November 06, 2001I'm so sick of being pregnant! I want this baby in my arms now! Gesh, all I'm getting is cramping which doesn't lead to anything besides discomfort. I went to see my social worker today...got a lot of fears off my chest...she's a great lady she helped me out when I was having a hard time after my sister had past away. I was only young so I didn't really understand death. Anyway, I go for my doctors appointment tomorrow. I hope something happened! I don't think you will dilate if you didn't lose your plug...I'm not sure, I believe that's right though. Ali lost hers! Lucky duck...=) and she dilated 2cm! I'm very happy for her. I'm still looking for a place to live...ugh! I'm always running into a wall everytime I find a place. There's a mini home for rent it's huge and God knows they probably want a fortune for rent and with this baby coming I won't be able to afford it. I would stay here but I think I already explained that there was no room in this house. Me and Jamie can't even get a bigger bed because there's no room so we have a twin sized bed...it's crazy. Well I'm extremly tired I've been running about all day and this rainy weather don't help either, but I'm off to bed I have to wake up early tomorrow and drive an hour and a half to my doctors appointment. =( I'll probably write soon again about my appointment...I'll try to get it done tomorrow after I get home if I'm feeling well. HUGS

November 10, 2001I'm bored stiff! I shouldn't complain though, I did do a lot today. My old friends that I used to hang around with in high school were home for the long weekend. (Angela, Jodi, and Candace) Angela and Jodi came here last night for a visit. It was Jodi's first time seeing me pregnant. lol So anyway, I showed them the crib and all the stuff I got at the baby shower. Jodi told me if she didn't get out of the room she would want a baby. They stayed for a few minutes then left to party. Not much since of me going I would just feel uncomfortable not being able to drink. Then today Candace called me and asked me to go out to see her, because she had no way of coming out to see me. So me and Jamie got ready to go in to her house to visit for awhile. It was great just sitting down chatting with her. I had just being able to chat on the phone so it was a pretty good day for me. Jamie was a bit uncomfortable because he's not used to my friends. The reason being is that he never liked them before because I would hang around with them all the time. But that was his problem! I hung around with him and his idiot friends. And they are idiots, probably because they are all related to me. lol Shoot, I didn't even get a chance to write about my appointment with my doctor. Ok...the baby's heart beat was 136bpm...I think that was the lowest it ever was. My blood pressure was good...can't remember what it was though and I was 40cm...my dr. said that the baby really has no more room to grow. lol He also checked to see if I dilated...but nope I haven't dilated yet. =( Damn! lol So, he told me that he'd see me next week but doesn't think I'll last to see him the next. So he thinks I will go before then! Yippie! I sure hope so. My hip has been acting up again and I find my legs are hard to move around. So I'm here walking like I have something shoved you know where. lol My poor stretch marks are getting thicker...poor ol' belly. It's marked up some bad. But hey that's life I'm not worried about it. I just got the chance today to wrap some Christmas gifts today. lol I know it's still early November but it's only 6 more weeks and it will be here and I know how fast time can go. I have everybody bought for well not fully. I still need to pick up some more stuff for the baby. I would like to pick up some outfits but that's kinda hard to do where I don't know the sex of the baby...so I'm delayed there. I got to pick up a few more things for Jamie...just little things...and then I'm done! And I won't have to worry about it until next year! OoO I love giving gifts...I like receiving them too, but giving is way better! lol Anyway, I have to go get something in my belly so I can take my vitiamn. Well ta-ta! Hugs

November 12, 2001Updated the site!How long will it stay like this?...hmm...probably not long. I'm just so bored. I'm waiting for this baby to decide when it's going to come out. So today I spent my time making this webset which probably isn't going to last long. Whenever I change my site around it seems like nobody likes it. =( OoO well I'm just going to try this change for awhile until I get sick of it. Well I have an appointment to see my social worker again tomorrow. I have to put my name in at the housing place so I will have a place to live, because I'm not doing to good with looking myself. Jamie will soon start a new job until then we are living off of what we saved up. I've been having a lot of contractions lately...I hope this little fella is ready to come out...hehe...I hope it's a boy too...but it really doesn't matter what the sex is, it will be loved just the same. I just got new pictures of my niece and nephew..their school pics, I'll try to get those scanned sometime soon. They have to be the most cutiest looking kids. Well I have to get going this child has the hiccups...and ya know how uncomfortable that can be sitting down. I'll try to update on wednesday after my doctors appointment! Hugs!

