My Experience of Christ - New believer's testimony
Did you ever feel alone or unloved? Did you ever feel that you needed someone to love you or comfort you? I just have to share this true experience to you. My life was really a wreck, not in the way that I was an orphan or that I had to go beg in the streets for food. But it was a wreck because I felt that there is no goodness anymore. My experience might not have been the most exciting or classic, but it is an experience that changed my life. What is my experience? Well, my experience is experiencing Christ!
I really don't know where to start. I knew that God did not forget or neglect me; that He came for me. The gospel was preached to me when I was eight years old. But of course, that time, I didn't think so much about it or believe it. All I really wanted to do was have fun in the world. As I grew older, many things contributed to my feelings of isloation, and I became more and more depressed. Ever since I had been in America (since 8 years old), I was introduced to Christianity many times, but I never followed the chance. I was busy with my life, and concentrated on what I had to do for myself. This was the way for a few years, but then, all that changed
I am an ice skater, and I spent a great deal of time training to become what I wanted to be. But an on-going injury terminated me from practice. I was unsure when it would be cured and how soon I could be back to practice. I stayed home a lot more and for the first time in many years, I felt a true pang of depression. I was struck down by it. But I could find no one who could help. By then, I felt like I was in a whole different world than anyone else. That desperate need for something, but I didn't know what. That feeling is very hard to describe and truly incomprehensible.
Then, out of my desperity, I found my Bible in my room. So I prayed to the Lord, "Oh God, whatever and wherever You are, just help me. I'm just this vulnerable person who needs Your warmth and love." I really didn't know what to expect or anything, I just kept on praying. One day, I just could not stand the depression, so I told my mom to call her long time friend, Sister Cai, a sister in San Jose to talk of my situation. After hearing it, she gave me several books on Bible studies and suggested me to go to the church in Fremont. I was doubtful at first, because going to a new place meant meeting new people. At the times I just wanted more than anything to dig a hole and hide there. But, I went.
How it happened, I do not know, but just being in the church life and worshipping Christ is wonderful. God gave me something special, and that is the Holy Spirit. He gave it to me, and it felt like a revival of me. Now it was magical, but not in the way that it was some sort of spell. It was magical because it happened over a period of time and changed me into a totally different person. If your wondering what is that "something," I think it is a spring that came after an extremely long winter.
After I was saved, well it was amazing. The Lord really has rejuvenated me. He led me through many tough situations and gave me strength to uplift His name. The change that took palce was not on the outside, but on the inside. A seed was planted in me, so now I pray to God that the seed would grow and grow. I thank the Lord for being there for me when I'm down and reminding me not to take pride in my self when I become boastful. He really gave me an inner confirmation of Christ, that no matter what, He's there for us. As for problems in the world, I have more and more. But with the assurance of Christ's salvation, I can just call upon the name of the Lord and pray to Him. Even though problems are still present after I am saved, I just thank the Lord that He would be there for me, and I would never have to walk alone ever again.
