May 3, 2001
There's so much left to know
But I'm on the road to find out.
~Cat Stevens
          You know something I really hate about people?  Yea, I know that isn't he most positive way to start, but I really hate it when someone refuses to admit when they don't know something,  as if not knowing is wrong.  I noticed this during the class discussions we had for my Anthropology course.  We had the pleasure of learning how archeological anthropologists determined the history of mankind and the human condition.   In the text book we learned about how a skeleton they named Lucy (after Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds!!) was discovered in Ethiopia to be the the earliest found human ancestor because she had a similar skull to that of a human. No matter that modern day monkeys have similar skulls (more similar infact) because Lucy was definitely an archeological breakthrough.
           Well, I just read it, memorized it, and forgot the details after the test, but during my "group project" I discovered something that really puzzled me about humans in general. The assignment was to look for an article on the internet that had to do with what we were currently covering in the lecture. It was a no-big-deal assignment, just a cheesed up way to get the class to discuss some anthropological issue together.  The article my group chose was on the latest archeological discovery, "The millennium ancestor." This monkey skull looked even more like humans and was dated further back than Lucy. The article was about how now Lucy might not be the earliest known ancestor (obviously) and that there was this huge debate on which pile of bones were more telling about the history of mankind. By finding a closer ancestor dated later (I have no idea how they dated these guys), all the current ideas of time and order of the evolution of man are  in jeopardy. The discoverers and supporters of the Lucy theory were just as passionate about their theory as those who found the millennium ancestor. They didn't embrace the discovery as getting closer to the truth. No one admitted that they just didn't know, which is exactly what this discovery proved, that science can't explain (just yet) exactly how man was created.
    The Evolutionitarians (I call them) have these huge complicated systems and dated charts  based on these loose theories from piles of bones--theories they are so stuck on that they won't even take into consideration when a new discovery is made and questions those ideas.  It's absurd.  You'd think that if the guys who discovered Lucy really wanted to know the truth about how man came about, they would at least consider the new found bones.
        So this is where science is today? I used to respect science (like Madeline L'Engle) because scientists were at least people searching for ultimate truth, and Jesus says seek and you will find. But in this particular case, the scientists seek, find, and stubbornly stick to their own pride in their theoriest that hey leave no room for the ultimate truth they are in search of.

        I didn't write this essay to rip on secular scientific views. No No No. Because more appallingly is when I see Christians doing this.  I am guilty of it myself. When one of my closest buds, Marjorie, became a Christian, we would get into these heated debates about the dumbest things. We laugh about it now, but we would get "bout it" with eachother over whether or not it was a sin to swear, a sin to listen to secular music, a sin to date, a sin to drink,  and all this other sin stuff that isn't always 100% clear in the Bible.  Some productive discussion among Christians is alright, and usually very good, because discussing the unknown is good and interesting and all that jazz; but at the end of our discussions I think we had a few less brain cells and a lot more resentment for eachother and doubt in eachother's faith.  Like I said, we laugh about it now, but I remember those times and I can't believe how narrow minded and prideful I was.  I just simply refused to admit that I just had no answer to our initial question, and I immediately vetoed all of her points, regardless of how good they were (and some were very good indeed).  I focused so much on myself that even if God chose to reveal an answer to our question with our conversation, I would have been too prideful and stubbornly stuck to my own theory.
        Even worse is when a non-believer comes up to a Christian with a very valid question that has been puzzling even the people closest to God since the dawn of time.  But instead of saying, "I really don't know, that hasn't been revealed to me yet," they rant and rave about nothing at all, either with a  man-made Christian theory (for instance, some Christians believe that courtship is the only way God wants His people to get married) or totally avoiding the question all together with some random scripture that has nothing to do with what the person wants to know.  We learned in Anthropology that it is " the human condition to strive for understanding of the world around us." We don't know everything but we want to. We want everything to make sense and when it doesn't we make up reasons for things.  This, I think, is a pretty good idea.  I think that this "human condition" is either something that came with the fall of man, or something God created us with.  Either way, there is a reason that God takes His time revealing to his children the answers to these terribly puzzling questions about the world around us. But as His children, we have to embrace the truth when it is given to us, and accept the fact that we don't know the answer when He hasn't given us one yet. There is nothing wrong with not knowing everything.

       In Matthew, Jesus praises His Father with the line "I praise you Father, Lord of heaven and earth, because you have hidden these things from the wise and learned and revealed them to little children."  Here, Jesus kind of tells us what it takes to gain the knowledge of ultimate truth.  We must be open and susceptible to learning it, just like a two year old child learning to expand their vocabulary. The older we get and the more degrees we get, the more we lose sight of what it is like to embrace truth. Instead of living off of the bread of knowledge that God gives us, we live off of the popcorn of theories we create for our own understanding of the world around us.  Religion becomes just another way humans try to explain that which they do not know.  But what we have is so much more than just man's religious ideas.  I know that God loves my by the grace he has shown me through helping me fix mistakes I've made in the past; I know that He talks to me because I've heard His voice in times of panic; I know He cares about me because He always gives me what I need to get through each day, usually in the form of the wonderful fellowship He has blessed me with. I know these things for sure, and they over power the things I don't know in my life.  I urge all people to live by what they know.  If there is something about God's Son that really puzzles us, we are told to seek that puzzlement out so that God may reveal it to us.  By no means does accepting Jesus into our lives guarantee us the answers to all the world's deepest questions (though the adrenaline we reveive from the Holy Spirit makes it seem like we have them because we know that Jesus died for our sins).  Instead we must always keep seeking after the truth. The moment we believe we have all the answers, we are deceiving ourselves and preventing ourselves from being able to receive that which Christ reveals to us.

     I admit there are many things about following God that still puzzle me. I am still not not 100% sure why   homosexuality is bad. Though the Bible says it is, I haven't found why exactly it says that because some of the dearest friends I have struggle (or don't struggle) with it, and they show more Christ-like qualities than some Christians I know.  I admit that I do not know if all of the words in the Bible are God breathed, because I have never seen the verse that says so, and sometimes I have doubts about the translations.  I admit that I am not even sure how the earth was created, since I think that Genesis Chapter One is kind of vague and it doesn't mention why we are finding dinosaur bones. I admit that I am not 100% sure if there is a hell. These are all things that I have been lectured about and I have prayed  that God will reveal to me the truth about.  Some Christians would say I have these doubts because of lack of faith.  But I do know that Jesus wants me to be in his kingdom and that if my eternal life is wavering because of this lack of faith that I have been accused of, then God will give me that knowledge.  But so far, I haven't received the assurance of an answer in those things which give me doubts, and I will try to refrain from putting so much faith in my own ideas about these things that I prevent myself from seeing the truth. 

       As Christians, it's okay not to have answers for everything.  That's why we need faith.  Another way to look at following Jesus is like how Cat Stevens views life. "There's so much left to know," yes, but if we constantly seek after the truth by going to Jesus, we are "on the road to find out."
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