September 7, 2001 Today was a weird and unusual day. My mother was completely drunk last night...which I don't mind...I like seeing her have a good time. She kinda had a bad hangover today thou. lol Anyway, Jamie got his check today and we gave my mother some money for letting us stay here...well actually it's just that we are so used to paying rent before we just thought it would be right to help her out. She does a lot for us. She helped us move four times! lol So she was always there for us and still is. I just watched the movie Hannibal...well it wasn't what I thought it would be...I wasn't even interested in it at all...I think Silence Of The Lambs is WAY better in my opinon. I won't talk about the movie just incase someone didn't see it yet. I also have the movie here called Exit Wound...I never watched it yet. I heard it was an ok movie. Gesh don't seem like Jamie is going to watch it...he fell sleep...ahh well. Anyway my mother set up a date for my baby shower...YAY! I'm really shy so that should be cute! She inivited so many people and I hate crowds. Anyway it's not till the end of the month...I'm giving my mother my camera so she can take some pictures. I only took one picture so far from my new camera! lol Jamie gave it to me really early...actually when it came in from Sears he gave it to me, he didn't want to make me wait. lol Awww he's a sweety. Anyway there isn't much more to type so I'm signing off. *^*Hugz*^*

September 09, 2001 God I just weighed myself and I weigh 164 pounds!!!!!!! UGH! I didn't think that I gained that much....I know I'm huge and everything but WOW! My docter was already telling me to watch my weight because of my hip bothering me. He said that if I gain too much weight I might have to be put on bed rest because my hips can handle the weight. I know that for sure...I can hardly move now my hips are so sore. If I move the wrong way or if I get up too fast my hip will give out on me, and my doctor is scared that maybe I'll fall. I gained 8 pounds in two weeks and that is just bad...I eat too much and I know that...and I don't exercise that often because now it's just too hard. I just hope I can lose all the weight afterwards. I was in to Jamie's mothers today and she said that she weighed 200 pounds when she was pregnant for Jamie...and he weighed 9 pounds when he was born! YIKES! I hope our baby isn't that big...gesh if it is I hope they take it by C-Section...I don't think I would be able to push out a baby that size. lol Today was extremly HOT! It was the hottest day of the summer and it still didn't really cool down much yet. Blah! Mom, Jamie and I went to visit my Aunt Lil today after lunch and they never met Jamie before anyways...she told me I should go up and show him all the birds. Just incase you are wondering my Aunt Lil and Uncle Don have hens, chickens and other ones just can't be bothered to type them all. ANyways...I could have kicked my mother in the a$$ but she was sitting on it. lol It was way to hot to go up and look at birds and I don't think Jamie would be very interested in birds. Well since I thought I could get away from my Aunts raving on I decided I would take him up with Uncle Don. Then mom said she wouldn't mind going up she hadn't been up there in awhile. So uncle Don told my aunt that there wasn't much sense staying in the house by herself while we went up and told her to come along. Well that was just great...I still had to listen to her rave. We got up there and there must be about 50 to 100 birds up there and he had to name off each one and made sure we saw them all...I was really warm, uncomfortable and sweating like a pig. Sweat was just pouring off my face, butt, and stomach. lol So anyway finally the tour ended and I thought we would be going home...or so I hoped! Then my mother had to stop by the flowers that they had planted and she had to get some bulbs off of it. She had the bulbs in her hand and still we weren't leaving. Uncle Don went into the house and got these little baggy's to put them in and he had to lable each and every bag...that took about 10 to 15 minutes and the whole time they were doing that I was standing there sweating to death and dying for a breath of cold air. Anwyays we were finally off after I got pissed of waiting and slammed the car door as hard as I could to show my anger. They mummbled something...what I don't know I didn't care what they thought of me at that moment. Anways once she got into the car I told her the next time she wants to look at birds, to take me home first. And then she finally clued in and said she was sorry just that sometimes she forgets that I'm pregnant...I feel like telling her "how can you forget just look at me!". Anyways beside that my day was pretty plain. I will have pictures scanned tomorrow...I have some pics of friends that are a year old but I don't live around them no more the are all off to school and stuff. Most of them are graduation pics. I need to get a nice cold glass of water because I'm sitting dry here. lol *^*HUGZ*^*

