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| Chapter 5 | ||||||||||||||
| **Two Weeks Later** | ||||||||||||||
| As Britt had predicted, things with Nick were getting worse. He would call her nearly every hour, get mad when she wasn't there and leave crazy messages. She was happy considering, getting into the swing of school and enjoying getting to know Jordan and making friends. Jordan was starting to understand what Britt meant and she really felt sorry for her and decided that Nick was an asshole. Because of his erratic behavior, Britt had decided not to call him back. It had been three days since they spoke. As Britt logged onto the internet and went to check her email, she saw that she had 23 new messages, 10 of them were from Nick in the past 3 days. "Jesus," Britt sighed as she decided to face it and read what her boyfriend had to say. | ||||||||||||||
| The 10 messages ranged from sappy to psychotic, leaning more towards psychotic as they got more recent. The last message he had written, sent out only an hour before read: | ||||||||||||||
| Britt, | ||||||||||||||
| I don't know what your deal is...I would ask you how things were going, as I have in every email and every phone message I have left but that doesn't seem to matter. You obviously don't care what I am doing. I guess that you lied when you told me that it would be ok and that nothing would change. Obviously, everything has changed. It seems like I don't even matter to you anymore, shit, you can't take 5 minutes out of your BUSY life to let me in. You can shut me out all you want, but you and I both know you will regret it. One day, you will realize that you need me, just like I do you and I may not be here. I may just be with somebody else, just like you probably are right now. I hope it feels good to know that I am sitting here, destroyed because you can't even call, wondering what you are doing because I have no idea how your day is now. It is making me crazy not to know Britt. I need you so much...why can't you be there for me like I have been for you? I am really trying here, but you have to meet me half way. If this isn't going to work...tell me, I can't let this break me even though we both know it would. | ||||||||||||||
| I have a break in a week, and I would like to spend it with you in Austin. It is up to you...let me know if you want to see me and let me get to know your world. | ||||||||||||||
| I still love you and always will but you are killing me here. Please let me know what to do. | ||||||||||||||
| Missing you, | ||||||||||||||
| Nick | ||||||||||||||
| "Nicky...god," Britt said aloud as she hit the reply button. Why did her boyfriend always have to be so overdramatic? | ||||||||||||||
| **************************************************************************************************** | ||||||||||||||
| Nick had been beating himself up over not talking to Britt, knowing inside that he wasn't handling the situation as he should. As him and Brian talked, Nick came to realize this even more. | ||||||||||||||
| "B, its like she doesn't even give a shit, I mean...3 DAYS? God, I have never gone that long with no contact from her since we have been together," Nick said, apparently frustrated. | ||||||||||||||
| "Nick, you know Britt, and you know how much she needs this," Brian said as he lightly slapped his friend on the arm, "You also know that she loves you and when you act like this it just makes her turn away from you." | ||||||||||||||
| With a sigh, Nick spoke, "I know man...its just I feel so insecure. I don't know anything about her life anymore, I feel so far away from her. I know I am being stupid but I can't help it. I try to keep it light but I just miss her so much, even when we do talk." | ||||||||||||||
| "Its hard, nobody said our life would be easy. Look at me and Leigh, would either of us had ever thought that we could make it work? And look, we have and we ended up married. Just give it some time." | ||||||||||||||
| "I feel like a baby, being this wimpy about it. AJ is giving me shit, calling me a pussy. I never thought that I would miss her like this..." | ||||||||||||||
| "That is how you know what she means to you. Just let her know that, don't pressure her. Let her call the shots for awhile." | ||||||||||||||
| "I am going to check my email, see if the last one got a response..." | ||||||||||||||
| "Shit Nick, I hope you didn't..." | ||||||||||||||
| Ashamed, Nick looked down, "I did, gave her the 'you are probably with someone else' speech." | ||||||||||||||
| "You shouldn't have done that Nick...check it out, see if she had anything to say, if she did, I doubt it was good," Brian said as he stood up and started out of the room. | ||||||||||||||
| "Thanks for being there bro..." Nick said as Brian nodded and left the room. Nick grabbed his laptop and booted it up. After logging onto the web, the "you've got mail" moniker went off. He clicked on his inbox, and there sat a message from Britt Meyer. | ||||||||||||||
| Chapter 6 | ||||||||||||||
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