SORRY, SO SORRY

I screwed up again
Big surprise there
Go figure, it�s me
This is the way I live my life

I make mistake after mistake
Before I can resolve the first one
So the mistakes stack up
And bury me, deeper and deeper

Look, I�m sorry for how I�ve hurt you
I�m sorry I made you want to die
I wish things could be different
I hope you never shed a tear for me

I�m not worth the tears you cry
I�m not worth a thing
My life is meaningless
And I�m sorry you had to learn that the hard way

I couldn�t tell you this to your face
But you have all the honor and dignity anyone could hope for
You�re smart and beautiful, and I wish you could see that
I�m telling you, I�m not as strong as you are, and I could only hope to be someday

There is so much more I wish to tell you
And a million different ways I could apologize
But until I can put it into actual words, it�d be best not to say anything
So I�ll leave it at this...I�m so, so sorry.

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Written in 2001-2002 for Amanda Sterling.