A note from the author: Hey all. I just wanted to tell you that this chapter continues from the short story version. Remember at the end she started
to tell Justin her problems and it stopped. In this
chapter it continues and she tells him and it goes
from there to tell what happened afterward. I just
didn't want the readers to get confused or think the
story moved to fast. Thanks so much.
Stacey Michelle
Crying On The Inside Chapter 13
Justin stood by his locker the next day in school and
waited for her to walk by. He had made up his mind to
talk to her today no matter who told him to stay away.
He just had to talk to her. Then he saw her come in
the door. She looked beautiful as usual but today
something was different. She had on a Tommy Girl
outfit that was a white capri shirt with baby blue
stripes down the side and the long skirt to match. She
also had baby blue sneakers to match. Not only did she
have on his favorite color, she looked happy for a
change. Justin stared in awe as she walked by
smelling like watermelon. She looked confident today.
She went and waited by her locker for her friends. He
was going to talk to her. He just had to find an
opportunity.
Justin lay in bed that night thinking over the days
events. Michelle had just left his house after being
there for about six hours. The two of them talked for
hours until she had to leave. In school that day he
did talk to her. He knew she left the lunchroom early
to walk down the halls. He left before her and waited
for her. He finally talked to her and when they looked
at each other it was as if they had known each other
for years. He introduced himself and he knew deep
down that she was attracted to him. Before they got a
chance to say anthing to each the the bell rang and he
left to go to class. All the rest of the day she
looked nervous for some reason. After school she gave
him a ride home. He made the bold move of inviting her
in. She did even though he thought she would say no.
When she was in his room they kissed and that was when
Justin knew they were meant to be. He told her he felt
her unhappiness and asked her what was wrong. She
looked like she would never tell him but she did.
"I hate being popular. Everyone expects you to be
happy all the time and no one realizes you have
problems to. I feel I have to walk around school with
a smile stuck on my face as if there is nothing wrong
in my life. Well I do have problems and I wish they
would all just go away. It's as if sex has taken over
the world and I'm from a different planet. My friends
pressure me so much about it and I just get so tired
of arguing with them and my boyfriend about it I just
finally gave in. I'm gonna go do it and get it over
with just so they would leave me alone. It's as if how
I feel doesn't count. Just as long as they're happy
knowing I'm not a virgin anymore. JC is sweet but not
exactly the person I want to do this with. I've known
him all my life and neither of us never thought we
would fall for each other. We used to play hide n' go
seek in my yard for cryin out loud. Who would have
thought? Well we did fall in love but when I think
about it I think I'm the only one who really did.
We're not on the same level and that bothers me.
Lately he just seems so weird as if something's going
on. Maybe there is and I don't know it. I probably
wouldn't say anything if it was. I hate starting
fights with him. He makes me feel so bad like I'm at
fault. I hate getting him mad because it's always
turned around to belittle me. I just feel like I
can't win. If I don't do it then I'll keep getting
pressured and I hate having people on my back but if I
do end up doing it I'll feel as if I betrayed myself
and everything I stand for and believe in. So I'm
damned if I do and damned if I don't. So you see. I'm
not special. I'm not perfect. Sure I have rich parents
and a nice car, good grades, and pretty clothes and
underneath I'm just a mess. No one understands what I
go through and my friends hardly ever listen to my
problems so I really don't have anyone who listens and
then comforts me and tells me everything will be fine
because... no one cares."
Justin hugged her and told her everything would be
fine. It made her smile. The first real smile he saw
ever since the first day he saw her. She stayed and
they talked some more before she left and it made him
wonder something.
"So what happens now?" he asked her at his front
door.
"I don't know," she said looking at him.
"I would like for you to come over again," he
said. She smiled.
"I will," she said and walked down the stairs. He
watched her go until she was in her car. Before she
got in she stopped to stare and smile. She drove off
and went home. When she got there she was in such a
happy mood. She took a shower and got ready for bed.
She had a smile on her face as she fell asleep not
even
remebering that she forgot to go to JC's house that
night.
[chapter 14] [Crying on the Inside]
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