September 12, 2001 Let me first start off this entry with condolence to the United States. What a tradgey. My prayers are with those families that lost love ones. Well surprise! I didn't think this would happen but I'm already being called a fake...gesh...I just got my camera...do you want me to go photo crazy and waste a whole film on nothing. Gesh people I dunno about you put I don't have the money to go out and buy film and get it developed all the time. I do have other things that come before that. I know it doesn't cost much and just to please some a$$holes I will spend my day taking photos just to please your a$$! God I'm pretty much sick of people over the net! They call you fake and they don't even know you they just go by what they think. Well you can all kiss my a$$ the ones who think I'm a fake I'll prove you wrong. And this person left a remark in my guestbook and it's still there if you would like to read it...it hurt my feelings at first but I'm not gonna let that stop me from making this website...plus they were rude. Anyways I'll get to the point. They say that me and Jamie look 12 or 13...well thank you...maybe I'll look 20 when I'm 40 and you'll look 60 when you're 40. Gesh I did graduated from high school...you can check out my old high school webpage if you like (CHS) You'll find me in the Alumni E-mail...WHERE THE GRADUATES ARE! That will prove you the hell wrong! And that website is controled by the school so I had no way of putting my name there...and I should be in the 2000. And Jamie is 22...I can't prove that to you 'cause I'm not gonna scan his lisenses...so you'll just have to believe me I guess. OoO yeah...and I don't talk about anything interesting...well stay the f*ck outta my journal...or maybe from the whole page which won't be hard 'cause you think it sucks anyway! I can't help it if my fiance isn't leaving me to handle this myself...I'm sorry that I'm not getting harassed by people...I'm sorry that I'm not getting kicked outta my house...I'm sorry that my pregnancy is going great!...I'm sorry that I have better things to do than take pictures all the time...I'm sorry that we look young...I'm sorry for not being that great with html!...and I'm sorry for being so damn BORING! Hugs to those who gives respect to people on the net.

September 14, 2001 Well I fixed everything with this layout...I think. =/ I'm not to fond of it though still...I have more work to do but I've been working on it almost all day! And I'm just pretty much sick of friggin' with it. There's a lot added to it. Such as reads and other stuff that you can check out. Most of them are old forwards I kept and just thought that you might like to read them. Well I took pictures of my belly...I have 12 pictures left of my film so I got the weekend to go snap crazy and piss people off. Like I'm always good at doing. I've took the time today to help my mother with the planning of the baby shower...yay! What fun! I'm not a people person so this should be interesting. My mother invited half the town. So anyway we wrapped gifts for the games. We have 4 boobie prizes and what they are is Bust-Tea...it's just for a joke. The box goes on about how if you drink the tea your breast will get bigger. I thought it would be a good "boobie" prize if you know what I mean. lol I just found out this week that a girl that goes to my old High School is pregnant and she's only 16. I can't really get into the story because I'm getting second or third hand information from my brother when he comes home from school. But anyway she doesn't really know who the father is because she was with another guy besides her boyfriend. So it's all crazy. I guess she is loving the attention people are giving her. Isn't that just WACKED! I'd like to smack her...anyways...the journal will no longer be updated...I'll just put what ever here...but I'll leave it up just incase I do decided to go back to it. Anyways my fingers are getting cramped. lol So I'm signing off. Hugz

September 23, 01Ok, my mother scared the shit outta me today. I was just watching the news...well I had no choice it came while I was watching a show on CBS. UGH! But anyways, my mother came up to me and told me to stand up and I was like...huh? What for? And she said "Just do it" With a big ol' smile on her face. She kinda scared me so I got up and asked what? And she was looking at my belly walking all around me and she said "It looks like I shouldn't go around with almost empty gas tank in the car anymore." And I asked her "Why?" And she told me it looked like the baby dropped. But it couldn't have dropped yet...atleast I hope not...it's too soon. I'm not due until Nov. 20th. So anyway...I sat back down in the chair and rubbed my belly and told the baby not to come too soon. lol I talk to my belly all the time know. Jamie is really shy and he hasn't talked to my belly yet. =( Well he will kiss my belly and tell the baby he loves him/her. And that is the cutest thing. Then I look at him after he brings his head up and he has tears in his eyes. He's a real softy. =) My baby shower is now moved to the 28 of this month it was the 29, but someone already had it booked. And the only way they found out that they doubled booked it was when someone called to see if someone would be there to run the bar for the aniversity party. So there would've been the aniversity party and a baby shower all at once. That would've been some party. lol But thank God that, that didn't happen. So we had to call everybody and tell them that the date was changed...my mother did a lot of cursing that day. lol OoO but she knows I love her. lol The baby had a bad case of hiccups today. He/she gets them always first thing in the morning after I eat breakfast. I'll be sitting down watching t.v and they'll start. lol It makes me really uncomfortable. I move around and sometimes I can't stand sitting when that happens so I have to walk around and then they usually stop after awhile. I also weighed myself today. That scale is my worst friend! But it's healthly for a teenager mother to gain 45 pounds so my doctor says anyway. I now weigh 168, so I'm pretty close to gaining 45 pounds. It doesn't bother me that I'm gaining this much weight because I'm pregnant and that's normal. If I didn't gain any weight I would be scared to death. I hate it when I tell someone how much I weigh and they're like you don't excerise so that's why. I feel like telling them that you aren't around me you don't know what I do and don't so keep your mouth shut. I feel like b*tchin' them out but I don't bother I know better know. They don't. They don't realize what it's like to wake up in the morning with hip and back pains. I still can't get into a comfortable sleeping position. =( I do excerise...just to make my point clear. I can't go out and run a mile...but I do pretnal exercises and I do go for walks when my hip isn't killing me. It gave out on me a couple of times and I had to catch myself before I crumbled to the floor. Well today was a really good day...even though I'm all by myself now, because my mother is gone to darts, Lou is gone to friends and Kirk never comes out of his room and Jamie is laying here asleep. So you could say I was home alone. =( Anyways...I'm hungry so I'm gonna go get something, probably something weird to eat. lol Hugs

