ANGER [WHAT YOU DO TO ME]

Confused once again
Heart pounding
Acid pumping in veins
Eyes closed

Trying to relax
Muscles tense
Breathing harsh
Mind racing

Knowing it's not right
Yet unable to fix it
Can't fight back
Left to brood in silence

Suppressing the urge to lash out
Body shaking with built-up rage
Nails digging into palms
Teeth piercing lip

Crumbling to the floor
Tears stream down cheeks
Strength draining
Self-discipline shattering

Curled up
Ignoring triumphant laughter
Defeated for the hundredth time
And this is how it ends

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Written on 11 April 2003.