“Let me.”

Jake lifted himself up on his elbows and, with a groan of relief, let his head fall back as Nick stroked him gently.

“I’m not sure I can blow you, but I think I can manage a hand job.” Nick said softly.

“Whatever…damn…you’re comfortable with, Nick.” Jake groaned as Nick’s hand moved slowly from his tip to the base of his cock, knowing as well as Jake did, the places that gave the most pleasure.

Nick leaned in, nipping and licking at Jake’s collarbone as he continued the pulsing motion below. Jake knew he was close and Nick was pushing him over the edge with his biting and licking. He thought his eyes were going to roll back into his head when he felt Nick taking a lick over his tip, testing the sensation and the taste, he imagined, but right at this point he didn’t care. All that mattered was how awesome it felt. Tentatively, Nick took the head of Jake's cock into his mouth and that was all it took. Jake's body shuddered and he orgasmed without warning. Nick swallowed a tiny bit before letting the tip fall from his lips, finishing with a few quick pumps of his hand. As he collapsed back on the bed, Jake silently prayed that it wouldn’t take long for Nick to get over his left over issues and then Nick could pleasure him with his mouth as well. He could only imagine how unbelievable a proper blowjob from Nick would be.

They lay together silently, hands wandering without care, exploring each other’s bodies freely now that the first barrier had been kicked aside. Their inhibitions with each other were almost gone now. Jake reveled in how daring he had been. It hadn’t bothered him one bit to drop to his knees and take Nick in his mouth. He wasn’t upset about Nick being nervous to return the favor either. Jake hadn’t really given him time to explore anyway.

“I’m sorry.” They both broke the silence at the same time, with the same whispered words.

“What are you sorry for?” Jake asked, stroking Nick’s cheek. “You didn’t do anything wrong.”

“I couldn’t give you a…I couldn’t even…I mean, fuck, that was the most amazing thing. I can’t even…fuckin’ shit…it was incredible! And I couldn’t even do the same for you, make you feel as good as you made me feel.” Nick apologized.

Jake chuckled softly. Nick obviously was aware he still had some hang-ups, and that was to be expected. He had liked, did like, being with Jake, receiving pleasure from him, that much was crystal clear and Jake had definitely enjoyed giving that pleasure.

“There’s nothing for you to apologize for.” Jake assured the blonde. “I was pretty far gone, I almost lost it when you came.” He confessed to Nick. “It was pretty…powerful…sexy.”

“Is that what you were sorry about?” Nick questioned.

“Well, that, and for making you feel like you had to give me a blow job in return. I was okay.”

“I wanted to.” Nick admitted. “But, I just couldn’t…not yet…I will, I promise.”

“You tried, before I kind of stopped you.” Jake smiled at Nick. “You do what you’re comfortable with. Don’t do anything that turns you off, or that you think isn’t right.” He assured him.

“I wanted to.” Nick insisted. “It’s just…this is still a little weird to me. Everything is happening so fast. I mean, I like it, I just have to…get…” Nick struggled for the right words. He didn’t want Jake to think he hadn’t enjoyed what they had shared together so far. He had enjoyed it a fucking lot. This was all so new, so different from anything Nick had experienced before. “I guess I have to get it together.” He concluded.

“It’s alright.” Jake nuzzled his face into the crook of Nick’s neck. “We have to figure things out here, it’s new to both of us, right? Let’s look at it this way. What do you do with women, when you’re going to sleep with them?”

“I…I fuck them.” Nick stopped to think for a moment. Yes, it was true. Now and then he would go down on his female partner, you know, return a favor. It happened more so, if it was one of his few long-term girlfriends, but generally…they gave him a blowjob, they made out until he was hard again, he flipped them over and fucked them one way or another. It was all Nick or the girl wanted anyway. Everyone left happy. End of story. “That’s it.” Nick finished lamely.

“You just get right down to it.” Jake cuddled closer to Nick, resting his head on Nick’s shoulder. “Nothing wrong with that.” Jake kept his opinion that Nick’s sex life sounded a bit callous to himself. Nick obviously didn’t care to shower attention on his partners. However, maybe the groupies were just entitled to quickies and the long-term women received more attention. Maybe, too, the women got what they gave. He was sure Nick attracted his fair share of women interested in him only because of his celebrity and Jake knew how hard it was to turn some of them down.

