I think I am in love.
There I said it, I think I am in love. Now you're probably wanting the whole story. Buckle up, its gonna be a smooth ride.
It all began a little over a week ago. I got back from my vacaiton, and after being back at work for only one day, I decided to have a party. I tell all my co-workers to come over and have a beer or two, as well as some of my friends. I even went out the way and invited a couple of interns over. One of the inters was a girl, and this is where everything gets started.
The day of the party is the first time I had even met Kate (yes, the intern) and that is when I invited her over. She said sure.... she knew the rest of the guys at work, since she started when I was away, so she figured if she showed with one of the other girls things would be fine. Things were fine. The party went off without a hitch. Once the Jello shots made it out, things got a little more interesting. We were taking the Jello shots off of each other's lips, which of course meant that we were kissing at least part way through it. As things were winding down about 5:30am is when Kate decides to use my lap as a pillow and fall asleep. Another 15 minutes pass, and I declare its time for me to go to bed, and I gently wake Kate up and ask her if she wants to sleep in my bed with me. I get a puzzled look for a moment, but I quickly add that she isn't to worry, I will be a perfect gentleman. The look leaves and she follows me into my room.
I was good to my word, the only point that could even be considered is that she mentioned that she was cold, and so I did put my arm around her. And then we both fell asleep.
The following week at work, she and I would work across from each other at the prep table, and just talk about general nothings. I would walk her out to her car at the end of the night and give a hug goodnight. Twice during that week, we hung out even after work and talked about life, the universe, and everything while playing cards. It was great trying to distract each other to not notice the cards already in play by tease-kissing, and suggestive looks and whatnot.
The past two nights we have been at the track after work, just walking around and around, talking more about general nothings. The track seems it might be almost a nightly thing, which is great.
You might be asking yourself, so what makes him think he is in love with this girl?
I am asking myself the same question. I cannot quite describe the feeling I get when I am with her. I know its not the same feeling from the other girls I have written about on this site. Those girls I was just hoping for a relationship with, for them to be my girlfriend. This one is different.... I don't quite see her as a girlfriend... I see her as something more... I don't know what... because I can't decribe it. Even now as I pause to think what else can I write that would convey the feeling, I am getting a strange but pleasant feeling in the pit of my stomach, and my heartbeat quickens, I am breathing a little more deeply, and if I wasn't firmly holding my fingers to the keyboard, my hands would be slightly shaking.
I hope eveyone hasn't gotten that warm fuzzy feeling because I think I am in love with someone. There is a reason for this... there is some bad news to accompany all the warm fuzzies. The bad news is, she will only be living in this town for six or seven more weeks. Then she is back off to school, which by my last check was a 13 hour drive. Hardly a distance that makes it possible to commute.
So... not to get my hopes up too high about this girl, I am trying to keep it real, by having the best six weeks of my life with her. If things with her are meant to be, then opportunities will arise, that will suggest it. And you can be damn sure, I'll follow.
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