*Mage's Fic*
Troubled
Mage
TROUBLED Pt 1
" Why must this always happen to me?" Billie smiled at you as you sighed deeply. " I dunno Squirt (Squirt is your nickname he gave you.) It happens to me a lot too." You sigh again and find a replacement string for the busted one on your guitar. When you finally get the string on and are ready to continue playing, your big brother, Mike, walks in with John behind him. " Leave," he tells you as you step off the small stage to greet them. " What!? No way! It�s our turn to use the basement! We�ve only been down here for half an hour!!" you shout at him. He shrugs. " Oh well, we gotta practice so you and your geek squad, OUT!!" You curse under your breathe, grab your guitar, and walk out with Jakob and Tyler, your bass player and drum player for your band Anonomous (Name made up by me *smile*), behind you. You guys go and sit in the living room of your two-story house owned by your adopted parents. You and your brother were both given up for adoption when Mike was 6 and you were 5. You had tried to commit suicide by swallowing a whole bottle of your adoption father�s pills, but Billie and Mike stopped you. You had had enough of your parent�s fighting so you wanted to end it, but they saved you from making a big mistake. And what was another reason was that, your brother always blamed you for everything. But, Billie helped you find a way to not let it get to you, because your brother was always drunk. But, Mike was supportive, and helped you a little, but not as much as Billie did. He tried to help you with your problems, convincing you to stop. You hadn�t tried it again, promising not to do it ever and you were so proud of yourself. Now, you�re sitting in the middle of the floor, listening to Sweet Children blasting down in the basement underneath you.
FF TWO DAYS: It�s Saturday. You wake up when you hear the doorbell and go down to answer it. You open the door to find no one there. You curse under your breathe, and decide to go back to bed, but something sticking out of the mail box stops you. You grab the letter and read the name on it. TO TRINITY DIRNT. Your heart begins to speed up slightly as you break the seal and read the letter:
I�ve been meaning to ask you something for a long time now, I just never really had the courage so here it is: Will you go out with me? I know it doesn�t seem like a lot, but will you? I can�t tell you who I am; all I can say is that you know me. Meet me tonight at the Central Movie Theatre around 7pm. Please, I hope to see you there.
Signed,
Your Secret Admirer
(P.S. I hope I spelled �admirer� right.)
You gasp loudly and run to the phone to call your best friend Narie. After 3 rings, she finally answers. " Yhello?" "Damn you take forever to answer the damn phone!" " Well I was asleep! What�s up?" " I�m gonna need a ride tonight to the movies! My �secret admirer� wants to meet me there!" " Oh, lucky you! Sure, I�ll give you a ride luv. Do you know who the guy is?" " No, but I�ll find out! 7pm tonight, I�ll meet him! Pick me up at 6:45, pwease!" " Sure." You hang up and run to the clock. 1:42pm. Damn, quite a wait. So you decide to go back to bed.
You wake up, and scream at the sight of your clock. It�s 6:40pm. You get dressed quick and run down stairs. You call Narie, and she picks you up, taking you to the movies exactly at 7. " You sure about this?" Narie asks you while you close the car door. " No. But I�ll give it a try." She drives off, leaving you alone. You�re standing there, wishing Narie would come back and take you away, but your brought back to reality when someone taps your shoulder. You turn around and gasp slightly at who is standing in front of you.
There, right in front of you, is a very nervous looking Billie Joe. He�s staring at his feet with his hands behind his back. You swallow the lump of nervousness in your throat, only for it to come back up. He looks up at you and smiles slightly. " Hi Trin," he whispers. You smile warmly. " So, you�re my secret admirer?" His cheeks turn red and he looks back down. " I hope I spelled admirer right," he mumbles. You laugh and say, " Yeah, you did." His head comes up, his bright green eyes shinning. " Here." He pulls his arm out from behind him and hands you a bright, red rose. You smile happily and take the rose. " So what are we gonna see?" you ask him. He smiles and says, " I have no idea. What do you wanna see?" I wanna see The Big Leblwski." (Never really seen that movie, so I�d like to see It. ^^;;) So, you grab his hand and go in. During the movie, Billie made a small move. Your arm was on the armrest, so he puts his arm next to yours, and entwines his fingers with yours. You look at your hands and then to his face. He�s staring at the screen, but not seeing the movie, and he�s holding his breath. You try not to laugh, and look back at the screen only to hear him release his breath on a sigh. You smile to yourself, and giggle slightly. Billie drove you home, and walked you to your door. " Well, I had a good time�" Suddenly, he got that same nervous look and stared at his feet. You gasped quietly, and smiled. " I had a really good time BJ." Immediately he brightened up. " Oh," he said, " I thought you hated it� and me too." You gasped silently. The guy that you�ve had a crush on for the past 3 years, the guy you always saw with other girls, had a crush on you! You were so happy, that you got a bright idea; you leaned in and kissed him slightly on the lips, leaving him dumbfounded. " I had a good time," and with that, you went inside. You changed into your PJs, jumped into bed, and smashed your face in you pillow screaming, " I KISSED BILLIE JOE ARMSTRONG!!" and fell blissfully asleep.
