NEW BEGINNINGS

Staring at the diamond-laced black velvet sky
All I can think about is you
And what we once had
Tears well up, my vision blurs

I close my eyes
And let the bitter tears fall
Staining my pale cheeks
While memories of us cloud my mind

Every phone conversation
Every little word � spoken or typed
They echo within my head
Causing my ears to ring

A rogue thought enters my misty mind
An evil thought that pulls me in
If I end it now, I won�t have to lose you
I shake my head vigorously

I realize that I�ve gone through too much
To end it all now
I�m living my life to the fullest
Being crazy, dancing in the halls, and speaking my mind

I hate to say it
But I feel you tied me down
Now I�m free as a dove
I�m now spreading my wings

I do miss you
Like crazy, I swear
But this ending is also a new beginning
For both of us

I know you�ve �moved on�
And I�ve got some news
I too have �moved on�
But you are still in my heart

I still love you
I still think about you day and night
And yes, I still wish, though silly it may seem
My hopes and dreams for us, they will never die

Our lives are changing
Nothing will be the same
Maybe we�ll be together again
And maybe we won�t

But hey,
Either way,
I�ll love you
Always and forever

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Written in 2001-2002.