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Sign Guestbook \| View Guestbook Comments? Questions? [email protected]	Prayer topics Good From Bad God's Purposes Healing Healing 2 Conversation I Relinquish Good From Bad Date: February 22, 2006 What, I have wondered, did my mom do to deserve suffering from dementia? Nothing, I expect. But it has sure shown how patient and loving and flexible and attentive my dad can be (not attributes I had noticed before!). He sure loves her. What an example! In watching him, I'm beginning to see some of those same qualities in my own husband, a lot more than I noticed them in the past. So "good" has come out of this sad situation in some ways at least - though it being "my" good (learning to appreciate my dad and husband more and see them in a better light) makes me feel a bit guilty in case she has had to suffer for me! But I don't think You would want me to feel guilty about it, Lord. I also found myself thinking about how I could do something on a regular basis to help those elderly folks out, like take my guitar and sing hymns, or pray with them and read scripture and talk about You, Lord. Return to the top God's Purposes Date: February 26, 2006 We have a new church building. God has placed us there. Will we keep dreaming of what we could do, or will we pick up the opportunity placed right in our lap, and start doing, trusting God for his provisions? God has put us here, now. Let's focus on His purposes for that. Why would He have placed us here? What does He want us to do? How does He want us to build and extend the Kingdom of God in this place and time? (Same with the new school! I like how we are just going forward. Our school land we were renting was sold, and we've had new land offered, so let's get busy and make a new school. God will provide!) Let us get away from the ways of the world's thinking and start seeking God's thoughts. "My ways are not your ways and My thoughts are not your thoughts." God can and will do whatever He purposes. If we are not obedient to His call, He will bypass us and use others. It is not what I can do for God and His kingdom, but what God chooses and purposes to do, and He is kind and loving enough to choose to do it through me though I am so frail and failing. God's passion vs my passion. God's purposes vs my plans and dreams. God's placement vs my wishes. God's provisions vs my abilities, skills and money. God does not need me. He chooses to use me, which is amazing in itself, considering what I am really like! Praise God! Return to the top Healing Date: March 2, 2006 On the weekend I bumped my head, hard, and ended up with a terrible headache which would not go away. Finally, a few days later, I went to the doctor and he said I had a concussion. Not only that, but my hubby came home from his work at logging camp, with a painful injury in his hip joint. I have been reading in my devotions about how we have to come to the place where we really believe God is truly Almighty. We have to put our faith not in what Jesus says, but in Him. Then He can do the impossible for us. Last night at our life group the leader said the same thing. As we were leaving I noticed how much my hubby was limping due to the pain of his injury. This morning as I woke up, this thought struck me; in fact, it struck so suddenly that I believe it had to be Your voice, dear Father God, speaking to me through Your Holy Spirit: "If you believe I am Almighty, why don't you pray right now and ask for and expect healing for your husband's injury, and for yours?" It was really an epiphany for me - an "ah-ha!" moment. So I leaned over to do it right then. I prayed out loud, in front of my husband, after telling him why I was doing it (that was a hard thing for me, Lord, as You know). Then I got up, and remembering what I've heard before - "Walk in it; step into the waters" - I got up and carried on as if in full health. I did lose my balance a bit, but probably from jumping up too fast! I have only a slight lingering pain in my head and a slight tummy wobble - but that's probably because I haven't had breakfast yet. Anyway, I am determined to live today in the trusting that I am healed, and thanking God for it. Almighty God, I have chosen to walk in Your healing power, despite the arguments of the world and the enemy and my flesh that I am being foolish. And I am trusting you for my husband, too. I am not going to try to justify this decision, but only to praise You for Who You are, and walk in faith that You are the Great Healer, the great wonder-worker. You spoke to me, and if I believe that You are really God Almighty, I must then obey and trust You unconditionally. Thank You that though I have not been able to work on my book hardly at all since my hubby came home from work, that You are keeping me from resentment. Thank You for helping me respect and submit to him. Please forgive me for my crabby attitude toward him when he came home. You have been changing him a lot. Thank You. And You have been changing me a lot, too. Thank You for the pastor's advice last year, and for preparing my heart to receive