TROUBLED Pt. 2
FF TWO DAYS: It�s Monday, and lucky you, you have a day off from school today. You get dressed in whatever, and walk out to the living room to find John, Billie, and Mike sitting in there. Ever since your �date� with Billie, he had been kinda avoiding you, and watching you, looking away every time you looked at him. Now, he was just staring at the wall, or an imaginary dot in front of him. You sighed and sat in the middle of the floor. After a long moment of silence, you finally broke it. " Hey guys, prom�s coming up fast. You guys got dates yet?" Mike shrugs and says, " I was thinking about asking that friend of yours, Narie, out." You look at Billie, who is still staring at the wall, and he shrugs also, " I dunno. I might not go." You frown slightly, but look away from him. You stand and walk out the room. Billie suddenly looks up at you and asks, " Where you going?" " Back to bed," you mumble, and walk up to your room, slamming the door behind you. You throw yourself on the bed, and scream into your pillow. Such a cruel joke!! Billie only PRETENDED to like you, that�s why he went out with you, to trick you into thinking he liked you. You then heard someone knocking on your door. " GO AWAY!!" you yell, but it was muffled by your pillow. You then hear the door open, and feel your bed sink when someone sits next to you.
You feel them grab your shoulder, and you flip over to see Billie Joe looking down at you. You sit up and look him in the eye. " What do you want?" you ask, and flop back down on the bed. The same nervous look from that night was back on his face, and he asked, " What?" You turn around, giving him your back. " I know you only went out with me that night to make me think you liked me. Well, it worked. Happy!?" You grab your pillow and pull it over your head, hurt tears stinging your eyes. He takes the pillow off you and than notices the tears streaming from your eyes. He frowns and wipes your tears. " I wouldn�t want to trick you Trin," he says. You turn back over to face him, and he smiles down at you. " I know you don�t really like me. I�m just a kid compared to you, and��� He cuts you off by putting his finger to your lips. " Ok, listen. One, I did not go with you cause I wanted to pull a cruel trick on you� I wanted to go. Two, I really do like you Trinity. As a matter of fact, I like you a hellava lot!" His smile widened and placed his hands on your cheeks. He leans over you, pushing you down on the bed. " B-Billie?" you manage to mumble. He brings his face closer to yours� closer� closer� until�.
" WAKE UP!!!"
You spring forward in your bed, your brother and John standing over you. Billie is no where to be found. Mike is laughing his ass of at the sight of your face. " Hey, Trin, what were dreaming about? We heard you call Billie," teases Mike, and your face turns a bright red. " Nothing," you mumble, and push them out of your room. You get dressed and run down stairs to find them sitting there. Still no sign of Billie. " Where�s BJ?" you ask, looking out the window for Billie�s beat up mustang. John made a kissy-face and said, " Billie, Billie, oh Billie!" and ran up to you, making smacking noises. You punch him, and he stops, but still laughs. You then looked at the clock. " OH CRAP!!" you shout and run for the door. Just as you open it and run out, you run into something, and it causes you to fall flat on your behind. " Oh son-of-a--!!" " You okay!?" You feel someone grab your arm and lift you to your feet. " Yeah, fin--!!" Billie is standing there, right in front of you. " You sure you�re ok?" he asks again. " Fine, Billie, fine!!" you shout, and he backs off. You sigh, and apologize to him. " I didn�t mean to shout," you say, " I�m just in a hur��� " TRINITY!!" Jakob and Tyler run in and practically slam you. " We can�t use my basement today!" shouts Jakob, his blue eyes wide. Tyler, brown haired and green eyed, sighs. " We can�t use mine either, my brother is using it." " Damn! We can�t use mine, my brother gots it today." You smack your forehead and sigh. " Oh well guys, we�re gonna have to wait till Saturday." The two boys moan, but then you hear Billie say from behind you, " Hey, you guys can use the basement today. I�ll tell Mike, he�ll let you." Jakob and Tyler automatically brighten up. " Maybe we can here you guys� play?" asks Billie. You can�t help but smile. " Yeah, definitely." You�re two friends, chirping happily behind you about performing for Sweet Children, are all to ready to perform.
