Sad Story
    Looks like I am gonna have more time on my hands than I know what to do with.  Its a sad sad story, and there's no place to start like the beginning.

     As I last updated, I was wondering whether or not I was in love with the most fabulous of people Heather.  Well, I finally have an answer.  I am completely head over heels in love with her.

     Now as I had mentioned in the last article as well, Heather has moved 800 miles away so she can go back to school.  That was just about 6 weeks ago, and the distance is nearly killing me.  I am fully prepared to move to be with her, in fact I am damn near ready now.  I have packed up every non-essential item I own, cleaned up the apartment.  I have gone through my stuff, threw away all the junk; gone through my clothes, decided what I didn't like, didn't want, and didn't wear, and have given them to Goodwill.  I am planning on selling off most of my furniture, and renting a U-Haul trailer for the furniture I do need to take. 

     The bad things that are preventing me from moving at all.  I have not been able to secure a job at any of the places I have applied to.  I barely make enough here to pay my monthly bills, so I have no money saved up.   On a half positive side, a friend of mine offered to lend me $1000 to make the move, but that won't cut it.  It will take all of that plus more just to put down on an apartment.  Not to mention getting a hitched installed on my car, renting a trailer, all the closing payments I need to make on this apartment.  Not to mention, I am begining to hate my current job, for the fact that the management is getting totally screwed up.  Expecting us to get our work done while we are completely understaffed, and not giving us overtime to do it, I wish the pennypushers would come down to the kitchen, put on an apron and work themselves if they wanted it done without overtime.

    So...  while all that is going on, I cannot take my mind off moving to my girl.  This is the love that you see in movies, the utter complete happiness with the comical frustration.  The frustration that I have from not being with her is not even close to being comical.  I feel such emotional distress that its making me easily angered at other people's stupidity, and weighs down on my chest like a two ton weight.

     Now, I am trying to reassure Heather that I will be with her as soon as I can, while my father is telling me to hold off until I can make the move easy financially.  All I want right now is to be with my girl, but I can't affort it.  I talk to Heather pretty much twice a day on the phone, and its now getting to the point where I have to make sure I don't say anything about holding off the move, less she cry.   Its not that she means to cry to guilt me to getting there, there's also a lot of things she is dealing with at school right now, and its a culmination of the crap at school, and then hearing the bad news that I might be delayed, she starts, I can't help it, and a lot of the times I am on the verge of starting to cry myself, but hold back trying to be more supportive of her.  Its just too damn hard being 800 miles away.

     What am I to do?  How can I get there before the end of September?  How can I get a job when I have sent out nearly 20 resumes so far, have done follow-up calls on all of them, and still nothing yet?  Where am I to get the money to move?

     Anyone lend me $2500 to move?  I'll pay ya back in $115 a month for 25 months.... you'll make an extra $375 in the interest
Fallen




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