When I arrived this second time I found that Seeker had found herself here as well. She had with her another that appealed very well for the taste of mine eyes. My own heart told me to run because of the other's so obvious age. I had seen the one before many times when I had still lived by that of my own. At this realization I found that my mother, Care, had not been with me for a long time. I seemed to had run from her as I met with Sheep. I shook the thoughts from myself as I saw the fair face of the young girl. I remembered her name when her face was younger. the name she held then was that of Cute. I could see the name upon her face, but soon found the new name upon her was �Wonder?� ... I could tell as she went around the pond she seemed as lost as I once was. I did feel a pull that brought me near her, but to make certain that you understand I must explain that the pull to her was not ever the same as that pull I had to the light and the place Seeker once spoke of. Seeker had changed greatly from when first I knew her and she seemed attached to many others including myself and Sheep (most of all). She came to me and said, "I know, before, you knew that the eyes of my friend were on you, but you must now know that her eyes have never left you!" The news to me seemed great and in the time I gave into that pull to her as I suppressed my heart's feelings from the start. Our knowledge of each other grew fast. We felt by sight and all appearance were the only ones for each other. We fell to unspoken actions and came as close to the pit of our definition of Adultery. My mind had been lost in the wind of Lust, for to me that was all she was at the time. All had been lost to me until we stumbled upon a path together. Love, I thought I had, until this moment when I stepped on the path. Lust told me of a voice she had heard in the wind. She told me she wished to find it and shortly after, I could only but follow. The voice was of a man and carried by a woman called wind. We followed the sound (at this time we could not understand the words). The sound of the Voice was what led us to the path; and as I stepped upon it I could not help but to understand the truth of myself. As I stepped upon this path the feeling of hurt overwhelmed me so much that my pack grew ten times its original size and I was thrown to the ground by it. I could not move as the voice I had heard grew closer, but now I could understand each and every word. Every one of the words pinned needles into my pack (which had grown much attached to myself in the time I had been with Lust) The pain of needles was numbing and I could stand it no longer. Still, I could not shake off the words that only kept coming. I noticed as I was in this state I was alone and there was no one to help me. I called for Lust and she called back. It seemed she may have been in that state although I was not entirely sure of the fact. I found myself crawling back to the edge of the road and after I finally reached it; my pack grew back to its original size from before the step. I found Lust only a few feet away and went to her. She seemed fine and with not many worries, but still my heart had told me to stop that we had to stop the lifestyle that we had started. I learned this by the words I had listened to from the road. She agreed and we moved on back to the pond we knew as home. When we returned I felt different than I had before. I could tell that there was something new inside of me that I never had before. My heart actually tugged to go back to the path. I still had not changed much of my life and felt huge amounts of burdens when I did the things I was not supposed to do. I knew not what to do and was lost again, because I wished to stay with Lust. I knew that I could not do that at the present time, but the separation I brought on was not enough. I ended up really losing her by her mother Sarcastic. She had come to the pond more often than any other parent; and I knew her more than other parent. She physically threw me away from Lust and told me to go another way. She told me at my age I had no right to live as I was and that I had to change. I then decided that I could go along with the feeling I had been having about the path. I was much afraid of the path and on my way back finding the path I ran into only one person. His name was Depression and his intrusion came with no greeting. He came with full force upon me as an owl falls to grasp its prey. That impact sent my mind askew as I forgot my destination as well as myself. I only lay still as Depression beat me over and over never ending. The agony sent me into a recess of my mind to hide from my pains. There is where I first saw the Man. I had placed myself in a huge home furnished with all that I felt I would and could ever need including Cute, who through my eyes had become Lust, a box of false hopes, and all the magic to rid the evil away. I had sat upon my throne and was feeling as if I was on the top of the world. (Now, of course, this is my unconscious mind that is lost in its earthy desires for outside of my mind; my body was taking a disgusting beating from Depression. Me being so lost I felt not a thing.) I looked around at all of my things and smiled to myself. I thought of how great I was and how powerful I was becoming. Then, suddenly, a bright white light appeared in the darkest corner of that room of my mind, giving sight to the most powerful being I had ever seen. I looked up at him from my throne as he turned from me. I was confused, but I said not a word. The Man was walking towards what looked like a cross. Actually it was my cross. I had it there a very long time and never understood its purpose, but this Man seemed to have an idea. He walked until He was directly in front of the cross and turned back to me. His eyes shown like fire and he spoke, "Take up your hammer and nails and do what must be done!" I was terrified, but somehow I knew exactly what he wished. I slowly took hold of the hammer I had on my belt and found three long nails in my pocket. The man spoke His name to me and asked me a question. "Young one, I am Salvation! Will you accept me. I looked to Him and was stopped in my tracks. I centered my gaze to His and said, "Yes, my Lord! Take me!" I knew not what happened then because I had fallen flat on my face. I forced my head up enough to catch a glimpse of the man staked to the cross with the nails in his hands and feet. I knew he was still there though because I could feel His intense power. But, I could not see at all for the power was too intense. I now felt as if my body was crowding up and ..."Oh, Joy!", I cried as I realized what was now occurring. A battle had been fought and Salvation had won inside of me. The one who was there before was gone as well as the things I had in the building. Matter of fact, the building was gone as well. There was only four things left; The Man Salvation, the Throne, the Cross, and Myself. I finally awoke and found myself on a path. It hit me that the battle fought inside of me had dramatic effects on my physical self as well. As lost as I had been before, I found that accepting Salvation and giving Him the throne to my desires; I had gained access to the path I had been searching for. In my excitement I realized that I had renewed energy and guessed, as I searched myself, that it was because the pack that I had carried before was gone. My joy overcame me as I praised my Lord in Dance.