You all gather in the basement, and set up your instruments, while the three boys take a front row seat. You whisper the song of choice to Jakob, and you begin to play�
After your performance, you look to the three boys in front of you, hoping for a sign of approval. Billie and Mike were both smiling from ear to ear, and John sat there, his mouth a gape. " So� what do you think?" asked Tyler, nervously juggling his drumsticks. Mike stood and said, " Well, it was pretty good." John jumped to his feet and yelled, " Pretty good, PRETTY GOOD!!? THATWAS AWESOME!!!" You look at Billie, and say, " Well, what do you think Billie?" He coughs slightly, his cheeks turning red, he looks to the side and says, " It was really good, totally original. Never heard anything like it." You smile, and feel your own cheeks burning. You and your buds then continue playing for them, through the rest of the day.
TROUBLED Pt. 3
You sigh deeply and pick at your tray of food. It�s been a week since you played for the guys, and things between you and Billie were really strange. He had been avoiding you, and constantly watching you. Now he was sitting at his usual table with his girl friend, Monica, hugging his arm. You looked up at him to see him looking right at you. He then turned away. You hang your head and continue to pick at your food. Tyler noticed your depressed look. " Hey Trin, you ok?" he asks you, although he already knew what was wrong. You smile slightly at him and say, " Oh nothing really. I just don�t have anything to do tonight." Tyler�s eyes brightened up, and he smiled. " Well, would you, uh, like to, uh� go out, uh, for pizza, tonight?" You smiled and nodded. " Yeah, sure. Sounds like fun." He practically jumped out of his seat. " Ok, I�ll pick you up at 7 tonight. See you there!" He and Jakob walked off to class early, leaving you to sit alone. You look up at Billie to see him looking at you again. You look at his eyes and see� What�s this? Is that a hurt look in his eye? You look away, pick up your tray, and leave, puzzling over why he looked so hurt. You know that he must have over heard your conversation with Tyler, but why was he so hurt?
FF TO LATER THAT NIGHT: You�re sitting there in the booth, chewing on the same piece of pizza. Tyler had been quiet for quite a while. You sighed. His head came up, and he frowned. " You�re not having a good time, are you?" You reassured him that you are, and are just tired. He half smiles, and nods. You swallow the piece of pizza. But it almost comes out when you see Billie and his gf Monica walk in. Tyler sees them and calls them over. " Hey Ty, hey Trin!" says Monica, " Mind if we sit with you?" NO! you shout in thought, but she sits next to Tyler, leaving Billie to sit with you. As you all are sitting there, Tyler and Monica break into a conversation about who knows what, while you and Billie sit in silence. After a few moments pass, Billie gets up and leaves. Monica curses under her breath. " That ass! Now how am I going to get home?" Tyler looked at you, and you see the question in his eyes. You smile and nod to him. He gives you a relieved smile and says to Monica, " I�ll give you a ride home." And with that, they left.
You ended up paying for the pizza, and you left on your bike. You knew where Billie was, and wanted to know what was wrong with him. You arrived at the bottom of The Hill. You and Billie were the only ones that knew about it, and he would always go there when he had a problem, or something was bothering him. Sure enough, there he was, at the top of the hill, sitting there, staring out at the town. You walked up the hill and sat next to him. He didn�t notice you till you tapped him on the shoulder. He looked at you, his eyes full of hurt. You gasp silently. " Billie," you ask, " what�s wrong?" He lets out a long sigh, and he faces forward again. " Why would you care?" he asks bitterly. It stung you to hear the tone in his voice, but you say. " I do care. I�m worried about you." He laughs coldly. " Bull shit! You really wanna know what�s wrong with me?!" He grabs your hand and puts it to his chest. You feel his heart pounding under your palm. " You feel that? It beats faster when I�m around you! Trinity, I can�t take it! I know we can never be! But I can�t help it! I� I have strong feelings for you!" He pushes your hand off and stands. You stand up next to him. " Billie-�� you start, but he cuts you off. " No! We can never be Trinity! I know it! I---�� This seems familiar. Like in your dream, but only he is the one ranting, and you silence him by putting your finger to his lips. You sit back down, and seat him next to you. " Billie��� To late. His hand came up behind your head and pulled you forward to accept his impatient kiss. It started slowly. He just pushed his lips softly against yours. Than he deepened the kiss. He slipped his tongue into your mouth, and explored it, as if trying to memorize it. He moaned slightly. He suddenly stopped, pulling away from you, and stood up. He walked down the hill in a rush, leaving you to run behind him. " Billie, wait!" you shout as you run up behind him and grab his arm, just as he was reaching for the car door. He turns to you. " What!?" he shouts, throwing his arms to the side. " Trinity, you don�t think I could have feelings? That I can�t be soft? Well, I give a damn about you, even though you think no one does, I DO!! That�s why I helped you when you tried to commit suicide! I didn�t want to lose you!!! Trinity, I love you!!" You wrap your arms around him, and try to calm him down. He held you close to him, not wanting to let you go. You then lean in and kiss him softly on the lips, and whisper, " I love you, Billie Joe Armstrong."
