My
Deeper Side...
"Your
sweet, sweet smile appears so familiar....
Where
have I seen it before?
I
cannot remember...
But
it must have been in my dreams when I saw You
And
your sweet....sweet smile."
A
deeper side of me...
Of all things, I can say that I pursue for the Best...Although not all my choices in life may be correct,
I live and learn. I am a relatively understanding person. Yet
Behavior-wise, I can be hard-headed or too stubborn for my own good!
hehe...Not always a good quality. I am always open-minded, but a
part of me seeks security in being agreed with. I also have a passion
for beautiful things: Life, children, nature , animals, flowers,
and Love!
In Personality, one moment I can be a happy Chatterbox, spewing all forms
of nonsensical remarks and humoring others...being very kiddish and Silly!
What can I say?...I am a kid-at-heart! I can be very outspoken...speaking
out my ideas and feedback...with good intentions in mind, of course.
Yet, at other moments, I can be very shy and quiet. I indulge in
the joy of deep thought, silence and being reclusive. When I go out
dancing, people usually see my cheerful, fun and looney side. I get
along well with others and can be outgoing...An easy person to talk to
and get along with. Yet, I am also very shy inside. Especially
when it comes to relationships or those one-on-one moments! hehe...!
When I'm at work or at school...I tend to me more reserved. Professional,
conservative and respectful. You can say that I'm a Crazy Romantic!
I can be very deep when it comes to love, especially through music and
poetry.
I am more of a night owl...staying up late nights...thinking, planning,
or just relaxing...enjoying life's stillness in the nights and bringing
peace to my inner soul through music. I thrive on attention: on my
achievements and me...as an overall person. Probably because I have
experienced so much in my life already. Believe me...I do not live
the average "normal" life!
Through the years, I have been through so many hardships and rocky roads,
all making me a stronger person inside. When people look at me, they
see a different side of me. Many people have told me that they think
I live an easy life...I'm always happy and smiley and carefree. I
have succeeded in so many things. But for me...it is just the opposite.
I may smile on the outside, but my soul can be crying on the inside.
At many times, I feel very lonely and excluded. Lonely...Not in a
sense that there's no one around. I have many friends. Loneliness
in the aspect that there is no one who Really understands me. All
my pain, my emptiness, my past experiences...my hurt. But, that may
be because I don't like to talk about those sad things to many people.
My happy demeanor seems to deceive many people. I am a truly deep
person inside and my soul attempts to be Unique. When I look back
at my life retrospectively, I realize I've done, experienced, and achieved
so much. Yet, that is still not enough...
In Love, I believe in Destiny. If it's meant to be, it will one day
happen and love will take it's course. Fate will allow us to meet...then
it will be up to us whether or not to pursue. I believe in Everlasting
Unconditional Love...that the love of my life will be there for me, til
Death due us part. The future is uncertain and unpredictable.
You never know what will happen today or tomorrow...yet, when you encounter
that Special someone, it will change your life forever. In my past,
I have Loved and Lost. I think we all have...experienced First Love.
And though it's so hard to let go, I've learned that we cannot live our
lives in the Past...but we need to move on and live for what the Future
has to bring for us. (Easier said than done, right? I know....hehehe...).
Many people tell me I'm too picky when it comes to men. But I think
it's good to be a lil' more selective. Anyways, I'm in no rush to
get into a relationship...if it happens, it happens. "Good things
come to those who wait"....so I believe in taking my time. I'm one
of those people who don't Love easily or fall in love easily...but when
I do find that special someone to love, I love them with everything I have.
"Every
Time I Think of You,
My
Heart Smiles!"