“How about you?” Nick asked, as he stroked Jake’s arm absent-mindedly.

“Oh…pretty much the same thing.” Jake fibbed. “The serious girlfriend got a bit more attention than the average one night stand though.”

“Well…yeah…sure. I haven’t had many serious girlfriends though. I mean, I’ve been with a few, but not many of them meant much…to me.” Nick admitted.

“I’ve only had one real, serious, one. I thought Kiki and I were going to get married but she wasn’t ready.”

“Kiki?” Nick asked. “Kirsten?”

“Yeah, we were pretty serious. Had a house, a dog, a ring, everything.” Jake mused. “How about you and Paris?”

“Let’s not even go there!” Nick chuckled and ducked his head down to kiss Jake’s forehead. “I thank God every day we broke up before she decided she wanted to get engaged or get pregnant, cause I probably would have gone along with it, just to keep her happy.”

“Shit, you were whipped, man.”

“She was a real bitch, but I loved her, at the time.” Nick said, quietly.

“We’re too young to be tied down.” Jake laughed, hoping to change the mood. “Aren’t we having fun here?”

“Damn right!” Nick slapped the mattress with his palm to emphasize his statement. “And if we had been, tied down I mean, maybe none of this fun would have happened.” Nick didn’t know where that sentiment had come from, but he meant it as a very good thing. He could only hope Jake felt the same way.

Jake lifted his head; his questioning eyes met Nick’s intent blue eyes staring back at him.

“I’m glad we met Nick, so very glad.” Glad? Jake wasn’t glad, he was ecstatic that he had decided to go to that damn party that ended up changing his life. He made a mental note to send a letter of thanks to whoever invited him to the thing.

“I…me too. Jake, I haven’t felt like this in a long time.”

The two men joined together in a passionate kiss; bodies joined together, limbs tangling, hands searching.

“Why all the tattoos?” Jake muttered as he came up for air.

“They all have different meanings to me.” Nick replied simply. I’ve had a couple removed, had one changed. You know, they didn’t mean the same thing to me anymore.”

“This one’s fantastic.” Jake drew the outlines of Nick’s collage tattoo with his finger. He grinned as Nick’s skin jumped with each touch of his nail on the lines of the intricate drawing. “So much detail.”

“I designed it.” Nick told him, proudly. Jake listened in awe as Nick told him the meaning behind the various components of the collage. He was beginning to see that Nick was a much more complex person than he and probably many other people initially gave him credit for.

“It’s amazing.” Jake demanded to know the meaning of the rest of Nick’s tattoos and proceeded to trace each one with his fingers, slowly driving Nick crazy in the process.

“This Jolly Roger is cool.” Jake proclaimed, holding Nick’s wrist lightly and giving it a lick. He studied the banner under the skeleton and wondered what “old habits” Nick had. Maybe they were dying here in this room, with him. Jake hoped so.

“That’s the one I changed.” Nick whispered.

“What was it?”

“Paris.”

Jake’s face softened and he pulled Nick close again. “Oh Nick.”

No words were needed now, talk of Paris and tattoos was pushed aside and both men were soon once again in a state of desire that was beyond question.

“Jesus.” Nick gasped for breath, pulling out of Jake’s insistent kiss. “I’m so fucking hard. I need to…” Nick stopped himself. Yes, he needed to relieve himself but this was more than need. He finally realized that he wanted to do this. He wanted to be with this beautiful man in every way possible. He stole a look at Jake, who was gazing expectantly up at him with a small smile on his face. Oh yeah, fucking right he wanted to do this – the sooner the better.

“What do you need to do, Nick?” Jake asked softly, knowing in his heart what the answer was.

“I want to.” Nick corrected Jake. “I want to fuck you so bad, Jake. Will you let me?”

Jake gave Nick a look that suggested he was crazy to even ask. Would they have ever ended up in this situation if that hadn't always been a possibility? "You know I will. I've been waiting." Jake whispered, his lips close to Nick's ear.

