Chapter 36
"Your pregnant?" Nick asked, shocked but happy for some reason.
She nodded, unsure of his reaction. He leaned toward her and kissed her passionately. After the kiss, he rested his head on hers and said, "That is wonderful!"
"Wonderful isn't exactly the words that came to my mind when I found out."
Ignoring her initial comment, he asked, "When did you find out?"
"Yesterday afternoon, I got out here on the first flight I could. I am about 6 weeks."
"You mean when we moved into the house?"
"Yeah...I think we both knew it was happening."
"So are you staying?"
"No, I can't. I am going back to Dallas tonight. I have been staying at my parents house. I just thought you had a right to know."
"Are you going to keep it?" Nick asked, scared by the fact that she wasn't staying, wondering if she wanted his child.
"Of course I am Nick, I can't believe you think that I would give up our baby or have an abortion. Just because we aren't together doesn't mean my feelings for you have changed. I can't not have this baby because of how I feel about you. Granted, this is not how I thought we would have children. I hoped we would be married first."
"I guess all that has changed, I wish you would come back to me so we could do this together. I think we owe that to our child."
"Nick, you know I can't do that. It isn't worth it for either of us right now. I want you to be involved in this. It is part of both of us...and we will all be together someday, just not now. I don't want to endanger myself or our baby and I think that is more avoidable if I stay in Dallas with my family while you fulfill your responsibility to Jive."
"So I have no say in the matter?" Nick asked, upset.
"Yes, you are going to be a part of every decision about this baby..."
"But I won't have you with me...Gwen, I love you - I want this more than anything. I want to be there with you thru all of this and it makes me sick that I can't, but I do understand. I just need you to promise me something...I need you to promise me that you will come back to me after this is all over. I can't imagine my life without you or the baby."
"I promise Nick," she said as she looked down at her hand and placed it in his. He looked down and saw that she was still wearing the engagement ring that he had given her and they were both wearing the bands from James Avery that she had bought them.
They came to an agreement that they would go thru this pregnancy together and that Nick would be around for as much as possible, he was leaving to go on tour in a month. Gwen would stay in Dallas, where it was safe for them. Nick took her to the airport two hours later and watched as her plane pulled away. Although they had come to an agreement, it didn't change the fact that they were both still heartbroken.
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