it. Lord, I have been avoiding fasting because I am hungry all the time and feeling tired and weak to start with. Thank You for the medical information that has helped me to understand what is going on in my body, and what to do about it. So then I can fast, and it will help me, spiritually, physically, and mentally too! What a relief! Thank You! Return to the top Healing 2 Date: March 5, 2006 I have been fine since I obeyed the Lord and asked for healing from the concussion. Almighty God! You did instantly what the Doctor said would taken time to gradually get better. Are You reminding me, Lord, that You are the Almighty God and that You will provide for all my needs in the ministry You place me in, no matter how impossible it may seem to me? Yes, of course! Return to the top Conversation Date: March 5, 2006 Lord, Please show me day by day, moment by moment, how You would have me serve You and glorify You; and in so doing, share with others the love You have poured out on me. Thank You, in Jesus' name, amen. "I'm coming back to the heart of worship, And it's all about You, Jesus" ... Welcome back, My precious child. Rest in Me. "Trust and obey for there's no other way to be happy in Me, than to trust and obey." I will look after the details. I am providing, all the way and time. It is My work. Let Me carry the burden. You just be my little child. (my head bowed.. Yes! Thank You, Father God, my Lord.) Return to the top I Relinquish Date: March 8, 2006 "I am crucified with Christ." (Gal 2:20) "No one is ever united with Jesus Christ until he is willing to relinquish not sin only, but his whole way of looking at things; all pretence of being anything, all claim of being worthy of God's consideration. Then the Spirit of God will show us what further there is to relinquish [You are doing this, Lord! It's embarrassing!]... There is always a sharp painful disillusionment to go through before we do relinquish the awful nature of the pride of (our) own heart... Relinquish all and God will make you fit for all that He requires of you." (My Utmost for His Highest, Oswald Chambers, March 8). I relinquish, Lord: my abilities; pushing my kids to excel, to make me proud, to be good Christians, to be anything "I" want them to be; same for my husband, plus my desire for things to be comfortable and pleasant and convenient for me; doing and being anything I want to do and be, and be seen as by others, or by me! Forgive me, Lord. Make me fit, please, for all You require of me. Thank You. Thank You! Return to the top
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Sign Guestbook \| View Guestbook Comments? Questions? [email protected]	Prayer topics Good From Bad God's Purposes Healing Healing 2 Conversation I Relinquish Good From Bad Date: February 22, 2006 What, I have wondered, did my mom do to deserve suffering from dementia? Nothing, I expect. But it has sure shown how patient and loving and flexible and attentive my dad can be (not attributes I had noticed before!). He sure loves her. What an example! In watching him, I'm beginning to see some of those same qualities in my own husband, a lot more than I noticed them in the past. So "good" has come out of this sad situation in some ways at least - though it being "my" good (learning to appreciate my dad and husband more and see them in a better light) makes me feel a bit guilty in case she has had to suffer for me! But I don't think You would want me to feel guilty about it, Lord. I also found myself thinking about how I could do something on a regular basis to help those elderly folks out, like take my guitar and sing hymns, or pray with them and read scripture and talk about You, Lord. Return to the top God's Purposes Date: February 26, 2006 We have a new church building. God has placed us there. Will we keep dreaming of what we could do, or will we pick up the opportunity placed right in our lap, and start doing, trusting God for his provisions? God has put us here, now. Let's focus on His purposes for that. Why would He have placed us here? What does He want us to do? How does He want us to build and extend the Kingdom of God in this place and time? (Same with the new school! I like how we are just going forward. Our school land we were renting was sold, and we've had new land offered, so let's get busy and make a new school. God will provide!) Let us get away from the ways of the world's thinking and start seeking God's thoughts. "My ways are not your ways and My thoughts are not your thoughts." God can and will do whatever He purposes. If we are not obedient to His call, He will bypass us and use others. It is not what I can do for God and His kingdom, but what God chooses and purposes to do, and He is kind and loving enough to choose to do it through me though I am so frail and failing. God's passion vs my passion. God's purposes vs my plans and dreams. God's placement vs my wishes. God's provisions vs my abilities, skills and money. God does not need me. He chooses to use me, which is amazing in itself, considering what I am really like! Praise God! Return to the top Healing Date: March 2, 2006 On