I'm all alone, within my home, haven of secludity.
Over and done, I've had my fun; what use is being free?
Free to be oppressed, free to be undressed, free to take my life;
Free to become worse, nature run its course, freely full of strife.
I thought I saw a solution; I loved Emmanuel.

I have no one; I see no sun; should I see the light?
I cannot see, it cannot be; though one day you might.
I have no muse, I only choose, if it's time it ends.
It's all so cold; you think you're bold? You've yet to defend.
I wanted guidance, certainty; I wanted Emmanuel.

My soul is draped, my body's raped; my mind's total discord.
I cannot cry, I want to die; is this my grand reward?
My salvation, my damnation; both are already done.
My retribution, my prostitution; they have now become one.
I don't understand, you make no sense; what is Emmanuel?

I don't recall what love is at all; maybe I've just been used?
What is "betray"? Is it to pray? Or have I been refused?
My soul is scarred, my body barred, and what have I to show?
Holding me down, marching through town; will you ever let me go?
Can't take it all; do I care at all? There's no Emmanuel.

Filled up with hate, you're all ingrates; I despise you all.
I don't believe; want you to leave. How far will I fall?
I don't need light, only to fight; leave me the hell alone!
Just go away, you'll never stay. The disgust that you've shown!
This is life, I hate it all, as I hate Emmanuel!

Commentary

Not much to be said about the rhyme scheme of this one. Each stanza has two pairs of lines with their own personal aab, ccb patterns, and then a final line that breaks from prose. The meter, for the most part, is kept the same between each pair of lines. I was finally losing interest in complicated patterns by the time I wrote this one. Instead, I was satisfied to let each stanza be vaguely reflective of my religious experience: learning about religion, enjoying it, then doubting it, and eventually coming to hate it. It's a little crude, though, and please don't take it as reflective of my current opinions.