The tremor ran through Nick's body at the warm breath on his ear. part anticipation, part pure lust. Just as he was about to ask if there was anything around that would work as lube - he wasn't about to just spit and hope for the best - Jake was reaching for his nightstand. Nick smiled when he noticed that, like all bachelors, the drawer contained condoms and lube. for all possible circumstances. a night with a girl, a night alone. a night with another guy.

Jake squirmed underneath Nick to grab the bottle, thankful he wasn't just grabbing it for himself this time. His heart was pounding, and for a moment he couldn't help but wonder if his on-screen performance was even. close to this. He couldn't help it. it was the actor in him. Nick was rearranging himself, sitting back on his heels, waiting on him to get ready. He gave Nick a little smile as he turned over, on his hands and knees.

Nick swallowed hard. He was going to do this. He wanted to do this. First time for everything. What more could he ask for here? Jake was awesome, obviously willing. they were enjoying everything thus far.. why not push the limits? Test the boundaries? He took the lube and squeezed some into his palm and tossed it back toward the nightstand, completely missing it. The slick liquid was cold as he grasped his cock and began spreading the lube over himself. He liked the way Jake was just being so forward, so suggestive...offering himself. It was sexy. Just easy somehow.

Jake was breathing hard again. The waiting, the not knowing what to expect was killing him. He gasped sharply as Nick's hand trailed down his back, the soft sweep of his fingertips over his spine. The touch was so soft, it brought goosebumps out all over his body. "Nick, please."

Nick whimpered quietly. He never could resist the sound of a plea, being begged. He slid his hand across Jake's back and down to his side, resting there, like he'd grasp a woman's hip as he took her from behind. Just like he was doing now. Taking him from behind. One hand on Jake and the other on his cock, he positioned himself and moved closer to Jake. He leaned over, his voice wavering, and asked, just to reassure himself, "You're sure?"

"Yes!" Jake nearly shouted, his voice raspy with desire. He felt Nick nudging him, the slippery tip of his cock pressing against his ass.

Nick groaned at the initial penetration, just a little bit, he'd barely even made it far enough to consider being "inside" him, but god.. this was going to be too much. Too fast. He knew it.

"Go.. s-s-slow." Jake hissed, his body tensing, despite his best efforts to relax. He tried to release his muscles. at least the ones that would possibly stop Nick from going any further. His mouth fell open as Nick's gentle but insistent movement helped his body give way. A low, animalistic growl left his throat as Nick's other hand found it's way to his side, he was fully in Nick's control, in his grasp. at his mercy.

Nick stopped altogether at the sound Jake made. it was nearly enough to make him come just then. and he was already worried this was going to be over nearly before it began. He wasn't sure what it was. the almost unfathomable tightness around his cock that had he nearly dizzy with pleasure, or the very knowledge of what he was doing. fucking another man... but he knew it wasn't going to take much. He was a little surprised at how easily he'd actually been able to slide inside, he was sure the generous amounts of lube had helped. but he knew, too, that it had to be because Jake wanted this, too.

Jake held his breath as Nick gave another thrust and stopped, giving Jake time to adjust once he'd taken all of his cock. Jake involuntarily flinched, contracting around Nick. He shuddered in response to Nick's moan, causing the blonde to practically howl in a delightfully painful mix of pleasure and desperation. He moved. barely perceptibly. coaxing Nick along. He was ready.

Nick took the subtle cue without any more urging, he could barely hold on any longer. He pulled back, carefully, and thrust in with a little less caution, and when Jake didn't protest or tell him otherwise, he let himself get a little more wild with each motion. He realized quickly that Jake was working with him, moving his body in rhythm, grunting softly with every movement.

Jake was having a little sensory overload as he felt Nick's hands leave his waist and slip around him, searching for his cock. "FU-UCKKKkkk." Jake stammered, drawing the word out as Nick's hand wrapped around him. The movements of Nick's hand were jerky and rough, and slightly out-of-sync with his thrusting, creating a perpetual cycle of stimulation. the firm grip sliding over his cock, the jolt of almost uncontrollable electricity through his body when Nick's cock would hit precisely the right spot inside him.

