I see you watching the lurid horizon,
wondering of kismet's subterfuge;
seeing through the galim's illusion,
striving to reach jubilation's muse.
Let us go to the Elysian Fields,
and be one with the stars up above;
cast away your diffident shields,
and hear the mysteries of:
The eros come over jidaiokure,
the tophet gone until perpetuity,
the misery washed away with the crystal sand,
as hera and nirvana stand.
The cordiality come with recipience,
of the vigilance given towards you;
the sanguiness that is given,
when you show this vigilance too.
How forlorn we felt in the darkness prevailing,
frightened of what may come to be;
but never again shall we be so ailing,
now that we've ceased our secludity.
We're eachothers' salvation from endless days,
fighting the battles within;
We pull eachother from the flaming blaze,
bringing us new faith of the power in:
The eros come over jidaiokure,
the tophet gone until perpetuity;
the misery washed away with the crystal sand,
as hera and nirvana stand.
The cordiality come with recipience,
of the vigilance given towards you;
the sanguiness that is given,
when you show this vigilance too.
These are the waters of leer,
we need have no fear;
so long as we have coalescence,
and keep eachother near.
Commentary
One of my earliest surviving pieces. abab rhyme scheme, except for in the two stanza chorus that repeats twice, which uses an abcc defe scheme. No real pattern other than that. Actually, considering my mental maturity at the time that I wrote this, I'm pretty impressed with myself. The poem is a love poem, though not to anyone. It was just an emotion I felt strongly about, and I lamented the fact that I had no reason to ever express that emotion. At the time, all I seemed justified in writing were angst pieces, but, I wanted to prove I could do otherwise, and I wrote the poem for that reason alone.
The vocabulary I used in it wasn't only to be artistic, but largely to obscure that the poem was a love poem, simply because it was something I was very self-conscious about back then. I probably spent more time actually working on it than any other poem. I still rather accurately remember the feeling of intense embarrassment about anything love-related that I'd had instilled in me back then, though it seems so long ago. I specifically remember getting a letter from a girl that I never heard from again about 2 years before I wrote this piece. I hid it in my room. One of my brothers eventually told me they'd found the love letter in my room. I freaked out, which made them laugh a lot, saying, "You really have one in your room!?" Of course, the letter was nothing like that, but the event was enough to make me tear the letter into pieces, lightly soak them in water, then throw it in the trash, never to be seen. I was a very self-conscious child, I suppose. I think most probably are, whether they show it or not.
At any rate, I was recalling that event specifically when I wrote this piece, and "encoded" it. I felt the last stanza gave away it's meaning too much, but, couldn't come up with a way to encode it, and at the time, I really liked how clear the last stanza was. I'll admit, I can't fully respect this piece as a romantic work, because as the young author, I know it wasn't really driven by romantic feelings, so much as a want to prove that I could write about something other than angst. However, were it not for this piece, I might not even remember that I'd thought about love at all prior to 2000.