September 23, 2001I decided to change the colors to the layout. I found the other colors just didn't go with the site. I just joined a club last night Teen Moms United. It's a great place with lots of friendly people. I don't have the url on hand put you can find the site in the Belly Kicks Top 10. Well today was pretty ugly...it rained most of the day. We needed the rain badly but I just don't like whether like that. My mood changes when the whether is like that. Anyways, nothing interesting to type here, but I did have false contractions...or so I think. I guess you can call that interesting. I'm no pro at pregnancy so I don't know what contractions feel like. It was sharp pains in the abdomen. My mother told me not to worry about it. But then I got them again the next night. So I figured it might have been from sitting in this uncomfortable chair chatting on the computer for a long period of time. So I stayed away from the computer for awhile. I do have lots of things to add to the site...mostly reads and more about me and Jamie. I have to steal a few of his mothers pictures so I can get their pics up here too. Ahh...but that won't be until later...I want to get the colors changed on all of the pages. If I don't get it all done I'll get Jamie to finish. Since we are both supposed to be doing the website together. But he says I'm better at it than he is...so I don't mind. I'll be soon going to see my doctor again...actually this Wednesday...I can't wait! I know that might sound weird...well not actually but to some people think it is. But my doctor is such a great guy. Loves to joke around and that's probably why I feel so comfortable around him. Well I better get that stuff done. *^*Hugs*^*

September 26, 2001 Hey, just got back from my long trip to the doctor. I wish I didn't have to travel so d*mn far for appointments. The baby didn't like being in the car neither and was taking it out on me in the mall. It would kick so hard that I would have to stop dead in my tracks because it heard taht much. The doctor says it's strong...he didn't even have to tell me...I know that for a fact. Well lets see what happened at the doctors office. I weigh 164 pounds, my blood pressure is 120/70...PERFECT! =) The baby's heartbeat is 142 bpm. Slower than usual...but he said nothing about it and the baby is head down! YAY! He said where my due date according to the ultrasound was only a week apart not much sense in changing it. But he said I might go a few days early...that's ok with me! =) Well I'm in a happy mood and the weather is sh*tty...that's different. Anyways, I HAVE A BELLY PIC UP! Thank u, thank u...lol I seen this real cheap (sh*tty lol) digital camera that was going for 60 bucks...and I was d*mn...gimme that! So I got it and took a pic of my belly...so you don't have to wait until I get my film done and developed...but as you know they aren't that good of quality...which sucks, but hey....I'll have the good ones up soon, so don't sweat. The one I have now don't show my face but the other ones do...I couldn't find anything long enough to click the mouse button from that distance. lol If you don't think it's me just look at the shirt that I'm wearing in the other ones (Me, Jamie & Family). I took some pics of me and Jamie with the cam...just fooling around. It works with netmeeting so I'll be on there for awhile. I find only that people will only talk to ya if you have a cam...and most of the people on there are sick - O's anyway. Gesh what is the world coming to. Sex and guns...yup that's it. lol It's my B-Day tomorrow! YAY! I'll be 19! Whoopie Sh!t...lol. I can't even go partyin'...which sucks...but I won't be doing much of that anyway once the baby comes. I did without liqour for 8 months it's not gonna kill me...yes I drank...who the hell hasn't. Well some I suppose but before I needed to drink every weekend or WATCH OUT! Ahh enough about that...well anyways...the pics are there so check them out. *^*Hugs*^*