Crying On The Inside Chapter 12
Michelle got out the shower and dried off. She dressed
casual for the night since she was only going to the
movies. She wanted no bad feelings between her and JC
and she wanted to make it work. Half an hour later he
was there to pick her up. They kissed when she got
into the car. They went to go see Daredevil-his
suggestion. It was good even though she wasn't really
into action movies. He held her hand the whole time
they were in the theater. When he dropped her off she
invited him in. He did seem like he changed and wasn't
going to pressure her for sex a lot so she thought it
was safe he came in. As soon as she sat down on the
couch next to him she realized her thoughts were
wrong. He kissed her first. Gently to start then he
tried to lay her down. 'Say something. Stop him,'
something said to her.
"JC wait," she said. He stopped and looked at her
with confusion. Her heart pounded so hard she thought
he might hear it.
"What?" he said softly.
"Maybe we should slow down," she said. He stared
at her a minute and then sat down.
"I understand," he said. She sensed another
argument and then quickly tried to explain.
"No JC I do love you I just want to-" she started
to quickly say before he yelled at her.
"No I understand that you want to wait," he said
looking at her. She looked at him confused.
"I know how you feel. You don't have to say it. I
just want you to know I won't try to rush you into
it," he said and held her hand. She was a little
shocked by this but let him continue.
"I do love you. With all my heart and when you do
decide you want to do it then tell me. Until then I
can wait." She felt tears in her eyes. It lifted a
whole burden off her shoulder. She hugged him and
smiled.
"I'm so glad you feel that way. I love you to,"
she said. He stood up.
"I've gotta go okay. I'll call you," he said
grabbing the sides of her face and kissing her gently
on the lips. She felt so much better now as she
watched him go. Now she wouldn't have so much pressure
on her. She was wrong again.
"Michelle you are hurting his feelings you know,"
Heather said in school the next day. They were in
class and it hadn't started yet.
"No I'm not. He said he would wait and I believe
him," Michelle told her. She made the mistake of
telling Heather what happened the night before.
"He's just saying that. He wants you to make up
your mind. Just do it and get it over with. You will
feel so much better," Heather said. Michelle sighed.
She was so tired of arguing. Class had started so
Heather had to stop yapping. There was no way she was
just going to just do it and get it over with. She was
going to wait and that was that.
"So you think it will work?" Joey asked JC when
they were in the locker room after school.
"She'll think about it for a little while and
then she'll give in," JC said so sure of himself.
Lance looked at the two of them in disgust. Tricking a
girl into having sex was nothing to brag about.
"So what's up with Philiana?" Joey asked.
"Nothin," JC said quietly.
"You know you don't have to keep hiding it from
us we know," Joey said elbowing him.
"I'm not hiding anything. I'm just trying to keep
things on the low so nothing leaks out," JC said
closing his locker.
"How long you gonna keep it going?" Lance asked.
"As long as I can," JC said.
"Just do it and get it over with," Brianna said
to Michelle on the phone that night.
"He said he would wait and I'm taking him on his
word," Michelle replied.
"What is the big deal about it? Heather and I did
it so just go ahead. It's no big deal. You are being
such a prude about it. You'll do it eventually so why
not sooner? Oh hold on" she said and clicked the
phone. She was getting annoyed now. She thought all
this pressure stuff was over.
"Well gotta go," she said getting back on the
phone. "That's Joey. See ya tommorrow."
"Bye," she said and hung up the phone. Maybe
Brianna and Heather were right. She should just get it
over with. Just as JC made her feel good about saying
he would wait, her friends made her feel bad about
being a prude. She was just so tired of it all and
thought about just going ahead and doing it. JC did
love her and she loved him. So why not? The phone rang
and she picked it up. It was JC.
"Hey beautiful," he said after she said hello.
"Hey handsome," she said smiling.
"I'm tired but just called to see how you were
doing before I went to bed," he said so sweetly it
made her heart melt.
"I'm fine. Thanks for asking," she said.
"Do you want to come over tommorrow. You don"t
have to if you don't want to though," he said. She
didn't want to but maybe she should go, get it over
with and get her friends off her back.
"Yeah I'll go," she said a little hastily.
"Okay. See ya tommorrow. I love you," he said.
"I love you to," she said and they hung up the
phone. Well this was it. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad
after all.
[chapter 13] [Crying on the Inside]
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