Nick heard the groan of disappointment as his hand fell away from Jake and moved back up to hold onto him. He couldn't help it. it was getting too close, too fast. He couldn't concentrate on everything at once. He felt Jake shift his weight, repositioning himself to be able to balance himself on one hand while using the other on his cock. He pulled almost all the way out and thrust back in quickly over and over, noticing how the frantic movements of Jake's hand mirrored his own motions.

One of Nick's more powerful thrusts did it. Put Jake completely over the edge. He trembled, trying to quickly catch himself as he came, both hands back on the bed so he wouldn't collapse.

Nick felt Jake's release as well as he heard it, the other man's body clenched around him, giving him no chance of lasting any longer. He gripped Jake tightly, growling loudly and cumming hard. He felt completely weak as soon as the last tremor had run through his body and he was crashing, practically on top of Jake, taking him down onto the mattress with him. His breath was ragged and his heart still beating rapidly as Jake turned to him, catching his mouth in a deep, intense kiss.

The two men tussled a little, Jake ending up on top of Nick, still kissing him, their bodies pressed tightly together. Jake glanced at Nick, his eyes closed, either exhausted, lost in thought, or not quite ready to face what just happened. As Jake was about to look away, Nick's eyes opened suddenly, flashing brilliantly blue.

He gave Jake a sexy smile, "That was...unbelievable."

Jake gave an audible sigh of relief. "Yeah, it was."

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Nick unconsciously trailed his fingertips up and down Jake's arm, wondering if Jake's thoughts were as scrambled as his were. He knew he didn't regret what happened. He was honestly already looking forward to another round with Jake. But what he didn't know was what happened now. He wasn't about to give up on girls, but he couldn't deny he wanted to follow this and see where it would go. The very idea of the situation he'd found himself in now - naked, in bed, and tangled up with another man - would have freaked the hell out of him before, wouldn't it have? Or had he always been at least a little bit curious and not ready to admit it? He looked at Jake again and decided to just give him the credit. It had taken a chance meeting with this one guy to bring out. Whatever this was...in him.

Jake turned over, resituating himself against Nick, feeling very aware of why women liked being held so much. It WAS nice to be held in someone's arms, that secure feeling of knowing they wanted to keep you there. He wasn't sure what time it was or how long they'd been in bed. They'd been silent for a long time, but neither had made a move to leave. He didn't want to, and he was pretty sure Nick wasn't feeling the urge to bolt this time, either. Something very powerful had happened between the two of them, of that he was completely sure.

When Jake stirred, Nick considered for a moment and broke the silence, "I have to ask something."

Jake met his eyes, "Yeah?"

"How's your ass?"

Jake lost it, laughing so hard his whole body was shaking. He felt like he knew he should have expected something like that from Nick and that was one of the things he really liked about him. When he could finally choke back some of his laughter he replied, "Basically okay. a little, um..." He paused searching for an accurate description, "It's a little weird." He said and laughed again.

Nick was smiling - at Jake's outburst of laughter and the way his eyes crinkled up when he smiled or laughed, it was cute. "Sorry."

"No need to apologize. no need at all.." Jake assured him, tilting his head to kiss him again.

Nick returned the kiss and ended it with a teasing nibble on Jake's lower lip. "Maybe a condom wouldn't be a bad idea next time, though." he said, quietly.

Jake felt his heart skip a beat. Next time? Thank god. "I thought of that, earlier, but didn't really care at the time." he said, lowering his voice, "I just wanted you so bad."

Nick felt the blush creep up his cheeks. He always liked being told he was wanted, but this was different. girls always wanted him, but this man wanting him again. that he REALLY liked. "So what do we have here? Now? I mean, what is this?"

Jake shrugged a little. "I don't know. I don't like labels. How can you define something like this? I like you, I like spending time with you, I like being with you, and now we know, I like sex with you. Friends with benefits? Who knows. As long as we're both happy with it. we just enjoy it. Right?"

Nick gave him a smile and another kiss. "Enjoy it. I can do that."