What is he thinking
March 5th journal entry -
I cry a river... and so it goes. Just one of those days I wish I had stayed snuggled up in bed.
I thought this was going to be easy to write about. Guess not. I was wrong. It's just one of those things... I don't even know where to begin.
I wonder where I went wrong.
Aaron told me tonight he's going to ask Lisa to marry him.
I'm sick... I could throw-up.
What is he thinking? We will all be one little happy family? How can he possibly think that? After all I've been through the past two years because of that woman...
What is he thinking?
I wish for more days like this
March 7th 2004
I was pleasantly surprised today. Kevin actually gave me a big hug this morning and said something about things will be okay. First time in a long while he's shown me any affection what-so-ever.
He asked me to go out for breakfast... and he had me call a friend and see about having dinner with them. (same friend that does my manicures... and her hubby) It was a really nice day. Okay, so I cried first thing this morning but then I showered and we got on with life.
I am glad I spent the day with Kevin... we don't usually do anything like this. Sometimes I think there is hope...
Wedding Date is set
March 8th 2004
I talked to Aaron today. They set their wedding date for the same day as Andrea's birthday. How can he do that to me?
Now my thought on this is that Lisa is being very vindictive. I think she is out to hurt me any way she can because I still have what she wants. Most times I think.... take him. You want him... please take him. I feel like that less and less now days though. But I don't see how she can possibly be in love with Kevin just a few months back and now has a wedding date set to marry my son.
I'm not going.
I shouldn't have to deal with this...
April 27, 2004
I guess I'm getting over things. I've visited with Aaron a few times in the past week. Before this we hadn't even spoken once since he told me he was marrying her.
Her MIL - my aunt - is back in town. I haven't seen her but I heard she is not happy about the entire situation. Even though she's not happy she is going to the wedding... I wonder what makes people tick.
At least Kevin is being a companion to me now. I mean... he even talks more about the affair. Not that I want to hear about it. Why would I? Why should I? I don't have an answer........but I do want to know more. Not always. Sometimes I just want to know what they did. What they talked about. Where they had lunch. I want to know details... but don't tell me. I don't really want to know. Then again.............
I shouldn't have to deal with this.
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