the weekend I bumped my head, hard, and ended up with a terrible headache which would not go away. Finally, a few days later, I went to the doctor and he said I had a concussion. Not only that, but my hubby came home from his work at logging camp, with a painful injury in his hip joint. I have been reading in my devotions about how we have to come to the place where we really believe God is truly Almighty. We have to put our faith not in what Jesus says, but in Him. Then He can do the impossible for us. Last night at our life group the leader said the same thing. As we were leaving I noticed how much my hubby was limping due to the pain of his injury. This morning as I woke up, this thought struck me; in fact, it struck so suddenly that I believe it had to be Your voice, dear Father God, speaking to me through Your Holy Spirit: "If you believe I am Almighty, why don't you pray right now and ask for and expect healing for your husband's injury, and for yours?" It was really an epiphany for me - an "ah-ha!" moment. So I leaned over to do it right then. I prayed out loud, in front of my husband, after telling him why I was doing it (that was a hard thing for me, Lord, as You know). Then I got up, and remembering what I've heard before - "Walk in it; step into the waters" - I got up and carried on as if in full health. I did lose my balance a bit, but probably from jumping up too fast! I have only a slight lingering pain in my head and a slight tummy wobble - but that's probably because I haven't had breakfast yet. Anyway, I am determined to live today in the trusting that I am healed, and thanking God for it. Almighty God, I have chosen to walk in Your healing power, despite the arguments of the world and the enemy and my flesh that I am being foolish. And I am trusting you for my husband, too. I am not going to try to justify this decision, but only to praise You for Who You are, and walk in faith that You are the Great Healer, the great wonder-worker. You spoke to me, and if I believe that You are really God Almighty, I must then obey and trust You unconditionally. Thank You that though I have not been able to work on my book hardly at all since my hubby came home from work, that You are keeping me from resentment. Thank You for helping me respect and submit to him. Please forgive me for my crabby attitude toward him when he came home. You have been changing him a lot. Thank You. And You have been changing me a lot, too. Thank You for the pastor's advice last year, and for preparing my heart to receive it. Lord, I have been avoiding fasting because I am hungry all the time and feeling tired and weak to start with. Thank You for the medical information that has helped me to understand what is going on in my body, and what to do about it. So then I can fast, and it will help me, spiritually, physically, and mentally too! What a relief! Thank You! Return to the top Healing 2 Date: March 5, 2006 I have been fine since I obeyed the Lord and asked for healing from the concussion. Almighty God! You did instantly what the Doctor said would taken time to gradually get better. Are You reminding me, Lord, that You are the Almighty God and that You will provide for all my needs in the ministry You place me in, no matter how impossible it may seem to me? Yes, of course! Return to the top Conversation Date: March 5, 2006 Lord, Please show me day by day, moment by moment, how You would have me serve You and glorify You; and in so doing, share with others the love You have poured out on me. Thank You, in Jesus' name, amen. "I'm coming back to the heart of worship, And it's all about You, Jesus" ... Welcome back, My precious child. Rest in Me. "Trust and obey for there's no other way to be happy in Me, than to trust and obey." I will look after the details. I am providing, all the way and time. It is My work. Let Me carry the burden. You just be my little child. (my head bowed.. Yes! Thank You, Father God, my Lord.) Return to the top I Relinquish Date: March 8, 2006 "I am crucified with Christ." (Gal 2:20) "No one is ever united with Jesus Christ until he is willing to relinquish not sin only, but his whole way of looking at things; all pretence of being anything, all claim of being worthy of God's consideration. Then the Spirit of God will show us what further there is to relinquish [You are doing this, Lord! It's embarrassing!]... There is always a sharp painful disillusionment to go through before we do relinquish the awful nature of the pride of (our) own heart... Relinquish all and God will make you fit for all that He requires of you." (My Utmost for His Highest, Oswald Chambers, March 8). I relinquish, Lord: my abilities; pushing my kids to excel, to make me proud, to be good Christians, to be anything "I" want them to be; same for my husband, plus my desire for things to be comfortable and pleasant and convenient for me; doing and being anything I want to do and be, and be seen as by others, or by me! Forgive me, Lord. Make me fit, please, for all You require of me. Thank You. Thank You! Return to the top
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