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Oct. 5 Today my life began. My parents do not know yet, I am as small as the seed of an apple; but it is *I* already, and I am to be a girl. I shall have blonde hair and blue eyes. Just about everything is settled though, even the fact that I shall love flowers.
Oct. 19 Some say that I am not a real person yet, that only my Mother exists; but I AM a real person. Just as a small crumb of bread is yet truly bread. My Mother IS... I AM.
Oct. 23 My mouth is just beginning to open now. Just think, in a year or so, I shall be laughing, and later, talking. I know what my first word will be: MAMA!
Oct. 25 My heart began to beat today, all by itself. From now on, it shall beat gently for the rest of my life, without ever stopping to rest! After many years, it will tire, it will stop, and then I shall die.
Nov. 2 I am growing a bit every day. My arms and legs are beginning to take shape; but I will have to wait a long time before those little legs will raise me to my Mother's arms, before those little arms will be able to gather flowers and embrace my Father.
Nov. 12 Tiny fingers are beginning to form on my hands. Funny how small they are! I'll be able to stroke my Mother's hair with them.
Nov. 20 It wasn't until today that the doctor told Mom that I am living under her heart. Oh, how happy she must be! Are you happy, Mom?
Nov. 25 My Mom and Dad are probably thinking about a name for me; but they don't even know that I am a little girl. I want to be called Kathi. I am getting so big already.
Dec. 10 My hair is growing. It is dark around me. When Mom brings me into the world, it will be full of sunshine and flowers; but I want more than anything else to see my Mom. What do you look like Mom?
Dec. 24 I wonder if Mom hears the whispering of my heart? Some children come into the world a little sick; but my heart is strong and healthy. It beats so evenly; tup-tup, tup-tup. You'll have a healthy little daughter, Mom!
Dec. 28 Today my Mother killed me.
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