Your
sweet caress hides your rotting soul.
To
love you or to hate you, it pains me so.
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02.09.24:
thinking...
Listening
to: Matchbox 20 - Back 2 Good
In
20 minutes, I'll be heading off to study. Right now, I'm just trying
to kill time.
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"Well
everyone here is thinking about someone else... better keep it under
our heads." Yeah, I notice this a whole lot with everyone, including
me. I guess it's the complications of life that can make us keep certain
thoughts to ourselves 'til the time's right, but then again, sometimes
the time'll never be right.
"Well
everyone here's to blame... shades of shame..." Society is so
messed up right now. Sometimes the crap in newspapers just kills me.
I don't need to cite stuff, hell we all know what goes on in the "real
world".
I
know these quotes aren't about what I just wrote about, but hey ^^;;
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Hey,
what do I actually think about? Hmm, I guess I think about the same
things everyone else does, deep stuff, shallow stuff, and of course,
nothing at all. I'm probably a 50% shallow thinker 50% deep thinker
and 100% non-thinker hehe doesn't make sense. It's complicated, you'd
get it if you're me @_@ good stuff bad stuff yeah, can't have too
much of one thing can I?
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Daaaaaamn,
I actually like going to school. Pretty much anything can happen,
since you can do anything. Oh no, "circular argument"! Ah,
look at the time. I'll upload this later...farewell my loyal fans!
XDDDDDDDDDDDDD
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02.09.11:
vent!
Listening
to: Audiovent - The Energy
Haven't
been updating... sorry, I'm in a weird state at the moment. But I'm
not slacking off, I'm coloring this big collab thingy my FA buds drew
up, and at the same time I'm making a website that's a shrine to a
currently non-existent RPG. hehe, well, it's gonna be a different
"branch" from the gallery, so it'll be "original",
"gift", etc...I actually forgot! sheesh at myself -_-; and
"the branch". Of course it's not called that, but for now,
it'll be called that.
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Another
reason why I haven't been updating recently is because I've been writing
a lot during my free time... in my journal, school notebooks, everywhere
actually. I've been writing about stuff that piss me off, stuff that
don't piss me off, lots of the usual things everyone else writes...
(I don't know why I write some things though, like this post) It's
a way for me to vent, like art is also. Frustrations, joys, blah blah
blah.
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I
need... more links! ... I suddenly got the urge to change this site's
look yet again. Make up your mind! ::slaps self::
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"It
just takes some time... everything will be just fine, everything will
be alright." Sometimes, we just can't avoid having bad hair days...
hehe damn, I did a Vegeta (spiked my hair) yesterday and it looked
weird. Good thing where I am weird's okay. I wanna have Sephiroth
hair XD woo!
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I
need... one of those brush pens that can't be found anywhere here
anymore. I had one before, but it wasn't refillable, and then... it
ran out of ink! Nooooooooooooooooooooooooo T_T Ah well, guess I'll
have to stick with real brushes. But they're a pain to use... I have
washing them.
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02.08.05:
green.
Listening
to: L'Arc~en~Ciel - Shinjitsu to gensou to
I
have this friend who has green hair. Well, not bright "slime"
green, it's kinda blue-green. All of a sudden I have the urge to dye
my hair like that... unless I find myself a pair of red glasses, then
I'll have a brighter color (white? XD dunno, whatever I feel like
having).
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I'd
have an easier time with everything if I was right-handed. Well, only
how I'll be holding a guitar would matter to me. ^_^; If I had one
customized (left-handed one) it'd cost me a life and a half, so it's
outta the question. Ah well, I'll stick to acoustic.
I
found some tabs for GuitarPro (mysongbook.com) of L'Arc songs, now
I wanna be a bassist like Tetsu XP Stay Away just rocks.
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PS
2, I want 1. Now that Suikoden III is out in Japan, I guess I can
wait a little longer and get myself a PS 2 when the english version
is out. I just love the Suikoden series. Me and my brother, we finished
Suiko I and II three times each, and we also got all the possible
endings, with all the secrets gotten too. Hehe. A little more and
I'll be wearing a green bandana. Or maybe I'll carve an X on my cheek
like Gremio, not Battousai ^_^;
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Mousey,
I just need to typestuff or else the muscles in my hands will atrophy...
