| :[mood]:  contemplative
Yes, since i'm in college, I have done a lot of thinking. Thinking of everything since I have a lot of alone time in my dorm room. So today I am thinking about how college has changed me. And with this I know I can write a book. Well, for me, college has been the major change in my life. You think you know me? You have no idea how college has changed me. I guess when you see me on the outside, I look a bit the same but in the inside i'm completely different. I mean hello for one thing i'm writing this stinking journal. Old Amanda would never do this...maybe old Amanda is still there and i'll stop this journal thing soon because i'm crazy.
See college has made me crazy, too. People underestimate how much college has an effect on a person. I completely do not regret going out here to Boston. I mean come on! Amanda out in Boston??? You'd be surprised. I'm surprised. hahaha. I shouldn't talk too soon because my freshman year is not over yet or will even be completed. But we'll save that for another time. Hey my GPA (or QPA) is waaaaaay higher than in high school, i'll admit that. Okay not way higher...nevermind i'd say yes higher. And these courses are dern hard! Harder than high school. On some days i'm even in school longer than when I was in high school. Am I supposed to reflect on this? Freck. I hear a voice saying 'I told you so' somewhere in the distance. Of course i'm still Amanda. Just another phase in my life that I thought never existed. |
| | 9:22 pm - |
| :[mood]:  arf
In a somewhat peaceful mood right now. Haven't been like this in awhile. Good remedy for being exhausted & tired? Blue by Third Eye Blind. I am at peace. hahaha. What da freck am I talking about? See? Stinking daylight savings time threw me off balance. Whatevahs so I did a little of my photography today. There's a really nice park behind my dorm (or in front) and I took 2 rolls of the park. There was this cute little duck with a green head and he got scared of me every time I tried to take his picture. Like my camera was a bullet or something? Whoa, whoa, whoa calm down there duck!
So I was in my own little world when this ghetto dude (haha ghetto dude) said hi to me. Or more like 'how're you doing?' It was nice because it wasn't as if he was hitting on me or was like 'can i get your phone number!' He was just being...nice. Made me happy. |
| | 4:05 pm - |
| :[mood]: 
I have a page on Asian Avenue which is basically like a whole web community consiting of asians. Anywayz when i'm bored I like looking through people's sites and stealing their pictures. ;) Okay one thing i've noticed about the male, asian, from hawaii, population is that they are are *obsessed* with cars and racing! I mean come on! It's like 99.9% of every page I open has some dude talking about his "ride" and freck stuff like that. Well, I think I should be able to complain about this because guys complain about girls shopping too much. What about guys and their cars!!!! |
| | 2:18 pm - |
| :[mood]:  argh
I am not directing this at one particular guy but more to *all* guys. I'm sure there is one flaw that all people can agree that men have. They are just too dern persistant! Stop being so persitant! And come on this applies to all guys. All guys are the same when it comes to this. It's like its in them. It's embedded deep into their blueprint.
And my advice for people (well, mostly girls) is do whatever makes YOU happy. Today i've had a lot of my girl friends telling me all about their problems with guys!!!! Guys suck right at this moment. I'm bitter. You think you want to get in a relationship with me? Think again! After listening to my friends...freck guys! For now it seems like their negative points surpass their positive points. Well, this is just my two cents for today. |
| | 9:22 pm - |
Wednesday, April 03, 2002 |
| :[mood]: eH
For some reason I just could not get up today! I just could not for the life of me get up. I slept for so long. Hectic day with my class schedule and I have a feeling it will still be hectic throughout this week. Agh!
Okay highlight for today. Guess who said hi to me? Okay well since I was all hectic because I was late for a meeting, my mind was just like wooooooo. I saw my friend on the way. Said hi and stuff and she walked with me. Oh my gosh. I saw Ryan at a distance (my stinking friend that I was walking with just had a class with him) and when Ryan came closer I said; "Hey." And he said; "Amanda." hehehe. Okay it doesn't sound that great. hahaha. Fridge. He said hi to me and not to my friend...right Pei-I??? He did not say hi to you. Dat's right! | | | 7:14 pm - |
| :[mood]: nOt As CrAzY aS bEfOrE
Oh my. This day was competely tiring. I tend to tie little situations to the big picture in my life. That doesn't help because it bums me out more. Nothing ever goes your way, even the simplest thing, and I just don't know how to handle it. Well, good thing I took a long hot shower or I would totally be crazy writing this right now.
Whatver the future holds, who knows? *groan* Okay enough of this. Making me tired. How about I just talk about the surprising highlight of my day. Freck Christina! My wish and that message thing did not work. That proves that those superstitous chain things do not work.
Anyway getting back to my one highlight today (but could also be looked at as making me miserable) involved my favorite guy. Freck! Okay. hehehe. I was somewhat late for class and it did not help that I walked the opposite direction of where my class was located. That's what I get for going to a small high school!
So I was about 5 minutes late and when you're this late, teachers get really mad. And plus this was my first day for this class. The door was open and the teacher was talking. I walked in the door and all eyes were on me. There was like 20 people in there and I was like 'oops!' Freckas crowded room and there was only one seat next to my friend. Ha Pei-I! Anywayz I squeezed my way towards the back and OH MY GOSH. Guess who I passed???? Ryan! Yes, the guy I really like! And you know I was just planning to quietly go to my seat and not disrupt the class and as I came towards Ryan he said like pretty loudly; "Hi Amanda."
What da freck????? My friend was shocked that Ryan said hi to me. I was, too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So it was Ryan, his friend, than me sitting next to him. I can't believe he said hi to me. That's just freckin crazy! I mean the teacher was up there talking and Ryan, out of all people, said hi to me. Oh my gosh I just do not believe that! You don't understand how much a simple gesture like that meant so much to me. And plus coming from Ryan. Ryan!!!!!!!!
Oh well. At least I get to see him once a week. :\ | | | 11:41 pm - |
| Fricas. I hate this xanga whatever place. I originally wanted to be on livejournal.com but you need a password and I heard it's down a lot. Well, the only thing I actually really liked about it was the layout. Freck I can make my own layout! I'm good at that. And plus stinking xanga doesn't show my cute little mood images. :( Okay look for my new web journal coming soon! | | | 9:24 pm - |
| :[mood]:  eh!?
My horoscope for today: You can find that you're more compatible with one who seems dramatically different from you than with one with whom you share much.
Oh my gosh!!!!!! Okay I am going to apply this to Ryan! Fridge. I told a couple of my friends about him. Okay who can agree with me on this??? Okay this guy is, as I said, completely different from me and I really like him! And today was my first day of classes and Ryan is not in any of my classes. As opposed to last quarter where he was in every single one of my classes...what does this mean??? Oooh and I think I can actually apply this to somebody else but i'll hold out on that. Oh come on tell me this applies to Ryan...hmm...or is it somebody else I don't know about...anyone out there think it's you? Freck. I like Ryan! | | | 11:55 am - |
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