Chapter Forty~One
~postscript~
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So, that's my story. Our story, I guess or at least part of our story.
I'm sitting on the deck at the back of the house writing this. It's been
pretty difficult at times, some of the memories are still very painful.
Probably always will be. Other memories are wonderful, the birth of my
son, for instance. I watch him now, out in the water, splashing around,
slicing through
the water like a fish. He's so handsome, his blond hair shining in the
sunlight. He looks so much like his father, it sometimes brings tears to
my eyes. Brian Matthew is five now, short for his age, skinny, smart and,
did I say, handsome? It's so hard to believe, he's just exactly like Nick.
My husband comes out of the house, hugs me tight and joins me in watching
him. Our daughter cries out from her swing and I go over to comfort her.
She's five months old now and is just waking up from her nap. She looks
like her dad, too, my children seem to have recieved none of my genes.
What else do I need to catch up on? The Backstreet Boys, of course, are still very successful. Their fifth album was released last year to critical acclaim for once. The guys produced it and all the songs were written by them and them alone. Some of the music was theirs too. Kevin handled keyboards, Nick, drums and Brian, guitar. They actually just got back from the Grammy Awards, where they finally won four awards - Group, song, record and album of the Year. Well deserved and a long time coming in my opinion. Their new tour starts in a few months and Brian so desperately wants to go with his father, but I'm not too sure. I'm sure we'll go for a few dates, but it's a pretty hard way of life for two little ones. Brian (the big one!) finally married Kathy after much prodding from all of us. They had been dating for so long, it was time. Howie and Eileen broke up and got back together, and broke up and right now, they are together. AJ and Lex are married too and she's expecting their first child. We laugh about it because no one thought they would ever stay together. But here they are. Kevin is dating a girl named Dawn, who he met in Cleveland while on tour last year. She's pretty crazy, but is also a great influence on him. And Nick, well, I think you all know where Nick is. I'm looking out at the ocean and watching the two of them, Nick and little Brian, splashing about in the waves. Their shouts and screams reach my ears and I laugh. It's hard to tell who's the bigger kid out there. I know I made the right choice every time I look at him with his children, he's such a terrific father, words just can't express it. I know I made the right choice whenever I'm with him, when I look at him, whenever I talk to him. I think I may have loved him for quite a long time, before fate threw us together. I know he loved me before that awful day. It just took me longer to realize who I truly loved.
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