Billie stands there dumbfounded. " You� do?" he asks. You nod, and smile warmly up at him. He suddenly grins the biggest grin you have ever seen. He hugs you tighter. " Than," he says, " will you, uh�" His cheeks than turned red, as he asked you, " Will you� uh, be my� girl�friend?" He than looked at his feet. You can�t help but smile happily. You grab his hands and say happily, " Of course!" His head flies up and his green eyes were bright. " Yay!" he shouted like a little kid, and picked you up, spinning you around. He set you down and kissed you deeply again. He drove you home, holding you closer to him, one hand on the steering wheel, the other one resting on your waist. He walked you to your door, and kissed you once more, and you walked in. You ran up to your room, changed your clothing, and jumped into bed, falling asleep with the thought of being with Billie in your mind�
TROUBLE Pt 4
It�s a week later and you�re sitting in your room, hands over your ears. Down bellow you, your brother�s in an argument with your father, and your mother is trying to stop them. You begin to cry uncontrollably, and fall back on your bed, covering your head with a pillow. Than you hear tapping at your window. You run to it and look outside. You gasp happily at who you see. Billie is standing down there. He calls up to you, " Come on! I�ll get you outta here!" You nod to him, gather your things into your backpack, and climb down from the window. He hugs you tight, and seats you in his mustang, taking off. " Billie!" you cry happily, huddling next to him in the driver seat. " Thank you so much!" He wraps his arms around you, holding you close. " Mike had told me he was gonna fight with your dad. I didn�t want you to get hurt, so I wanted to get you out of there!" " Did you tell Mike?" He shook his head no. " He woulda tried to stop me." His grip on you tightened. " He won�t keep you from me." He took you to his apartment, and you stayed there with him for a couple of days. But, after being there for a while, your brother came and took you back.
Now you�re back in your room, holding a bottle of pills that you stole from your father�s room. You slowly open the bottle and bring it to your mouth. With tears streaming down your face, you swallow a mouthful of pills and lie back down on your bed.
At that moment, Billie arrived to check up on you�
Billie�s POV: I walked up the stairs with Mike behind me. He told me that the fight between him and his dad resulted with a good end; not a single punch thrown. I wanted to run up to Trinity�s room and tell her the good news. But when I opened the door to her room� and saw her lying there�
Billie ran to you, picking you up and took you down to the mustang, with Mike following. They took you to the hospital where the doctor said you had over dosed on Demerol.
You woke up, staring at a bright white ceiling. " Trinity?" You find it hard to turn your head, but you manage to look over at a very anxious and worried Billie Joe. His eyes are all red and puffy from all the crying he did over you. " Trinity!!" He hugs you tightly, fresh tears streaming from his eyes. " Why?" He asks you letting go. " You scared me. I thought I was going to lose you. Why�d you do it, Trinity?" You turn your head away from him. You begin to say something, but you find it incredibly hard to speak. Just then, Mike walks in with John, Tyler, and Jakob behind him. They all know you had done this before, so no body did any explaining. You began to cry. " I couldn�t help it!" you cry. " I was tired of all the problems, I can�t take it anymore!" Billie hugs you close, and runs his fingers through your hair. Mike sits next to you, and he takes you away from Billie, holding you tight. " I don�t want to lose my baby sister!" he says. You look up at him, and see tears fall from his eyes. You can�t believe it! You�re brother, the one that blamed you for everything, cared about you, and didn�t want to lose you! Wow. " I�m sorry! It�s my fault. I blame you al the time! It�s not right. But, we�ve taken care of it, Trin, things are gonna get better. I promise." You rub your sore eyes, and ask, " How do you know?" He smiles and brushes away your tears. " Me and dad had a long talk." " Talk?" you say, and he laughs. " Well, yelling, but anyways, we settled it." You look at Billie, who gives you that same grin that you have come to love. John, Tyler, and Jakob all give you hugs, and beg you to never do it again. You were actually happy. Someone cared about you. Actually, several someones.
After talking with Billie and Mike, they convinced you to go to a rehab center where you could get some help. You decide that you�ll go, so Billie takes you. He pulls into the entrance and turns off the car. He looks at you and asks, " You sure about this?" You see the worry in his eyes. You give him a reassuring smile and kiss him on the lips. " Yes, I�m sure. I�ll be fine." He half smiles and nods. He kissed you, and he walks you to the entrance of the Rehab Center for Troubled Youth.
Pts. 5 - 8 | Pts. 9 - Final
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