Author's Note: A different take on the Johnny&Devi thing. I think I've made it clear that I don't usually like happy endings.

Although I am into heavier music usually, Linkin Park's REANIMATION is incredibly inspiring for me. The way the music flows on certain tracks (tracks 1, 2, 6, 18, 19, 20) gets me into a thoughtful, artistic, insightful mood. Great CD. But my favorite track is number 6, which is the remix for Pushing Me Away. I don't remember its new name, something like... Pushing Me Away or SOMETHING like that. I know I'm wrong.

Anyhow, I must tell you that whenever I hear a REANIMATION song or if I hear ANY KoRn song, I imagine Nny singing it. His voice, in my mind, is either that of Jonathan Davis' or Chester Bennington's.

Enjoy.

PUSHING ME AWAY

I miss you, Devi.

I am sorry.

But no matter how hard I try to win you back, you ignore me, hurt me, hate me...

(When I look into your eyes, there's nothing there to see...)

I made a big mistake. I tried to kill you.

I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

(Nothing but my own mistakes, staring back at me...)

(I've lied to you... this is the last smile, that I'll fake for the sake of being with you...)

I've tried too long.

I'm too weary.

(The sacrifice is never knowing why I stick with you; just push away; no matter what you see, you're still so blind to me.)

I can't handle it anymore. I'm not going to chase you any longer.

(I've tried, like you, to do everything you wanted to... this is the last time I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you...)

I've sort of fooled myself into thinking I loved you. I don't love you.

I wanted to kill you.

I still would.

(The sacrifice of hiding in a lie... the sacrifice is never knowing why I stick with you, just push away, no matter what you see, you're still so blind to me.)

I don't know why I deluded myself into that sort of thought.

(Reverse psychology's failing miserably, it's so hard to be left all alone... telling you is the only chance for me, there's nothing left but to turn and face you.)

(When I look into your eyes, there's nothing there to see... nothing but my own mistakes, staring back at me, asking why...)

Lies. Everything was one big lie. I lied.

(The sacrifice of hiding in a lie... the sacrifice is never knowing why I stick with you, just push away, no matter what you see, you're still so blind to me.)

(Why I stick with you, just push away, no matter what you see...)

I'm finished with you. You never understood nor accepted my apologies and renewed feelings.

(You're still so blind to me.)

Goodbye.

[A grief-stricken man takes up a gun. It is shining, glimmering in his hands, tempting him. He has nothing to live for. As he raises the gun to his head, tightening finger on trigger, he remembers a beautiful face of a woman he once loved, once lived for. She didn't return his feelings.

He pulls the trigger. A gunshot echoes through the house, even down the street.

Soon the dead body of a man named Jonathan Colt is picked up from a house that is falling apart.

The suicide was successful.]