
For those years when I had only one parent?

Am I crying for my dad?
For how he is in heart-shattering pain every day?
Or am I crying over the fact
That I can no longer talk to him without a flood of emotion?

Am I crying for the nameless?
For the millions who starve or do not have a place to call home?
Or am I crying for those who lost their lives
Just because they were in the right place at the wrong time?

Maybe I'm not crying for people...
Maybe I'm crying over things...

Am I crying out of anger?
I could be...
Lord knows I have a temper...
Maybe it is my anger that causes me to shed these tears...

Or am I crying for attention?
Maybe I feel neglected.
I won't doubt that...
Such a lonely life I lead...

I cry for many reasons...
For people and yes...
Over things that I never work out...
Yet I still wonder the true reason of why I shed these tears.

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Written in 2002.