I HATE

I hate the way
You look at me
And the way
You talk to me
Like I'm not important
Well you know what?
I'm tired of you
And all your emotional fuckwittage
I don't need your shit
Just leave me the fuck alone
I can't take it anymore
My patience is gone
I want to break something
To hurt someone
I don't care anymore
Your words harm more than anything
Tears blur my vision
I'm angry at the world again
All because of you
You're not happy so you take it out on me
Gee thanks so much!
Like I need your shit
On top of what's already pulling me down
Don't come near me
I can't control my rage
If I strike out
And scream until my throat is raw
I will be your target - once again
"I know you're going to be trailer trash!"
Fuck you!
Watch, you'll see
I'll be better than you'll ever be
And then you'll see
Won't you?
Even if I have to force your eyes open
Tape them up
You'll see damnit
And when you die
Who will be laughing then?
You're always looking down on me
Thinking you're better than me
I'll never be you!
Your dreams will crash and burn
Keep trying to push me down
I'll keep getting back up
You'll never win
I have something that you can never break
The will to push my way to the top
To show you up
Prove you wrong
To be everything you'd never be
You're the worst part of me
I want to be done
Anything would be better than putting up with you
When I'm on top
Your jaw will drop
Begging for forgiveness
Yeah, well, fuck you
I'll never be you
I hate everything about you!

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Written on 11 April 2003.