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02.07.31:
the white world.
Listening
to: John Mayer - Back To You (Acoustic Live Version)
Haaaaaaaaaaa...
what? I was watching Ally McBeal last night and there was this line
that struck me. "Love is the only game you lose by refusing to
play." Wow, I'm not in love or anything but it's something to
keep in mind. I know how it feels when you miss something by not doing
anything about it. Am I afraid of something? Rejection, perhaps. Mostly
it's the fear of saying something stupid. So I'm thinkin', "blood
in my mouth beats blood on the ground", hey? Woo, Incubus. ^_^
Anyway, next time, I'll go shame myself and say something stupid.
This
time, I'll do what I keep on telling myself to do. -_-;
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I'm
kinda wishing that I took some pencilling lessons. I know nothing
about using charcoal pencils, and it's the medium I'm supposed to
use in class. It's like I'm adapting on the spot, discovering new
techniques as I work. It sucks, I can probably do better.
My
classmates are so good. They totally blow me away! Am I now limited
to computers? I hope not....
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I
wish I had a car. That way, I could go wherever I could go. I'm not
inspired by The Calling's song, mind you. I've always loved to wander
wherever, basically be anywhere besides where I always am (read: home).
I love staying home too, but it's different outside. So many things
can happen, it's like a big adventure XD Yeah man, let's go slay that
dragon!
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02.07.08:
Stupidity. My stupidity that is. ::hits self on the head with rusty
hammer::
Listening
to: Jamiroquai - Love Foolosophy (Mondo Grosso Love Acoustic Mix)
Shit,
I saved over the original freetalk html! I wrote so much already,
and poof, down the drain in less than a second. I feel like I revealed
my soul to the wall. Ah well, damn, I'm so careless. Anyway, it's
just the ramblings of a madman you don't even know, so...
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Hey
I just came back from watching [ Minority Report ]. A damn cool movie
if I may say so myself. The story's real nice too. As usual, Steven
Spielberg does his magic. The foreshadowing effect was quite well
used in the movie. Also, the computer effects were realistically done.
Go watch it, you'll get your money's worth.
My
mom says I can be one of those "precogs" or whatever they're
called, you know, the bald guys who predict crimes. I can't wait to
go swim in some pool somewhere, then I'd just let myself float and
maybe I'd be able to see the future. XP Anyway, it'd be quite a bad
trip if you were one of them... lying on a bed barely over a pool
of weird water all day, you can't do anything except predict crimes...
that'd suck, definitely. And not just that, you see murders when you
sleep. Everyday. Man, I'd go crazy if I was like that... or maybe
not. o_O Not a lot of things affect me much. You could say I learned
to be that way. Blame my parents? I don't, but I guess they had a
role in my apathy's growth.
But
I do care about stuff too, mind you. ^_^;
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I
still can't believe I "overwrote" my previous freetalk.
I spent half an hour earlier this morning just typing its content.
Man, I am such an airhead. If I was in a blimp I'd be right at home.
Or something, you get the picture. -_- I remember one thing I wrote
about, I guess I'll discuss that...
Something
that happened to me this morning showed me how a lot of people will
do anything for money. Anything, even things that might be considerably
lethal to themselves or others. Does money really make the world go
round? I guess not having money would make you quite miserable, and
I bet none of the world's rich would agree to have everyone's money
confiscated then distributed equally among everyone. It's too much
of a dream anyway. What if there was no money at all? We'd live by
trading services. Everyone would have to work though, but that's what
we want right? Teachers would teach your kids, the parents of these
kids would probably give food or something in return. Ah well. It'd
never happen.
Unless
we had those fancy machines that "materialized" everything
we needed/wanted like in Star Trek. Then we'd be a race of bums. A
win-lose situation? Some would say win-win...
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