November 15, 2001 UGH! That's all I can say! I'm so disappointed. I went for my check-up wednesday. And man was it ever a trip! We had a snow storm the night before we left and the roads were pretty bad...just the center line bare. Anyways, so that made the trip a whole lot longer, because we had to take our time getting there. So I was on time for my doctors app., usually I'm alittle late, but it didn't matter anyway because he was in delivery. So I waited for awhile in the sitting room and flipped through a mag they had there and I was just getting interested in it and I was called in...damn...it happens everytime! lol So she checked my urine and I still have a trace of protein, my blood pressure was up higher than it ever was. Once she checked it she was like how would November 14 sound like to have a baby. I was like it would be great...I was so hoping that something was up. She checked my weight and I only gained a pound. And then she asked me if I had any pains lately. And that morning I had really bad cramping I could hardly walk and once I was in the shower I didn't think I would be able to pick the soap off the tub floor after I dropped it. She was getting all excited...and making me excited. So anyway she told me to undress halfway down for the exam and to wait for the doctor. So anyway I'm sitting on the table and I can hear her talking to my doctor and I'm hoping that they are going to keep me in. So anyway the doctor comes in and we do our usual chat and then he checks the heart beat and it was 133bpm and I was 41cm...he say's it's going to be a big baby...just my luck s/he'll be too big and I won't be able to deliver. Anyway he did the exam and he said I don't know why you're not in labour...your cervix is ripe and thinning. And I'm like OoO please keep me in. And he helped me sit up and and he said that we needed to talk and I was hoping he was going to tell me that I had to stay but he said that if I had any contractions to come back to the hospital and we'll make an app just incase you need it for Wednesday...I know I could've cried. So anyway here I am still with cramps and nothing interesting to tell...besides that I'm 5 days away from my due date. lol Well I got to get going my fav show is on...Surivior! lol Lata. HUGS

November 16, 2001 I got some GREAT news! I lost my plug! Yippie! Last night I was having bh contractions and the baby was really pushing on lower part, but I had that happen before so I didn't think anything would come of it. But I woke up around 6am, my usual time to get up and use the bathroom. lol And there it was...and I was so happy and scared at the same time. Good thing Jamie woke up when I went to the bathroom because I would've woke him up anyway. He is really excited! Everyday since my appointment with my doctor he asks me if I'm going to have the baby today. It too cute. He's going to be a great daddy. The health nurse let me borrow a video of birthing and that got me all nervous. But I have to realize that every birth is different and I shouldn't always think of the worst, but just prepare myself for it. Well this is short because I feel like running around the house trying to convince this baby to come. lol Hugs!

November 20, 2001 Still no baby here. Appointment tomorrow though. My mother called the doctor today to tell him that I lost my mucus plug. Why she did I dunno...but anyway he wants me to bring my bag with me when I go just incase he wants to keep me up there. Hopefully he does because I'm just too tired for this anymore. I have a hard time sitting down because the baby must be pushing on a nerve that goes to my leg, because I'll get these sharp pains in my leg. I can hardly walk ugh...I'll never get pregnant again for A LONG time. I know this baby isn't coming anytime soon because s/he won't stop kicking me...it's been pretty much non-stop all day. Right now I'm talking to my friend Erin and she's all excited, hoping that my doc is going to keep me. And I'm sitting here all nervous as hell. They'll check my blood pressure tomorrow and it will be sky high then they'll have to keep me. Ugh...I'm getting cramps again. I hate this stuff...I was cramp free for about 9 months or so and having them again is different. I could be in labour and not know it. lol I have no idea what real contractions feel like...I'll end up having my baby on the side of the road or in the bathroom. lol OoO my...well I better get into the shower and get to bed because I have to wake up extremly early tomorrow morning because my appointment is at 8:50am and I'm an hour and 20 minutes away. Wish me luck guys! Hugs!